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Taking Vitamins


Ever get a word for God and it just makes you stop in your tracks?  Do you wonder how you arrived at where you are only to discover what you had been holding on to was not God’s actual plan?  Ever been so touched by God that you can only follow after what He opens for you?  Well my husband John and I are at that place in our life right now.  Short catch up for those who may not have been following for long.

I was married once to a drug and alcohol abuser, had two wonderful children who are 23 and almost 21 at the moment.  One dark night following a suicide attempt with a 410 shotgun by my now ex-husband, God made a way for me to be restored in the fullness of life He had waiting for me.  After declaring to the Lord that I did not desire to have another man in my life, John showed up.  No interest at first but God began a work in both of us we could not ignore.  So in 2012 I married a man 19 years younger than myself and we have been happier then two pigs in mud.  Now, we decided that having children would not be an option.  He did not have a desire to have children and I was okay with that, being in my 40s….well God has presented a different plan….

A few months ago John and I attended a conference at our church and as we were standing at the altar afterwards just basking in His glory, a man of God looked straight through me as he was putting his guitar away.  I immediately knew God was up to something.  He approached us and asked me if I was a mother.  I said yes of two grown children.  I got excited suddenly as if I was going to receive a great word of encouragement for one of my children..nope..not at all what I expected happened next…He says to me and my husband, “Well, the Lord says He will make a way for you to have another child, financially and all other things included, but you have to be in agreement.”

What happened next?? Tears and tears and tears and more sobbing tears.  I did not know how to respond so I just stood there and cried knowing that my husband standing next to me was not going to receive the word of knowledge very well.  To make a long story short, God spoke to John and melted his heart and he now desires to be a daddy.  For you see, John being afraid of making mistakes as a father, had no desire to have a child of his own. We also had another issue..my tubes have been tied since 1994.

So what has happened in the last few weeks?  Well, my husband got a new job with great potential, I got a raise at work, I just got around to adding disability to my health insurance and financially we are coming in line.  Then today it was like the icing on the cake when I went to see an OBYGN, because my personal doctor feels I am high risk for pregnancy.  So when I arrived at my appointment I was filled with doubt.  I was prepared to just hear bad news and reasons why I should not even try to get pregnant.

Once again God blew me away with His wisdom.  This doctor was amazing.  She offered several options from operations to fertility doctors but it was like she sensed I was not going to choose any of those ways to get pregnant.  The minute she said, “There is this one option.  It’s a herb from the Health Hutt.”  I knew that God had set me up!  He knows the cry of my heart.  He knows that I have complete faith in Him.  This herb she told me as gotten two persons with completely tied tubes (medically proven)  pregnant–she called them the miracle babies.  She said it cannot be medically explained.

So what now?  Well, we take prenatal vitamins and folic acid and this herb and we pray!  I was just amazed this afternoon when I connected the dots of how everything has taken place in order.  Then to top it off I thought about the doctor and her knowledge of this herb–she had found out about this through a patient.  The fun part about that is, I did not get to choose who I was going to see..God did! So now, it’s all up to God because there is no other way!


Simple Enough

This is how we know we’re living steadily and deeply in him, and he in us: He’s given us life from his life, from his very own Spirit. Also, we’ve seen for ourselves and continue to state openly that the Father sent his Son as Savior of the world. Everyone who confesses that Jesus is God’s Son participates continuously in an intimate relationship with God. We know it so well, we’ve embraced it heart and soul, this love that comes from God.

1 John 4:16 MSG


What is simple faith?  Even though it starts with the word “simple” it is in fact quite complicated at times yet only because we seem to make it that way.  In our busy lifestyles as life has us doing a million and one things at the same time, we find it hard sometimes to fit sharing Jesus into our over booked schedules.  Sure we go to church and we attend Sunday school class and maybe a Wednesday class to further our “education” of Christ, but do we take it anywhere else?

So often we leave Christ on that cross and we know that we are saved.  We know what He has done for us.  We know the impact His death made in our lives, yet we seem to want to keep Him all to ourselves sometimes.  There are so many hurting and dying people on this earth it would make any Christian’s head spin.  As a matter of fact it seems overwhelming many times.  So we try to give out our little tracts and leave nice notes for waitresses.  We give where there is a need.  We try to show Jesus to others through our gifts and actions.

My husband and I stepped out in faith in church along with several other people and we accepted the anointing of moving into that next step in our ministry.  I am not sure how anyone else felt, but I know I experienced an intense love form the Father.  I felt pulled closer to His side than ever before.  As my husband and I continue to seek God we are discovering that it is easier to share Jesus in the simple things.  Everywhere we go we just talk to people and take the time to maybe just say hi.

When it comes to sharing Jesus with others we just have to go at it with the insight that everyone deserves a chance to meet Jesus and if they say no, remember it is not you that they are rejecting but rather they are rejecting Jesus for their lives.  We have to keep pressing into God for wisdom and strength so that we can continue to move forward for His Kingdom.  We all have a plan and a purpose for our lives and God may have it that you bring one person to Christ or ten thousand.  You might be the one person who introduces Jesus to the next Billy Graham or you might speak in front of thousands of people yourself.

Witnessing for Jesus is a life long process.  We need to just live a simple lifestyle which displays Jesus to every walk of life.  If we preach it, we have to practice it.  If we share the Word of God, we have to believe it ourselves.  We have found that more and more people are just drawn to the Jesus in us and we really don’t have to do much, people just want that tangible presence of God that we carry within.  If you have accepted Jesus into your heart then you too carry the presence of God where ever you go.  Just be who you are in Christ and people will see Him, it’s as simple as that.

Empty Glasses

Joel 1:17

The seeds die in the parched ground, and the grain crops fail. The barns stand empty, and granaries are abandoned.
Sometimes we fail.  Often we say the wrong things before we can close our mouths.  Maybe we pushed someone away because they did not see things the way we do.  Perhaps we just closed our eyes and prayed for the best.  It’s like taking an empty glass to a desert, planting a seed and expecting it to grow and be fruitful.  When we come at something empty, we produce an empty and broken atmosphere.  Yes I am speaking my heart right now as I look across certain circles in my life and find that I am missing several friends who once were close.  What happened?  Was I the empty glass?  Did I not have a desire within me to nurture life?
I probably could spend all night listing all of the things I could have possibly done in the past to hurt others or to make them want to leave my life.  I  admit I am not the best at making friendships work.  It’s not selfishness or pride, it’s just I get tired of trying to be the good guy.  I want to love like Jesus does with all that compassion and grace and I have a desire to love people right where they are at…..yet…..I fail.  Why? Maybe I still have some brokenness.  Maybe I am just too busy.  Maybe I just don’t know what to say or do in certain situations and people think I have just let them go.
This is me.  I am a product of revival.  A creation only God could make.  I am who I am, faults and all.  I am a kind of love me or let me person be I guess.  I have so many things consuming my life right now…work, family, church….how do I make it all balance and still work on relationships?  Let’s get Biblical for a moment.  What did Jesus command us to do right before He left us?  To love one another and spread the Good News.  Are we really filling those shoes if we walk around with empty glasses?
What exactly is an empty glass?  Well, judgments, bitterness, unforgiveness, grudges, feeling unloved or unaccepted, mistrust, not letting the past go, misunderstandings, hatred, religion…..I could go on but it’s not pretty.  What fills those glasses? Grace.  How many of us have empty glasses?  I have lost several friendships in the recent past due to my new marriage.  What?  Am I not happy and content and still following after God with all I am? Am I perfect at it?  Nope.  Do I do my best? Perhaps not always.  Am I allowing God to change me as I go?  You betcha!  Maybe that’s wrong with me….I am too surrender.
How silly does that sound?  Too surrendered.  I guess what I am trying to get to is quite simple, I don’t want to be an empty glass and if I have been that to anyone reading this, I stand asking for forgiveness.  I miss my friends.  I miss the passion we once shared for God.  I long for my glass  to be overflowing so that wherever I go I will water the ground.  I want to be a source of strength for someone else.  I want my life to matter for God.
We as a body of Christ need to learn how to step in and stand beside our sister or brother even if we don’t always understand what God is doing in their lives.  We need to love them right where they are and not judge them.  We need to love one another not because we are perfect at being Christians, but because we recognize we all have pain.  We all have past hurts.  We all made wrong choices sometimes.  We need to learn to seek God in the matters before us and not with our own wisdom.  Yes, as Christians following after God we need to learn how to tell people that Jesus loves them no matter what and we should be able to do the same.
Lord, fill my glass to overflowing.  Change what you need to change in me.  Give me the compassion to love.  Show me how to be a friend.  Let me not grow weary in sharing who You are to others.  Allow me to leave a river of You wherever I go.  Teach me Your ways Lord and give me wisdom to speak the right words.  Thank you for the grace which fills my glass to overflowing each time I come to you.

Content to Wait or Should We Push?

“[Effective Prayer] “Keep on asking, and you will receive what you ask for. Keep on seeking, and you will find. Keep on knocking, and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks, receives. Everyone who seeks, finds. And to everyone who knocks, the door will be opened.”Matthew 7:7-8 NLT


Sometimes the waves are crashing the shoreline over and over and over again.  Some go higher while others just don’t quite make it.  Other times there are no waves beating against the sand on land and an eerie quietness overtakes the area.  During the storms the waves are terrorizing the beach front and washing over the piers and lighthouses.  Can we compare this to our talking with God?  Sometimes we are calm and content to just flow with whatever is going on in our lives, knowing He is in control and taking care of things and then…..

Well, we get hurt by someone or a life circumstance changes and the “waves” to God start hitting just a little harder.  As we try to cope and just push the pain away the waves get a little stronger as we question God on the issue.  The more we push it away it begins to fester into a storm and pretty soon we are raging like a storm ourselves and asking God all sorts of questions.  We get caught up in the what ifs and the where are God’s that we begin to spiral out of control in our own fury.  Then, it takes one name to stop it all, Jesus.

He is the calmer of our storms and the quencher of our waves.  He gives us the answers and the grace to overcome.  He directs our actions and gives us the peace we were searching for before the storm even began.  Soon our storm does not seem so big and the waves die down to the calmness again….until the next eruption in our lives.

How do we get to a more even flow in our lives?  Do we stay content in our little boats and float along, accepting life’s ups and downs, knowing our steps are ordered by God?  Or, do we get our of the boat, tip it over and start some waves?  If we don’t rock our boats who is going to?  How do we ever get to a place of overcoming if we just sit and watch the view go by?

I know God is in control of my life but at times I wonder this very thing….am I waiting for God to move or am I suppose to move so that He can direct my steps?  

How can God grow us up or give us direction if we are just content to not be moved?  How will we gain character if we don’t seek Him and His advice?  How will be obtain wisdom if we let God do all of our thinking for us?  If we are to become warriors and overcomers, I feel we need to get out of our boats, tip them over and start the storm, for it is in the storm that things begin to change.  It is the storms of life which teach us perseverance and test our true faith.

I am getting out of my boat right now………..let the storm begin!

I Wanna Be A Tree!

1 Chronicles 16:33
Then the trees of the forest will sing for joy before the LORD; For He is coming to judge the earth.

Psalm 96:12
Let the field exult, and all that is in it. Then all the trees of the forest will sing for joy

First things first, I apologize for the breaks between my blogs, life has been kind of “valleyish” lately.  Stepping back into old patterns and just plain not with it!  But onward I trudge through the valley knowing that at the end there is wisdom, love and peace.  Also I know God is standing right with me during the testing and showing me how to overcome my currently situation with grace and unbitterness.  I pray God will see I am trying and honor I am still seeking His wisdom through it all.  Okay onto today’s blog!

During a recent devotion at church, our pastors wife held up sheets of lamented leaves she was sending to her grandkids.  As she shared them with us she pointed out several things like the colors, the shapes, the variety comparing them to us as humans.  She showed some that were blemished and had spots, showing how this could mean cancer in one’s life.  Also from a distance we often cannot see the brokenness but once we take a closer look it is right there.  As she was talking I began to think about my dear friend who has been listening to tree references everywhere she goes and God gave me a reflection to write.  (yes, sorry pastor, during church again..)

Trees grow upwards towards heaven and are calling heaven down….what if we are the trees that are pulling heaven down to earth?  As we stand our ground (regarding the things of God), saturating our roots in good soil, soaking up the sun (Son) and surrendering our arms (limbs) if to say, “Here we are calling out to You oh God, hear our calling.”  As we learn to grow our roots become our foundation and what if at times God just sprinkles some miracles into our lives (just like miracle grow), at this point we grow so quickly that those around us are amazed by the mighty Hand of God upon us and how He is moving us that they begin to gather at our feet to hear the Good News.  They stand in awe so that they too may become rooted and and soon are gathering around to take our seeds of faith so that they too may begin to pull down heaven (His Kingdom come).

As we bend and bow with the winds of change we are brought to a fulfillment of our person.  We will go through seasons and our weathering will show.  Scars will appear and others will see the knots we endured.  Even with all of this, yet we will reach up in surrender asking God to help us grow.  We seek the Son (sun) turning out leaves (souls) upward to receive all that God has to offer.  When it rains we stand and receive.  When it snows we soak in the warmth of His love so that we may remain sturdy for the new growth which is coming so that in summer we can enjoy it’s pleasures.  We are continually standing, rooted in the things of God preparing ourselves daily (reading the Bible) for the next change in our lives, shedding the old (fall) and growing green again (spring) so that we can shine for Him in all of the seasons of our lives.

So I urge you to close your eyes and imagine yourself as that tree pulling down Heaven to earth.  We need to stand in upright positioning trusting God to meet all of our needs daily.  Trusting Him to bring caretakers (pastors, friends, evangelists, teachers prophets) into our lives to give us strength and encouragement. Acknowledging that sometimes our damage comes from ourselves (not enough sun and water/Son and Bible),  other scars come from the actions of others (carvings and other destruction/wounds and hurts), and lastly, storms take a toll (lightening and wind/things we cannot control).  All of these things try to shake our foundation and knock us over but when Jesus comes from Heaven He will not see our lightening strikes or our bare limbs or the knots or the scars, He will only see what you are in your heart.  So get your heart right and thinking straight and you will become a tree of good bearing fruit, one which draws people to your foothold and ask, why so blessed?