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Broken Friends

 

“Confront me with the truth and I’ll shut up, show me where I’ve gone off the track. Honest words never hurt anyone, but what’s the point of all this pious bluster? You pretend to tell me what’s wrong with my life, but treat my words of anguish as so much hot air. Are people mere things to you? Are friends just items of profit and loss?
 
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Warning!  Warning!  Warning!!
What you are about to read may cause you to remember some not so nice things about your past.  I apologize up front for any emotional roller coaster I have taken you on.  
 
Just recently the Lord has been dealing on my past, as ugly as some of it was, and the things He brought to my attention were not so pretty.  My life as many of yours, has not been a bed of roses.  My parents adopted me when I was 9 months old and I was brought into a home where I was wanted and loved but the same did not ring true for my parents.  My dad drank and my mom constantly nagged him.  As I grew older I just wanted to run away to where ever I could escape the stress.
 
As I looked to friendships to fill voids in my life, I learned to confide in others very easily and I trusted.  Always trusted.  Then at age 5 my best friend Wendy moved away.  Now some say age 5??  Well I remember as if it was yesterday.  I remember waving goodbye on the curb as my only friend was driven away by her parents.  Then at age 8 my next best friend Kim moved to Texas with her family.  I still can remember the emptiness I felt as one by one they left.
 
Then the heart-breaker was when Eleanor died and went to be with Jesus.  I don’t remember how old I was but I remember waiting for her to come home on the bus (she was handi-capped) and as soon as she would get off the bus we would go lay in the grass for hours and watch the clouds in the sky.  When Jesus took her home I was just devastated.  As time went by I had friends but no one really close until just before Junior High.  My friend and I got really close and I spent more time at her house than my own.  Her sisters and brothers were like my own.
 
Then one day she confronted me and all of a sudden she did not like me anymore.  She said she did not like the way I did my hair or make up and other various things about me and it shattered my idea of what best friends were.  Through out the remainder of Junior High and High school I had friends.  Some were close and others were just fun to hang out with.  At this point I really did not want to get too close to anyone.  The rejection that I felt from my past Best Friend relationships was too much to bear repeating.
 
When I got married, my ex-husband separated me from most of my friends. As my life began to revolve itself around raising kids and taking care of my ex-husband and trying to hold down a full time job, I felt I just did not have time for any friendships.  Even when I started to go back to church I really did not see any need to seek out a best friend.  I figured God was all I had left and He would never leave me.
 
Just recently my husband and I started a class at church called Love and Respect and the facilitator was instructing the husbands to choose someone to be accountable to.  He said the wives did not need to do that because they always were talking to someone on the phone or had a circle of friends to help hold them accountable.  My immediate thought was, “Not Me!”  I no longer have a best friend.  I have no one in my life except my husband to confide in.  I don’t have someone to call at 2 am if I have a crisis that just needs a girlfriends help.  I was bestfriendless…..and to me that was just fine.
 
What I saw in all of this was rejection.  I did not even realize I had a fear of rejection until that man spoke that one sentence about finding an accountability partner other than our spouse………
God has a funny way of doing things for sure.  After class I was in the sanctuary during the opening welcome and a friend came to me with exciting news and I just looked at her with tears in my eyes and I asked her to be my best friend.  
 
Here is another prime example of how God knows exactly what we need before it’s anything we want in life and soon we come to the realization that it’s what we needed all along.  For me it is on to new beginnings.  I am searching the face of God on this new best friend relationship.  It’s been so long for me that I am not sure I even know how to be a best friend to anybody but my hubby.  
 
So now that I have bared my soul on Best Friends I hope I have not stirred up some things in you, BUT, if I did, I pray God begins a new work in you.  I pray God leads you to that perfect friendship.  A friendship that is lasting and edifying,  One that will withstand any storm it faces.  God is love and love is true friendships.  We all need that one person separate from our home life that we can trust and confide in.  Someone who will listen.  Someone who will laugh and cry with you.  But most of all someone who will hold you to that higher standard.
 
 
 
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Partial Presenting is Not an Good Option

 

James 1:16-18

So, my very dear friends, don’t get thrown off course. Every desirable and beneficial gift comes out of heaven. The gifts are rivers of light cascading down from the Father of Light. There is nothing deceitful in God, nothing two-faced, nothing fickle. He brought us to life using the true Word, showing us off as the crown of all his creatures.
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Alright, in the last two blogs I explained how we each have a gift of our own and that we should not desire to have someone else’s gift.  Today let’s explore opening and using our gift.  Do you remember Christmas time when you were a kid, how excited you were to open presents?  Then you would play with it for like a month and then on to the next exciting toy on the market.  Some of us do this with our gift.
Others open the box and for whatever reason are afraid to take it out of the box.  Some use part of their gift and others take the whole gifting out and use it everyday.  Since each of us come from all different walks of life we may also just be in different stages of using our gift.
When I first began to write, I kept it to myself or I shared with a select few people.  Now that I am fully aware that my writing is a gift from God to use to spread the Good News, I am more willing to share it with the world not just a few persons.  Using your gift takes some risk, especially when you first figure out you even have a gift.
Some people at first tend to deny that their gift is even usable.  They might be shy or insecure about the gift they have inside and it takes time to develop it.  I am a little on the shy side myself so when I began writing I wasn’t even sure it was worth the time or the effort, however, as God began to unfold the people it was touching, I then began to gain confidence.
So have you figured out what your gift is?  Did you open it yet?  Are you ready to begin to use it?  I encourage you to open it and try it on for size.  God will lead you in the right directions and open any necessary doors for you.  Trust in God to help you see what a difference you can make with your gift.

It’s All About Me

Psalm 18:16-19

But me he caught—reached all the way from sky to sea; he pulled me out Of that ocean of hate, that enemy chaos, the void in which I was drowning. They hit me when I was down, but Godstuck by me. He stood me up on a wide-open field; I stood there saved—surprised to be loved!
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I have come to the conclusion that no matter how hard I try to think I have it all together, God still searches for me.  Once I thought I had marriage figured out and took a turn on the wrong path, figuring God was unhappy I just continued.  Once I thought I had friends figured out, then I lost most of them, figuring God was still unhappy I just went along friendless.  Once I thought I had my job figured out, still confused at times on this one but now I know God has my back.
What changed?  Easy, I simply surrendered.  I gave it all to God.  He gave this life to me and once I accepted Jesus in to my life I was suppose to hand over my life to Him.  How did I miss such an important step along the way?  Maybe it’s because I was 6 when it happened.  Perhaps it was because I did not learn from the right church.  Or maybe, just maybe I had to go through some things in my life so that I would appreciate what I have now.
I won’t get into the death of flesh because to some it might not make sense, but we as Christians need to come to a place where we just surrender it all, trusting fully in God to take care of EVERYTHING.  Let’s take for instance when I told God after my divorce that I did not need a man in my life anymore.  I wanted to simply publish my books and travel the world speaking to churches.  Didn’t take long for God to step in and give my a second chance at marriage with a man who loved me as much as he loved Jesus.  God once again had a better plan for my life than I could have ever come up with.
So why am I still trying to pretend that I have everything under control?  I don’t know. Guess it’s just human nature.  Just recently I have been frustrated with my books not being published yet and have been pouting a bit.  I began to try to figure out and plan how it’s suppose to happen only to receive a word from God that I am to be thanking Him for publishing my books.  Sigh! Why is it always so easy?  Our minds want to figure it all out when if we would just speak things as though they ought to be instead of what we see right in front of us, perhaps God could move quicker on our behalf….
Whatever it might be in your life, began to let it go.  Start to thank God for you family being saved.  Start thanking God for finances.  Begin to believe that God is for you and not against you.  All He requires is obedience.  When in the same night I was instructed to thank God,  I was also instructed to just rest in Him I started to say all the things I needed to do and there was no time for rest, I began to let it go.  If God wants me to rest in Him then rest in Him I shall do.  I will up my worship and just rest in His lap, watching as He unfolds His plan for my life right before my eyes.

Unthawed

Romans 15:7-13

So reach out and welcome one another to God’s glory. Jesus did it; now you do it! Jesus, staying true to God’s purposes, reached out in a special way to the Jewish insiders so that the old ancestral promises would come true for them. As a result, the non-Jewish outsiders have been able to experience mercy and to show appreciation to God. Just think of all the Scriptures that will come true in what we do! For instance: Then I’ll join outsiders in a hymn-sing; I’ll sing to your name! And this one: Outsiders and insiders, rejoice together! And again: People of all nations, celebrate God! All colors and races, give hearty praise! And Isaiah’s word: There’s the root of our ancestor Jesse, breaking through the earth and growing tree tall, Tall enough for everyone everywhere to see and take hope! Oh! May the God of green hope fill you up with joy, fill you up with peace, so that your believing lives, filled with the life-giving energy of the Holy Spirit, will brim over with hope!
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Ever have someone tell you that you are not living up to your full potential?  How did that make you feel?  Did you feel threatened?  Did you lose whatever peace you had?  Maybe you felt frozen in place with no escape in view.  Perhaps this caused you to break down or go inward.  Maybe for some, it made you step out of your iceberg and do something different to change your circumstances.
Sometimes I used to look at my life through a window wishing I could change my circumstances.  I stood there staring into the promise of tomorrow yet I felt the door was forever frozen and I would never escape from this life I had made for myself.  I stood there not pitying myself but feeling satisfied somehow.  How deceived Satan had me.  I felt as weak as a snowflake that was trapped under an avalanche.
I am not sure what caused me to finally open that door, or at least try.  I guess I had had enough at some point and I was going to get my hope of a new tomorrow.  I assure it was not easy to break through the frozen tundra standing between me and peace, however with God all things truly are possible.  As I began to take one step at a time into the frozen atmosphere my spirit began to stir and come back to life.  Suddenly I felt the sun on my face.  Soon I could feel again.  Then in what seems now like a blink of an eye, I was free, roaming in warm climate once again.
What do you need to be unthawed from?  What hold does Satan have on your life?  Are you frozen in time?  Are you looking out that window seeking release?  All I can tell you do is close your eyes and take the hand of God.  Trust that He has a good and perfect plan for your life.  Begin one step at a time to become unthawed.  Surrender whatever it is to God and watch Him blink His eye and remove you from the situation.

Put it on Easy Mode

Proverbs 1:29-33

“Because you hated Knowledge and had nothing to do with the Fear-of-God, Because you wouldn’t take my advice and brushed aside all my offers to train you, Well, you’ve made your bed—now lie in it; you wanted your own way—now, how do you like it? Don’t you see what happens, you simpletons, you idiots? Carelessness kills; complacency is murder. First pay attention to me, and then relax. Now you can take it easy—you’re in good hands.”
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Why do we as Christians make this walk so hard?  Did someone whisper into our ear at some point and say, “Hey, guess what?  Now that you chose Jesus you’re life is going to be rough.”  When did we first begin to believe this lie?  Did God ever say that directly to us?  Did we ever stop to think that perhaps it was the enemy all along telling us this little whisper to deter us away from our calling?  I bet the last option is more truth than lie.
Living the life of a Christian should be simple.  We accept Jesus and we surrender our lives….He takes care of the rest.  His word says He is our provider.  His word says He takes care of the sparrows so why would He not take better care of us, His own children? Why do we make this Christian life so difficult?  Let me show you a simple truth which came to me just today.
A few weeks ago someone told my husband to put his life on easy.  What this person meant by this was simple, it was if my husband was playing a role playing game and had it on the hardest possible level when it did not need to be.  It really made me think about this Christian walk.  Did we ever stop to realize that the only time it’s hard is when we are being disobedient and not listening to God?  The Bible clearly says in simple terms, choose Jesus, trust and obey and love others.  It really is that SIMPLE.  Nothing complicated.  Nothing strenuous….until our flesh decides it does not want to obey.
Let us take the example of tithing.  God says give Him the 10% and watch what He can do with the 90%.  My husband and I have seen the benefits of this principle over and over again. God truly has provided for us just in the nick of time and with more than we could have imagined. There was a time in my life where I did not tithe and surely God provided because He promises that, but I never got the blessings we do now.  As I was walking in disobedience, yes finances were hard, if I had been faithful with my money, then God could have done more to bless me.
There is so much more to this easy mode of life, I will have to continue on this week with the blog process…..but for today, just put the Christian walk on easy.  Surrender.  Let God have the control panel.  Let Him decide your next move.  Let Jesus be the fuel you need to go farther.  Let Jesus refill your health status so that you feel refreshed and ready for the next level.  Renew your mind that this Christian walk is not that difficult once you realize that you are not the creator of the game, however, you have control over your flesh and that’s what usually stands between you and easy mode.

Walking Our Own Way

Acts 26:15-16

“I said, ‘Who are you, Master?’ “The voice answered, ‘I am Jesus, the One you’re hunting down like an animal. But now, up on your feet—I have a job for you. I’ve handpicked you to be a servant and witness to what’s happened today, and to what I am going to show you.

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How do we know we are headed to the things of God?  How do we know that we are making a difference for His Kingdom?  When does it become completely clear that we are doing God’s will? I don’t have all the answers to these questions and there is a multitude of different answers that we could come up with.  I feel that as it is stated in Jeremiah 29:11 that our purpose was already planned out before we were even born.  That’s a hefty revelation for some especially when we all have our own plans and desires for our lives.

 

So many of us become Christians’ yet we still want to do it our way.  We seem to think we have such a better way of doing things than God.  For some reason we think that our plan is going to work so much better than God’s. May I take a moment to remind us that He is the creator of the UNIVERSE?! He is the director of our steps IF we allow Him to.  As we go about trying to make our plans work, He waits patiently for us to reach the dead ends.  He waits like a patient father waiting for a wayward child to come to their senses.  He waits and waits until we figure out we just cannot do this thing called life on our own.

 

If I have learned anything in 43 years of life, I have finally grasped the idea of surrender.  In order for me to know where to go next, I have to surrender my life.  Yes, my WHOLE life, not just parts of it…ALL of it.  Such a hard revelation at times.  If I ever want to do anything for Jesus, I have to be aware of the fact that my life is not my own.  It never was and I will never be able to put my own restrictions on it if I have said yes to Jesus.  I am no longer at a crossroads in this area, especially after all the good things which have happened since I learned to apply the principle of surrender in my life.  If I had not surrendered my marriage situation I would not be happily remarried right now and on the journey of a life time!

 

I encourage all of us to just surrender.  Surrender your life.  Surrender your will.  Surrender your emotions.  Surrender who you think you should be to God and see if He agrees.  If we want to do anything for Jesus on this earth, we have to choose to stay surrendered to His plan for our lives.  If we want to see people with healed hearts and renewed minds, we have to remain surrendered to God’s Plan, not our own.

Know It All

Faith is the confidence that what we hope for will actually happen; it gives us assurance about things we cannot see. Hebrews 11:1 NLT

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About a week ago I was captivated by this marvelous sunset on Lake Michigan.  As I was trying to capture its’ beauty I noticed just to the left of the lighthouse flashing blue lights in the water and in summer that only means one thing, they were looking for someone.  I stopped taking pictures and began to pray for the victim and the family, not knowing how long the person had been missing.

I got home and checked Facebook (as we don’t watch television) and discovered a 15 year old young girl had drowned around 7:30 pm and they were trying to locate her.  Her body was actually not discovered until two days later late in the evening.  What a sad tragedy for this family.  We can dwell on the fact that there were warnings.  We can debate whether she was a strong enough swimmer.  We can argue that we should have done something else.  We can blame the city for not enough accessible life rings.  What good would all of that do?  A family has lost a member and that’s where the focus has got to be.

Sometimes we just have to come to a place where we know it was God’s will and we need to be at peace with that.  Does it not say in the Bible that He turns all things to good?  We need to find that place in our existence where we trust all the parts of the Bible and begin to apply it to our lives.  My heart grieves with the family and I fully recognize the loss yet I know God had a plan.  He may have used this to touch the hearts of people in and around the family.  He possibly touched hearts in the community and on the rescue teams.  He  already knew this was going to happen if we believe in Jeremiah 29:11.

All in all I just want to convey that we need to know that we know that we know God is in control.  We need to begin to fully rely on God and trust in His plan for each of our lives.  As my heart goes out to the family,  I pray they recover quickly from the loss of their little girl.  I know God will send comfort to all who are in mourning.  Soon they will be able to see that God was not angry or out to get anyone, He just has plans sometimes which we do not comprehend.