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Right Where I am….

Your life is a journey you must travel with a deep consciousness of God. It cost God plenty to get you out of that dead-end, empty-headed life you grew up in. He paid with Christ’s sacred blood, you know. He died like an unblemished, sacrificial lamb. And this was no afterthought. Even though it has only lately—at the end of the ages—become public knowledge, God always knew he was going to do this for you. It’s because of this sacrificed Messiah, whom God then raised from the dead and glorified, that you trust God, that you know you have a future in God. 1 Peter 1:18-19 MSG


Ever feel like it’s just not worth it to move any further?  You just have this stupid desire to be content with what you have already accomplished and call it good? I am kinda in that boat right now.  I just want to either be successful in what comes next or just stay right here.  I have worked hard to build this blog.  I have written two complete books and just waiting for publication funding to roll right in.  I am working on the third book while I wait….but I am just not sure why I am stuck in this mode of wanting to just not move.

I recently attended a church service and God showed me how many of us sacrifice things.  We extend our arms out in front of us as if we are setting something on a shelf with the intent of gaining easy access to it when we need it. This is how I have been about my writing lately.  I surrender the book publishing over and over and over and over it seems like, yet nothing moves.  Then I pause to reflect on what a pastor once mentioned in a sermon.  When you are stuck you need to go back the last word you got a word from God and start from there.

 Hmmmm…write the third book.  That was the word.  Am I doing that now? Nope!  Keep putting it on the back burner, KNOWING, the other two have gone nowhere so why bother….sigh! Not the idea God has in mind for my future I am sure.  The rest of the vision I saw was that God was asking us to place things we intend to give to Him on the highest shelf possible.  Instead of the offering being right in front of us we need to raise both of our arms in COMPLETE surrender so that we will be less tempted to try to get in back into our own hands.

So what now?  I have two options:  Quit or Write the third book.  It’s always up to us what we want to do because of our free will given to us by God, yet we can never reach our destiny if we don’t listen for  God’s still small voice to guide us along the way.  It is completely up to us if we want to do what He asks of us but I can tell you without the shadow of a doubt that you will stay right where you are if you do not complete the assignments.

So do you feel stuck?  Feeling like it’s not even worth pursuing your dream?  Well I am writing this blog as a pep talk to both of us then…pick up where you left off.  Put your feet in motion to the rhythm of faith and keep pressing forward into the things God has planned for you.  I wonder how many of God’s people give up right before the biggest breakthrough of their lives? Let us not be counted among that number.


It’s All About Me

Psalm 18:16-19

But me he caught—reached all the way from sky to sea; he pulled me out Of that ocean of hate, that enemy chaos, the void in which I was drowning. They hit me when I was down, but Godstuck by me. He stood me up on a wide-open field; I stood there saved—surprised to be loved!
I have come to the conclusion that no matter how hard I try to think I have it all together, God still searches for me.  Once I thought I had marriage figured out and took a turn on the wrong path, figuring God was unhappy I just continued.  Once I thought I had friends figured out, then I lost most of them, figuring God was still unhappy I just went along friendless.  Once I thought I had my job figured out, still confused at times on this one but now I know God has my back.
What changed?  Easy, I simply surrendered.  I gave it all to God.  He gave this life to me and once I accepted Jesus in to my life I was suppose to hand over my life to Him.  How did I miss such an important step along the way?  Maybe it’s because I was 6 when it happened.  Perhaps it was because I did not learn from the right church.  Or maybe, just maybe I had to go through some things in my life so that I would appreciate what I have now.
I won’t get into the death of flesh because to some it might not make sense, but we as Christians need to come to a place where we just surrender it all, trusting fully in God to take care of EVERYTHING.  Let’s take for instance when I told God after my divorce that I did not need a man in my life anymore.  I wanted to simply publish my books and travel the world speaking to churches.  Didn’t take long for God to step in and give my a second chance at marriage with a man who loved me as much as he loved Jesus.  God once again had a better plan for my life than I could have ever come up with.
So why am I still trying to pretend that I have everything under control?  I don’t know. Guess it’s just human nature.  Just recently I have been frustrated with my books not being published yet and have been pouting a bit.  I began to try to figure out and plan how it’s suppose to happen only to receive a word from God that I am to be thanking Him for publishing my books.  Sigh! Why is it always so easy?  Our minds want to figure it all out when if we would just speak things as though they ought to be instead of what we see right in front of us, perhaps God could move quicker on our behalf….
Whatever it might be in your life, began to let it go.  Start to thank God for you family being saved.  Start thanking God for finances.  Begin to believe that God is for you and not against you.  All He requires is obedience.  When in the same night I was instructed to thank God,  I was also instructed to just rest in Him I started to say all the things I needed to do and there was no time for rest, I began to let it go.  If God wants me to rest in Him then rest in Him I shall do.  I will up my worship and just rest in His lap, watching as He unfolds His plan for my life right before my eyes.

Beauty is Beheld

Psalm 96:5-6

God made the heavens— Royal splendor radiates from him, A powerful beauty sets him apart.
Today let’s look at what it means to “behold”.  I found the dictionary defines it as:
be•hold (bɪˈhoʊld)

v. be•held, be•hold•ing,
interj. v.t.

1. to observe; look at; see.


2. look; see.
If this is the case and God is beauty then, what are we actually looking at?  If God is in us then what are other people seeing?  If we are professing to be Christians, what are others observing in our lives?  What do we see in other Christians?  Perhaps here is a better question:  What do we want others to see in our lives?  When we are being hit with the biggest disasters of our lives, what wreckage are we leaving from our storm?  Even when we are going through our own personal storms, people are watching to see what God will do.
Our life is not our own when we surrender it to God, therefore, what those around us should see when they look at us is a reflection of God Himself, right?  Why are so many of us projecting an image to the public that really isn’t who we are?
I know for me, for several years I was the life of the party.  I drank and I smoked.  I danced at the bar and flirted.  Even though I was a church goer on Sunday mornings and Wednesday nights, no one would have guessed that by the way I was living my life.  At that particular time in my world, I was just trying to fit in, not be a reflection of God and what He wanted others to see in me.   In that moment of my life I was living for me and my desires, not willing at that point to be used by God.
So how do we get to that place where others begin to see the beauty of God in you?  Well, one word sums it all up….surrender.  We have to be willing to give it all up for His glory.  We need to be ready to do whatever He asks us to do in a moments notice.  We have to come to terms with the fact that once we choose Jesus to be Lord of our lives, we are no longer in charge.
I challenge each of us to examine our own lives.  What do others see?  What do we really stand for?  Are we willing to do what it takes to become a lighthouse for Jesus?  Are we living a life worthy of being beheld for His glory?  I know, these are some tough questions but the responsibility of representing Jesus is great and so worth every minute of it.  Allow God to begin a new work in you today.  Be prepared for Him to use you in ways you never expected.  Be open to the possibilities.


Jeremiah 31:25

I’ll refresh tired bodies; I’ll restore tired souls.
Ever just been tired?  Too exhausted to even take another step or get out of bed?  Just dreading making a move of any kind?  I think we have all been there at some point in our lives.  Often there is just not enough time in a day and we wear ourselves out trying to get everything done.  In today’s society there is not much time allotted for resting let alone actually sleeping 8 hours a day.  We hardly ever take time to rejuvenate our souls, minds and bodies.  No wonder we come to this place where nothing matters and we have no desire to do anything.
The word “rest” is mentioned 525 times in the King James version of the Bible, to me that makes it pretty important to God.  We were created for fellowship and in order to have a relationship with anyone including God, we need time.   Time to slow our lives down long enough to quiet our minds so that we can begin an intimate relationship.  How do we get to this point?  Where do we add an hour to any given day?  Do we skip breakfast to take time to rest?  Do we go to work an hour late?  Do we cut out family time to meet with God?
None of those options seem to make sense.  What it took for me was making time.  Yes it was a sacrificed period of time in my week to spend with Jesus.  It started on Saturday nights at a soaking service.  A 3 to 6 hour span of time to just sit in the presence of God.  I know it seems it bit extreme when before this I barely said good morning to Him.  I think I just got to a point where I was sick and tired of being sick and tired and I wanted desperately to be changed.  I wanted to experience rest and I needed it ever so badly.
As I began to spend my Saturday nights at church instead of sitting home on my Facebook or watching movies, I began to see Who  God really was.  As the weeks went by I began to include God into my daily life and soon He was a focus all the time.  Now I am to a place where I can pray and worship and have a living relationship with God all day  long.  From the moment I awake and say Good Morning Lord to the very end of my day.  I can pray anywhere, any time.  I can sing worship songs in my head even at work during our busiest rush.  The more I seek Him the more at rest I feel.
It all begins with our thought life.  What do we consume our thinking with?  Debt? Stress?  Worry?  Failures?  Future issues?  Past regrets?  There is so much that we think about that has nothing to do with God.  I challenge you to start talking to God.  Begin with a Good Morning and end with a Good Night.  It takes taking that first step.  Then include Him into your breakfast time or lunch hour.  Say a simple  random prayer here or there peppered throughout your day.  Soon before you even realize it, you are in a more intimate relationship with God than ever before.
Resting does not necessarily mean sleeping or sitting or lounging around, it is in the mind.  When our thought life includes God there is a lot less confusion and frustration going on in our minds.  When we are not consumed with all the things of this world, God can override and give us peace and rest.  With this mindset we can do anything we set our minds to.  Resting IN Him simple means we surrender our lives to Him.  We give Him permission to refuel our spirits and give refreshing to our minds.  Resting IN Him is what gets us from dot to dot in this crazy world.

Here I Stand

Luke 1:46-55

And Mary said, I’m bursting with God-news; I’m dancing the song of my Savior God. God took one good look at me, and look what happened— I’m the most fortunate woman on earth! What God has done for me will never be forgotten, the God whose very name is holy, set apart from all others. His mercy flows in wave after wave on those who are in awe before him. He bared his arm and showed his strength, scattered the bluffing braggarts. He knocked tyrants off their high horses, pulled victims out of the mud. The starving poor sat down to a banquet; the callous rich were left out in the cold. He embraced his chosen child, Israel; he remembered and piled on the mercies, piled them high. It’s exactly what he promised, beginning with Abraham and right up to now.
What have I learned in surrender?  I have learned to be content in all things as it says in Philippians.  I have learned how to be loved back together.  I have learned that God is truly in control.  And I think this biggest thing I have learned in surrender is that it is always best just to stay surrendered.  Not easy at times, yet if things are already set into motion by God, then who am I to stop it?
When I decided to follow after Jesus at age 6, I thought my life was going to be easy.  I figured if God had made me then He would take care of me.  So much of this is true, however, He did give us a free will and sometimes we take advantage of that and make some choices not of God.  I freely admit that I was not seeking after God for a mate when entered into my first marriage.  I know that it may not have been the right way to go, yet God does this amazing thing of turning anything bad into good.
I learned through trial and error that standing in surrender to God’s will was much easier than doing everything my way all the time.  The more I surrendered, the more peace I found.  The more peace I obtained the more joy I contained.  At first it was not easy to just stand and let God take care of everything but once I began to see the benefits of such a great Father’s love, standing became easier and I did a lot less squirming.
So, needless to say, here I stand.  I will not be moved or shaken or stirred or pushed or defeated. With God on my side He says no one can be against me.  I know, hard to accept sometimes, but that’s truly how it works.  He moves mountains.  He destroys our enemies.  He provides for our needs.  Really, we just need to stand surrendered to His plan, it’s that simple.

Walking Our Own Way

Acts 26:15-16

“I said, ‘Who are you, Master?’ “The voice answered, ‘I am Jesus, the One you’re hunting down like an animal. But now, up on your feet—I have a job for you. I’ve handpicked you to be a servant and witness to what’s happened today, and to what I am going to show you.


How do we know we are headed to the things of God?  How do we know that we are making a difference for His Kingdom?  When does it become completely clear that we are doing God’s will? I don’t have all the answers to these questions and there is a multitude of different answers that we could come up with.  I feel that as it is stated in Jeremiah 29:11 that our purpose was already planned out before we were even born.  That’s a hefty revelation for some especially when we all have our own plans and desires for our lives.


So many of us become Christians’ yet we still want to do it our way.  We seem to think we have such a better way of doing things than God.  For some reason we think that our plan is going to work so much better than God’s. May I take a moment to remind us that He is the creator of the UNIVERSE?! He is the director of our steps IF we allow Him to.  As we go about trying to make our plans work, He waits patiently for us to reach the dead ends.  He waits like a patient father waiting for a wayward child to come to their senses.  He waits and waits until we figure out we just cannot do this thing called life on our own.


If I have learned anything in 43 years of life, I have finally grasped the idea of surrender.  In order for me to know where to go next, I have to surrender my life.  Yes, my WHOLE life, not just parts of it…ALL of it.  Such a hard revelation at times.  If I ever want to do anything for Jesus, I have to be aware of the fact that my life is not my own.  It never was and I will never be able to put my own restrictions on it if I have said yes to Jesus.  I am no longer at a crossroads in this area, especially after all the good things which have happened since I learned to apply the principle of surrender in my life.  If I had not surrendered my marriage situation I would not be happily remarried right now and on the journey of a life time!


I encourage all of us to just surrender.  Surrender your life.  Surrender your will.  Surrender your emotions.  Surrender who you think you should be to God and see if He agrees.  If we want to do anything for Jesus on this earth, we have to choose to stay surrendered to His plan for our lives.  If we want to see people with healed hearts and renewed minds, we have to remain surrendered to God’s Plan, not our own.

Are You Plugged In?

(this was my women’s group devotion I shared)


He is the Power

Where are you plugged in?  Is it your local church?  The world?  Do you depend on His source of power or your own?  Are you using someone else’s power to get to God?

Psalm 62:11 Once God has spoken; twice I have heard this: that power belongs to God

Psalm 147:5  Great is our Lord, and of great power: his understanding is infinite.

I Corinthians 6:14  And God raised the Lord and will also raise up by His power

When we come to the realization that God is the only power source to this whole world, it makes it easier to want to get plugged in.  When we recognize His living power in our lives we begin to have this desire to follow everything towards the power source.  We are drawn to the truth of His power.  As our hearts turn towards Him, we begin to build up this desire to have that same power work in our lives.  We begin to see that the power of the world is actually powerless in our lives.  We soon see that He is the only way to life and living abundantly in this fallen world.

Accepting the Power

How strong is your power source?  Is your power from God or man?  Do you trust in the power source you are connected to?

2 Corinthians  13:14  For He was crucified in weakness; but lives by the power of God.  For we also are weak in him, but in dealing with you (the Holy Spirit) we live with Him by the power of God.

I Corinthians 4:20 For the Kingdom of God is not in Word, but in power

2 Samuel 22:33  God is my strength and power; and He maketh my way perfect

Isaiah 40:29  He gives power to the faint; and to them that have no might, He increases their strength

Once we find ourselves plugged into the main power source we can flow in peace.  We become a conductor of His power.  What a privilege to be a channel of His power and grace.  As our light  begins to shine with His power working through us we can begin to lead others to get connected. They will want to begin to want to tap into the same source of power because they see we walk in peace.  The more we bring to the power source of God, the brighter a light we can all shine for Jesus.

One warning I might give at this point is to not get extended into the main grid of God’s power. Don’t try to get to God by plugging into someone else’s walk. God has a walk already planned out for you and though He may use you in someone else’s ministry, He still desires for  you to be plugged in on your own separate line. I feel the purpose of this is to keep you focused on Him and not the person running a ministry.  God wants to feed us on a direct line so as not to begin a game of telephone so to speak.  He desires to speak directly to us so that we get all of what He is trying to say to us, not a watered down version of the message.

Staying plugged in

Are you over plugged?  Do you have too many connections?  Are there any short circuits in your connection?  Do you have a quick disconnect?  Is there an on and off switch or a steady stream of constant power?  Do you feel as though your light is not big enough?

Luke 10:19  Behold, I give unto you the power to tread on serpents and scorpions, and over all the power of the enemy: and nothing shall by any means hurt you.

Romans 13:1  Let every soul be subject unto the higher powers.  For there is no power but God: the powers that be are ordained by God.

1 Corinthians 2:5  That your faith should not stand in the wisdom of men, but in the power of God.

What causes us to disconnect from the main power source?  Sometimes we get distracted by other things.  We might start slacking on our daily devotions or maybe skip a worship service or two.  Then we feel as though we are not worthy to plug in and we might just allow others around us do all the glowing for Jesus.  Perhaps we feel like we are not doing our best to shine or that our light is not big enough or bright enough when in reality, we are all plugged into the same power source…yes I said the SAME power source.  No one is unequal in the Kingdom of God. God will use us as He already purposed for our lives even before we were born.  Each light is important and it contributes to the Kingdom as a whole.

I encourage each of us to stay plugged in.  Stay connected to the main power grid of God and not piggybacked off of someone else.  Be who you are in Christ and let your light shine.  Don’t get short circuited by trying to be plugged in all over the place.  Go where He says to go.  Listen to His still small voice and stay plugged in to Jesus.  Together we can be a lighthouse to a world of hurting and hopeless people.