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Right Where I am….

Your life is a journey you must travel with a deep consciousness of God. It cost God plenty to get you out of that dead-end, empty-headed life you grew up in. He paid with Christ’s sacred blood, you know. He died like an unblemished, sacrificial lamb. And this was no afterthought. Even though it has only lately—at the end of the ages—become public knowledge, God always knew he was going to do this for you. It’s because of this sacrificed Messiah, whom God then raised from the dead and glorified, that you trust God, that you know you have a future in God. 1 Peter 1:18-19 MSG

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Ever feel like it’s just not worth it to move any further?  You just have this stupid desire to be content with what you have already accomplished and call it good? I am kinda in that boat right now.  I just want to either be successful in what comes next or just stay right here.  I have worked hard to build this blog.  I have written two complete books and just waiting for publication funding to roll right in.  I am working on the third book while I wait….but I am just not sure why I am stuck in this mode of wanting to just not move.

I recently attended a church service and God showed me how many of us sacrifice things.  We extend our arms out in front of us as if we are setting something on a shelf with the intent of gaining easy access to it when we need it. This is how I have been about my writing lately.  I surrender the book publishing over and over and over and over it seems like, yet nothing moves.  Then I pause to reflect on what a pastor once mentioned in a sermon.  When you are stuck you need to go back the last word you got a word from God and start from there.

 Hmmmm…write the third book.  That was the word.  Am I doing that now? Nope!  Keep putting it on the back burner, KNOWING, the other two have gone nowhere so why bother….sigh! Not the idea God has in mind for my future I am sure.  The rest of the vision I saw was that God was asking us to place things we intend to give to Him on the highest shelf possible.  Instead of the offering being right in front of us we need to raise both of our arms in COMPLETE surrender so that we will be less tempted to try to get in back into our own hands.

So what now?  I have two options:  Quit or Write the third book.  It’s always up to us what we want to do because of our free will given to us by God, yet we can never reach our destiny if we don’t listen for  God’s still small voice to guide us along the way.  It is completely up to us if we want to do what He asks of us but I can tell you without the shadow of a doubt that you will stay right where you are if you do not complete the assignments.

So do you feel stuck?  Feeling like it’s not even worth pursuing your dream?  Well I am writing this blog as a pep talk to both of us then…pick up where you left off.  Put your feet in motion to the rhythm of faith and keep pressing forward into the things God has planned for you.  I wonder how many of God’s people give up right before the biggest breakthrough of their lives? Let us not be counted among that number.

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Release Yourself

Romans 7:6

But now we have been released from the law, for we died to it and are no longer captive to its power. Now we can serve God, not in the old way of obeying the letter of the law, but in the new way of living in the Spirit.
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Ever just feel stuck where you are at? Sorta frozen in place unable to go up or down?  Perhaps not wanting to face the future or revisit the past and undecided of which way you should go?  What gets us so bound up that we lie in waiting for something to just happen? We know there are seasons in our lives so, maybe we just write off our stagnancy for a quiet, uneventful season of our existence.  I have been in this place quite a few times and just now as I was flipping through some old journals I noticed something startling about myself, I was stuck at one point.
Going back to that blog from the other day “Is is Safe to Open My Eyes?”, I was closing my eyes and hoping everything would go away.  I found my journal from April of 2009, the one I take to church and take notes on or record my soaking times, and I realized I had revelation and things from God right up to the point of April 13th.  What I saw as I flipped through the pages was that after my ex-husbands suicide attempt, I wrote nothing about what God was speaking to me, there were just “notes” random, ordinary notes.  What was holding me back from God at that point?  What was keeping me from moving ahead or receiving words of knowledge?
I guess maybe that while my eyes were shut I was mad at God for some reason.  I did not understand why He separated me from my husband.  I could not see what laid ahead for me.  I felt lost and alone even though the life I had led for 20 years was just one disaster after another.  I was just scared and I had not released myself from the pain of my past.  It wasn’t until a revival started at a nearby church that my eyes became open.  It was in that revival that God started speaking to me again and I began listening.  He gave me the release I needed and then the more I surrendered to Him, the more He released me from my past.
If I look back on journals past the revival time, I can clearly see that my eyes were open and I was released.  I had finally reached a level in my relationship with God that I could trust Him with everything me.  I could pray and find release from some very painful memories.  I was finally able to trust again, not only in God but also myself.  I had released my heart into the hands of God so that He could begin a work in me that continues to this day.  By releasing the pain I opened up areas in my heart for restoration.
Are you ready to release yourself?  What is preventing you from stepping forward?  Do you need to set your heart into the hands of God so that He can begin the restoration process in you?  Search your heart today and see if you are ready for a change.