Now God has us where he wants us, with all the time in this world and the next to shower grace and kindness upon us in Christ Jesus. Saving is all his idea, and all his work. All we do is trust him enough to let him do it. It’s God’s gift from start to finish! We don’t play the major role. If we did, we’d probably go around bragging that we’d done the whole thing! No, we neither make nor save ourselves. God does both the making and saving. He creates each of us by Christ Jesus to join him in the work he does, the good work he has gotten ready for us to do, work we had better be doing.
From the moment we say YES to God He begins our road map. Wait, even BEFORE we say yes, He has a road map for our lives. How does that make any sense? I am still trying to wrap my brain around God, but this is one of those things that some times just does not make any sense. If He planned our lives out as it says in Jeremiah 29:11 and before we even born at that, then does that mean He knows that some do not choose salvation or does it mean they miss out on their destiny if they don’t accept Jesus as their savior? Sigh! The things that go on in this head of mine!
Let’s just think for one moment. What happens when a person accepts Jesus? Well, they are now heaven bound simply because they choose Jesus as their savior. They also have this wonderful easy button now called grace. Another bonus is that God will always be their provider, their protector in troubled times, their comforter in the sad times and so many more bonuses here on earth when they choose the one way of God. Here is where things can get a bit tricky for some.
When we are saved by His grace, it is not a license to sin or still do whatever we were doing before we knew God. Once we step onto that bridge of grace, we should begin to have a less of a desire for the things of this world and this very strong desire to serve God. As He renews our mind, we begin not to want to drink so much or smoke cigarettes. We begin to have this desire for solid, pure relationships. Perhaps we finally begin to like who we are as a person. No matter what happens to us we will always have the grace of God and He will quickly forgive our sins when we ask.
So all in all, there is only one way to salvation. There is only one way to travel and as many of us discovered, the path IS narrow! Once we finally discover that we belong to God and it is by His grace alone we will get to see heaven, then we find peace…perfect peace. We begin to see that we can face ANY storm in our path. We find that we could walk the bridges of our lives even with our eyes closed because we have faith in a loving Father Who will take our hand and guide our every step. Now, isn’t that some peace to hold onto?
And what do you benefit if you gain the whole world but are yourself lost or destroyed?
This is me. Who am I? I come with a long list of descriptions for my life and its’ journey so far. First I was a daughter, adopted out so then I was an adoptee. I then became a friend as I grew up. Then I was a girlfriend, fiance, wife, mother, sister, sister- in-law, daughter-in-law and aunt. At work I was an employee crew member then a shift manager, a department head and now a general manager. Now in my current status, I am a divorcee, remarried, living for Christ woman of God. I am an author of two books waiting for publication. My children are grown and well on their way to leading their own lives. Why do I share such details about my life? Because I want to show how I wasn’t always me in any of these relationships until now.
What do I mean? Well, I was always the person “bending” myself to fit into the relationship I was in. Even in early friendships I just wanted to be loved and so I would do what I could to change me so that it meshed with the friendship so they would like me. I started smoking at the age of 13 to fit in. I began drinking at 15, to fit in. I began dating a man older than myself at 15 because I wanted acceptance when I really was not even ready for love. I gave myself away at 17 because I gave in. I had several not right relationships because I was searching to be loved and accepted and instead of finding that in God, I was getting it from people.
I married my first husband at 22 because I was pregnant and I “thought” we were in love. It was a whirlwind of romance but I don’t even know what I was in love with. He was a drinker but I thought I could fix that problem. I got pregnant just a few months after I met him and even though I did not feel obligated at that point to marry him, I knew it was the right thing to do. After marriage it was a long 20 year road of NOT being myself. I submitted my life to taking care of my kids and my husband and pretending everything was okay. I was not free to be me and it hindered everything God had created me to become. I stopped writing. I stopped attending church. I stopped having friendships. I was just running around in circles trying to have a life when there was no life left in me.
So what happened? God stepped in and reached down into my pit on April 13th, 2009 and pulled me from my despair and reset my “Me” button. During a 3 year separation from my husband I learned all about me. I saw what God saw in me. I began to embrace who I was created to be. I was finally on the right path and headed for my destiny. I was writing again. I was teaching my children the things of God. I was desperately seeking God first instead of people. In three years God gave Me back to me. Now I am content to be myself and I have a man in my life now who accepts me and all of my flaws. I know that I can share my true feelings with my husband now and not feel as though I have to “bend” to fit into his perspective of the “perfect wife”.
Now I can freely dance. I can sing out loud. I laugh. I am finally able to be me without any restrictions. How is this possible you ask? Because I am seeking God first and not the approval of man. That is how simple it really is. Go to the One who knows you best, your Creator, and allow Him to show you just who you are. I have never been happier and life is so much easier when you don’t have to keep up with the lies that everything is okay. I love God and therefore I now love my life. I look forward to the coming years. I can’t wait to publish the books. I can’t wait to see what God does in this new marriage. I eagerly await the next move of God in me.