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Fire & Water Never Got Along So Well

 

Psalm 51:10 The Message (MSG)

7-15 Soak me in your laundry and I’ll come out clean,
    scrub me and I’ll have a snow-white life.
Tune me in to foot-tapping songs,
    set these once-broken bones to dancing.
Don’t look too close for blemishes,
    give me a clean bill of health.
God, make a fresh start in me,
    shape a Genesis week from the chaos of my life.
Don’t throw me out with the trash,
    or fail to breathe holiness in me.
Bring me back from gray exile,
    put a fresh wind in my sails!
Give me a job teaching rebels your ways
    so the lost can find their way home.
Commute my death sentence, God, my salvation God,
    and I’ll sing anthems to your life-giving ways.
Unbutton my lips, dear God;
    I’ll let loose with your praise.

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Ever felt like you finally arrived at the top of the mountain you were facing?  Finally achieved a goal you had been striving towards?  Won a race?  Received an award?  I am feeling all of those things right now in this moment.  God says in Psalm 23 that He will fill our cups to overflow status!  He says He will turn all of our sorrow to joy!  He says He will turn ALL things to good!!!  I can tell you this is truth!!

God has done a number of things in my recent past.  Pulled me from a destructive marriage.  Kept me safe in several circumstances.  Restored my faith.  Given me new hope.  Promoted me higher than I could ever imagine.  What does this feel like?  Uncontainable, indescribable, incredible JOY!!!!!!

How did I get to the mountain top?  Surrender.  Surrender.  Surrender. and MORE Surrender.  Today alone this is what happened in my tiny little speck of a life:  I submitted book two to be published, figured out how to start my first book on Kindle, received TWO checks at work, and I obeyed God and started a dance group at church and people actually showed up.  Eight other people to be exact.

Yup!  All that in one day.  I feel the most significant event was the dance group.  When I saw the vision to start this dance team, I of course argued with God.  Why are you picking me? I am the least coordinated person on earth?  Lord, you know I cannot rub my tummy and pat my head at the same time!  Want to know what His answer was:  I always choose the least to accomplish the most in my Kingdom.

This group of women to me are the firestarters who will enable the body of Christ to walk on water.  He chose a leader, a worshiper, got someone out of their box, a Zumba instructor, a cheerleader, a gymnast and a past color guard person to become The Revival Warriors.  Our first practice was awesome and I really look forward to praising God in the most intimate way with this group of women!

So what is the moral of the story?  Mountain top stories are based on surrender and obedience.  Would I have found such joy today if I hadn’t stepped out in faith and called these women to bind together in unity to lead the church to victory?  Probably not.  I encourage anyone reading this to choose surrender and obedience in whatever situation you are currently in.  God cannot take you to the top of the mountain if you do not choose to surrender….He would never drag anyone up the mountain.

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After the Rain

Now all glory to God, who is able, through his mighty power at work within us, to accomplish infinitely more than we might ask or think. Glory to him in the church and in Christ Jesus through all generations forever and ever! Amen. Ephesians 3:20-21 NLT

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After the rain pours out on the earth, things come to life.  Dry flowers are quenched of their thirst.  The soil soaks up the refreshment poured upon it.  The birds come to play in the little puddles.  Children come to make mud pies and jump and play, splashing water everywhere.  Everything just comes to a place of hydration and peace.  Things begin to grow and roots become stronger.  Is it not the same with God?  Let me explain.

I have been attending revival meetings now since 2009.  The first one I attended was 54 days long and changed my life completely.  As I spent night after night in worship and spending time on the floor in prayer, God was able to change my thinking in several areas of my life.  As He poured into me, I grew.  I opened my heart like a flower seeking to be drenched by love.  I finally could see the call God had on my life.  I knew beyond the shadow of a doubt that I had a purpose to fulfill.  After several months of intense one on one time with Jesus, I was ready to move into the things God had prepared for me.

Now here I am in 2013 and we are on the verge of revival breaking out all over the city and what is happening to me?  I am feeling nervous and excited all at the same time.  I know the time is nearing that I will have to get out of my box and declare my purpose.  I will soon be sharing Jesus with everyone I meet no matter where I am.  As we begin to settle into our new building smack dab in the center of the city, I get a front row seat to see just what God can do with little nobodies like me.  Why am I so scared?

Well, after being drenched by the raining down of His love all this time, I have become comfortable with this God I have been seeking.  I have been soaking in all of the teachings and reading His Word. I am filled from head to toe with the knowledge of Jesus and now it is my time to pour it all out.  So why am I in fear? Because part of me feels like if I empty it all out, I will never be full again.  This my friends is what we call discouragement and disbelief in what God can do.  It is what the enemy does to hold us back.  The last thing Satan wants to do is watch us spreading the Good News to everyone we meet so he gives us this lie that once we pour out God, we won’t be able to get a refill.  Pure lies.

I know in my heart of hearts that whatever I pour out in the name of Jesus, God will give me a refill every time I come before Him at the altar.  Just like tonight in a normal service, He poured His love all over the place and we had but to be still and allow Him to rain His grace upon our lives.  Are you dry and in need of a downpour in your spiritual life?  Then it’s as easy as saying, “Lord, fill me up, I am in need.”

Judgement or Encouragement

Romans 14:19

So then, let us aim for harmony in the church and try to build each other up
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How we do we know the difference between judging someone for where they stand with God and encouraging them to dip their toe a little deeper into the river of life?  Sometimes we see bothers and sisters in Christ struggling with so many things and having walked a certain path we know where our help comes from and we have this desire to show them the way to hope, yet they think we are judging them for where they are.  Soon we are arguing about who is right and what is wrong; soon the scene seems to become so hopeless.
There are many hurting people out there and sadly lots  of them are Christians who know God has a plan for their lives and He is their help in present time.  I just want to shake them until they get it, yet I know it is best to just love them where they are at.  I always joke about how I can post something cheesy about God on Facebook and 12 plus people will like it but the moment I mention revival I barely can get any response.  I guess what I am trying to say is that revival changed my life when it came to nearby church.  I have not been the same since I fell in love with Jesus again and I just want others to experience this too.
I wish I could show people just how much can change in your life when you begin to seek a body of Christ to be a part of.  I know the church is not a physical building but rather the church is alive in each of us and moves about the earth proclaiming Jesus is Lord.  Yet I know in my heart of hearts that if I did not have an actual group of Christians to hang out with I would surely have slipped into my old ways.
Let me be real for a moment.  When I separated from my first husband I was so broken and in need of love that I might have fallen into so many traps if I had not been in an actual church.  I might have gone back to my partying days or started sleeping around with other men.  Had it not been for the good group of people I was surrounded by I may have just left God all together.  I was so hurt I would have done anything for love even if it was the wrong kind, yet I was held true to God through the entire process.  I respected the love God had for me enough to know I did not want to wander back into my old style of living.
If onlys flood my mind as I try to convey this message.  If only they would go to church…if only they would surrender it all…if only they would choose worship music to listen to….if only they would stop using drugs and  alcohol as a hiding place…if only they would choose to come to revival….if only they would want to change…if only they would love my Jesus like I do.  Nope, I am not perfect in any way, shape or form, but I know there is a God who loves me unconditionally, no matter where I am at and I have this desire to do the same for His people.
So call it judging if you want to but I just want you to know the love of Jesus in your life.  I want you to allow God to radically change you.  I want you to press in and reach the hem of Jesus’ garment.  I want you to be healed and whole so that together as a church body we can bring the light of Jesus to a lost and dying world.  This is why I invite you to revival over and over again.  This is why I invite you to join our women’s group week after week.  This is why I plaster my Facebook wall with Jesus stuff….it’s not because I am religious but because I want you to feel this love.

Is Your Issue Worth It?

Psalm 23:5

You prepare a feast for me in the presence of my enemies. You honor me by anointing my head with oil. My cup overflows with blessings.
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The Scripture basis for this blog: 

Mark 5:25-35

New Living Translation (NLT)

25 A woman in the crowd had suffered for twelve years with constant bleeding. 26 She had suffered a great deal from many doctors, and over the years she had spent everything she had to pay them, but she had gotten no better. In fact, she had gotten worse. 27 She had heard about Jesus, so she came up behind him through the crowd and touched his robe. 28 For she thought to herself, “If I can just touch his robe, I will be healed.” 29 Immediately the bleeding stopped, and she could feel in her body that she had been healed of her terrible condition.

30 Jesus realized at once that healing power had gone out from him, so he turned around in the crowd and asked, “Who touched my robe?”

31 His disciples said to him, “Look at this crowd pressing around you. How can you ask, ‘Who touched me?’”

32 But he kept on looking around to see who had done it. 33 Then the frightened woman, trembling at the realization of what had happened to her, came and fell to her knees in front of him and told him what she had done. 34 And he said to her, “Daughter, your faith has made you well. Go in peace. Your suffering is over.”

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We have been discussing honor and worship at revival these past few weeks and I have just been asking God to show me some things.  Last night we learned about going to church with an expectancy that God will do something, so this morning I went expecting.  I was not feeling well, my voice was sketchy and I asked God to heal my body before we even got to church…posted it on Facebook and everything.  As I stepped into worship this is what happened:

Firstly, I was able to sing…first sign that God was already at work. Secondly when I worship I get this sensation at first that I am pouring into God and honoring Him.  While this is happening there is a light which emanates from me and extends toward heaven.  Then as I choose to receive from God, the light reverses and I am just covered by His glory.  Today it was different.  As I was pouring in so was He and the light met in the middle. I was confused for a moment as I had not encountered this before, then I heard a voice say walk toward the throne.

As I walked in obedience I was brought back to a book I had read by Rick Joyner, The Call, which is about a vision of heaven he had.  I remember seeing all of these people surrounding the throne of God, important people from history and I could not help but think that I was somehow not worthy to be walking to the front, yet I continued to walk.  The closer I got, the more the  light  met and became circles and they radiated out in all directions connecting the worship and bringing it to a new higher level.  God was truly revealing Himself to me in that moment.

So, needless to say, worship was off the hook and wonderful and it brought revelation to me in another area of my understanding.  I sat down after worship and God showed me a hand reaching out from a crowd of people.  In my spirit I knew right away it was the woman with the issue of blood.  As I drew closer to see what God wanted to show me, He showed me there was a hand helping this woman touch Jesus and the following is what God spoke to me:

Like the woman who pushes through the crowds just to get to Jesus to touch the hem of His garment to receive by faith her healing–we should be pressing continually forward,  He HAS prepared a table for us AMONGST our enemies and He gives us the strength daily to overcome and push through anything the enemy has set out for us that day.  So, being set apart by grace, let the words of our testimonies help those hurting around us push through the crowd and touch the hem of Jesus’ garment.  We as a body of Christ are to show the way to Jesus.  Let us love one another aside from our differences and begin to help others to reach out and touch Jesus for their healing.

Wow!  God was really speaking that we need to step out and step in to help others seek Jesus.  We need to realize that their issues are just as important as the one that brought us to God.  We need to have compassion for those who are searching for hope in this fallen world.  Are we willing to set aside our issues to help someone else reach out and touch Jesus?

Empty Glasses

Joel 1:17

The seeds die in the parched ground, and the grain crops fail. The barns stand empty, and granaries are abandoned.
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Sometimes we fail.  Often we say the wrong things before we can close our mouths.  Maybe we pushed someone away because they did not see things the way we do.  Perhaps we just closed our eyes and prayed for the best.  It’s like taking an empty glass to a desert, planting a seed and expecting it to grow and be fruitful.  When we come at something empty, we produce an empty and broken atmosphere.  Yes I am speaking my heart right now as I look across certain circles in my life and find that I am missing several friends who once were close.  What happened?  Was I the empty glass?  Did I not have a desire within me to nurture life?
I probably could spend all night listing all of the things I could have possibly done in the past to hurt others or to make them want to leave my life.  I  admit I am not the best at making friendships work.  It’s not selfishness or pride, it’s just I get tired of trying to be the good guy.  I want to love like Jesus does with all that compassion and grace and I have a desire to love people right where they are at…..yet…..I fail.  Why? Maybe I still have some brokenness.  Maybe I am just too busy.  Maybe I just don’t know what to say or do in certain situations and people think I have just let them go.
This is me.  I am a product of revival.  A creation only God could make.  I am who I am, faults and all.  I am a kind of love me or let me person be I guess.  I have so many things consuming my life right now…work, family, church….how do I make it all balance and still work on relationships?  Let’s get Biblical for a moment.  What did Jesus command us to do right before He left us?  To love one another and spread the Good News.  Are we really filling those shoes if we walk around with empty glasses?
What exactly is an empty glass?  Well, judgments, bitterness, unforgiveness, grudges, feeling unloved or unaccepted, mistrust, not letting the past go, misunderstandings, hatred, religion…..I could go on but it’s not pretty.  What fills those glasses? Grace.  How many of us have empty glasses?  I have lost several friendships in the recent past due to my new marriage.  What?  Am I not happy and content and still following after God with all I am? Am I perfect at it?  Nope.  Do I do my best? Perhaps not always.  Am I allowing God to change me as I go?  You betcha!  Maybe that’s wrong with me….I am too surrender.
How silly does that sound?  Too surrendered.  I guess what I am trying to get to is quite simple, I don’t want to be an empty glass and if I have been that to anyone reading this, I stand asking for forgiveness.  I miss my friends.  I miss the passion we once shared for God.  I long for my glass  to be overflowing so that wherever I go I will water the ground.  I want to be a source of strength for someone else.  I want my life to matter for God.
We as a body of Christ need to learn how to step in and stand beside our sister or brother even if we don’t always understand what God is doing in their lives.  We need to love them right where they are and not judge them.  We need to love one another not because we are perfect at being Christians, but because we recognize we all have pain.  We all have past hurts.  We all made wrong choices sometimes.  We need to learn to seek God in the matters before us and not with our own wisdom.  Yes, as Christians following after God we need to learn how to tell people that Jesus loves them no matter what and we should be able to do the same.
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Lord, fill my glass to overflowing.  Change what you need to change in me.  Give me the compassion to love.  Show me how to be a friend.  Let me not grow weary in sharing who You are to others.  Allow me to leave a river of You wherever I go.  Teach me Your ways Lord and give me wisdom to speak the right words.  Thank you for the grace which fills my glass to overflowing each time I come to you.

Release Yourself

Romans 7:6

But now we have been released from the law, for we died to it and are no longer captive to its power. Now we can serve God, not in the old way of obeying the letter of the law, but in the new way of living in the Spirit.
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Ever just feel stuck where you are at? Sorta frozen in place unable to go up or down?  Perhaps not wanting to face the future or revisit the past and undecided of which way you should go?  What gets us so bound up that we lie in waiting for something to just happen? We know there are seasons in our lives so, maybe we just write off our stagnancy for a quiet, uneventful season of our existence.  I have been in this place quite a few times and just now as I was flipping through some old journals I noticed something startling about myself, I was stuck at one point.
Going back to that blog from the other day “Is is Safe to Open My Eyes?”, I was closing my eyes and hoping everything would go away.  I found my journal from April of 2009, the one I take to church and take notes on or record my soaking times, and I realized I had revelation and things from God right up to the point of April 13th.  What I saw as I flipped through the pages was that after my ex-husbands suicide attempt, I wrote nothing about what God was speaking to me, there were just “notes” random, ordinary notes.  What was holding me back from God at that point?  What was keeping me from moving ahead or receiving words of knowledge?
I guess maybe that while my eyes were shut I was mad at God for some reason.  I did not understand why He separated me from my husband.  I could not see what laid ahead for me.  I felt lost and alone even though the life I had led for 20 years was just one disaster after another.  I was just scared and I had not released myself from the pain of my past.  It wasn’t until a revival started at a nearby church that my eyes became open.  It was in that revival that God started speaking to me again and I began listening.  He gave me the release I needed and then the more I surrendered to Him, the more He released me from my past.
If I look back on journals past the revival time, I can clearly see that my eyes were open and I was released.  I had finally reached a level in my relationship with God that I could trust Him with everything me.  I could pray and find release from some very painful memories.  I was finally able to trust again, not only in God but also myself.  I had released my heart into the hands of God so that He could begin a work in me that continues to this day.  By releasing the pain I opened up areas in my heart for restoration.
Are you ready to release yourself?  What is preventing you from stepping forward?  Do you need to set your heart into the hands of God so that He can begin the restoration process in you?  Search your heart today and see if you are ready for a change.

This Is Who I Am

Isaiah 66:12

12 This is what the Lord says:

“I will give Jerusalem a river of peace and prosperity.
    The wealth of the nations will flow to her.
Her children will be nursed at her breasts,
    carried in her arms, and held on her lap.

This is what God created me to be.  A human with a desire upon her heart to serve God with all the strength she holds within .  No one else played a part in my creation.  No other human helped designed me or gave me my first breath.  Only God can take all the glory for how I was designed and created.  Only God can instill in me what He wants me to see about Him and my destiny.  I am exactly what and where God wants me to be.  Why do we has humans in Christ have such a hard time accepting this very truth?

What I am going through at this point in my life is a complete overhaul of myself in Christ.  I had gotten off the path of my destiny and now God has been doing some drastic, wonderful, painful things to redirect my steps.  As I linger long enough in His Presence to hear His voice, I am drawn closer and closer towards the destiny He already set out for me to achieve.  I have been so bound by the things of this world I could not see clearly.  I had become the great pretender and everything was always okay.  We a have  a saying in our McDonalds where I work and it has been ingrained in me for 20 years, “Fake it until you make it.”  Well, today that is no longer a motto in any aspect of my life.

I am done at this very moment in time with faking my life and making it look good just so the “world” can be happy.  I am choosing to follow my heart.  I am choosing to follow after God.  I am choosing life.  I am finally choosing life.  I am ready to accept life.  Today I take a giant leap of faith, plug my nose and dive right into the river.  The river of life God wants me to be in.  No more negative bombarding.  No more accepting the “truth” of the world.  This is who I am and where I am in my walk and God is right beside me.

I have been diligently searching God for 3 years. I attended a 54 day revival a while ago and I only missed a few days.  Yes, I worked full time and had other activities in my life but I chose to go every night I could.  I tried to get friends to go.  I tried to share what I was getting and still no one seemed interested or had a desire for God to change them.  Now here I am again in the midst of another revival.  Four days a week I am found in that place where God is changing me.  I also attend church on Sunday mornings and Wednesday nights.  Instead of watching television or hanging out I am seeking the face of God, therefore, who should know better than I what God is doing in my life?

I am not angry with anyone.  I am not unwilling to listen.  I am forgiving to those who persecute me for my life right now, but, hey, was not our own Jesus Christ confronted and questioned?  I just want people to know that I look to God everyday for direction.  Everyday I choose to surrender it all and receive what He is wanting me to get.  I love God more than the air I breathe and without Him I would be nothing.  I pray eyes will be opened and release would come, however, until that happens I am still going to choose to love.