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I Don’t Care, but ya Know I do….

God is all strength for his people, ample refuge for his chosen leader; Save your people and bless your heritage. Care for them; carry them like a good shepherd.
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Ever get to this point in life where you just don’t care anymore, almost as if your care button is broken?  In ministry no matter what you are called to, you are commanded Biblically to love others. Sometimes this is very hard to do when the people you are trying to love just don’t seem to care enough to make it worth it.  This is my struggle.  I work hard.  I try to separate home from work and it seems no matter what I do to get to this place, something is always seeping in.
I love my job most days, yet there are times when I have just had enough and we go back to that ostrich syndrome that I spoke of a few blogs back, I just want to bury my head in the sand and hope it all goes away.  Am I being selfish? Do I really not care? No and no.  We all need a healthy separation from things. So what is really bothering me?  Why don’t I want to care anymore?  Here are the things I discovered as I sought God:
1.  Not everyone has the same passion
2.  Nobody has the same drive to do things
3.  People are motivated by different things
4.  For some people, YES this is just a means to an end purpose
So, now what does this all boil down to?  Do I get to choose to stop caring because it appears as those others don’t care?  Do I become a people pleaser?  Do I just do what I need to do and not worry how it is affecting others? Nope. Respect is the answer.  There needs to a revelation on respecting each others purposes.
When I chose Jesus into my life, I chose to love. I chose to care.  I chose to help people.
So I guess the answer is simple..keep calm and keep caring.  I choose in this moment of time to keep caring, to keep helping others find who they are.  I will continue but perhaps with a different approach.  Instead of thinking they don’t care, maybe I could view it as they are doing their best in their situation.  We often have to stop and carefully consider where  a person has been and what they have been through.  For years in my previous marriage I had to try and separate the wreckage of home life and my job.  I am thankful for understanding bosses who understood what I was dealing with.  I need to have that same heart and compassion for the people I know.
Life with Jesus is challenging sometimes but only because it was easier when we did not care.
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Walking Our Own Way

Acts 26:15-16

“I said, ‘Who are you, Master?’ “The voice answered, ‘I am Jesus, the One you’re hunting down like an animal. But now, up on your feet—I have a job for you. I’ve handpicked you to be a servant and witness to what’s happened today, and to what I am going to show you.

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How do we know we are headed to the things of God?  How do we know that we are making a difference for His Kingdom?  When does it become completely clear that we are doing God’s will? I don’t have all the answers to these questions and there is a multitude of different answers that we could come up with.  I feel that as it is stated in Jeremiah 29:11 that our purpose was already planned out before we were even born.  That’s a hefty revelation for some especially when we all have our own plans and desires for our lives.

 

So many of us become Christians’ yet we still want to do it our way.  We seem to think we have such a better way of doing things than God.  For some reason we think that our plan is going to work so much better than God’s. May I take a moment to remind us that He is the creator of the UNIVERSE?! He is the director of our steps IF we allow Him to.  As we go about trying to make our plans work, He waits patiently for us to reach the dead ends.  He waits like a patient father waiting for a wayward child to come to their senses.  He waits and waits until we figure out we just cannot do this thing called life on our own.

 

If I have learned anything in 43 years of life, I have finally grasped the idea of surrender.  In order for me to know where to go next, I have to surrender my life.  Yes, my WHOLE life, not just parts of it…ALL of it.  Such a hard revelation at times.  If I ever want to do anything for Jesus, I have to be aware of the fact that my life is not my own.  It never was and I will never be able to put my own restrictions on it if I have said yes to Jesus.  I am no longer at a crossroads in this area, especially after all the good things which have happened since I learned to apply the principle of surrender in my life.  If I had not surrendered my marriage situation I would not be happily remarried right now and on the journey of a life time!

 

I encourage all of us to just surrender.  Surrender your life.  Surrender your will.  Surrender your emotions.  Surrender who you think you should be to God and see if He agrees.  If we want to do anything for Jesus on this earth, we have to choose to stay surrendered to His plan for our lives.  If we want to see people with healed hearts and renewed minds, we have to remain surrendered to God’s Plan, not our own.

Yup! That’s It!

Jeremiah 29:11

For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.
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So it’s no coincidence that God brings us back to the exact word He spoke into our lives at just the right moment in time.  I have been sitting here discouraged and feeling like nothing is happening in my life and suddenly like a mighty rushing wind, God shows up out of nowhere to remind me He is still there.  Yes, a million and one good things have come to pass in the last few months and I know somewhere in this brain of mine that things have changed, yet I feel like I am not making a difference.  Leave it to God to call us out and point us in the right direction again.
After months of being refined in the fire, I finally woke up this morning different.  I cannot exactly explain how or why, just renewed.  I feel alive again in the things of God and I am ready for what He has next.  My husband and I were told that we would have a powerful ministry and God said our love would be like no other love between a married couple.  Well, these things seem to be true yet I still felt like we were just not making an impact for God’s people.
Last night we attended a revival service to support a friend and we were called out as husband and wife and God renewed EVERYTHING He had already spoken over our lives and took us to that next level.  He said we were destined to be holding marriage seminars and that our love would be super strong.  As I stood next to my husband on that altar in tears I was just overwhelmed by the love that was being poured out upon us.  Never before have I felt so close to God.  In that moment I finally felt like I actually mattered to God and that He would be using us mightily for His purposes.
So here we are today, a new day, a new beginning.  Here I stand in this moment, waiting on God, knowing I am in His plans and that He has great things in store for my husband and I.  We have come to this great revelation that what God has put together no man can separate.  We also are ready for what the next step is without any fear for we are covered in the Blood of Jesus and the devil has no business messing with our lives.
Are you in a slump?  Do you need a refreshing wind to sweep over you?  I encourage you to seek His face.  Lie down in a quiet place and let Him wash you again in the blood, cleansing you from head to toe.  I guarantee that when you arise you will not be the same.