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Maneuvered by Love

2 Corinthians 3:18
So all of us who have had that veil removed can see and reflect the glory of the Lord. And the Lord—who is the Spirit—makes us more and more like Him as we are changed into His glorious image.

Change is all around us.  Changes in the atmosphere.  Changes in attitudes.  Changes in appearances.  Change in jobs.  Change in friends.  Change of style.  Change of location. Change of mind.  Change of direction.  Change of seasons.  Change, change, change, change…..it’s enough to drive the normal person insane.  Perhaps we should look at it from a different angle, God’s view.  As there is a theme of change in the earth, so is there with our Heavenly Father.

God changes hearts, mindset, directions, attitudes, atmospheres and locations in our very lives.  He has the power to set change in motion, often without our even being aware of it happening.  Suddenly we find ourselves far from what we had originally set out for, yet we feel at peace because God decided the change for us.  God is determined that none shall perish and so daily He seeks to change the hearts of those who know Him not.  He often changes us and where we are headed to accomplish this.  Does that make any sense?

Maybe we were set out for a really nice dinner and we had a destination in mind only to arrive to find it closed, relocated or being renovated.  We instantly become disappointed and perhaps a little angry, but if we change our mindset, we will anticipate what God really has in store for us.  He may send us to several locations before we reach our final destination, yet when we are secure in Him and surrender our wills, a blessing will happen.

What if the next person who needed Jesus was at the new place you arrived at to eat?  You did not have any idea there was someone who needed some compassion, however, God did and He made a way for you to bring Light into that persons life.  How amazing is that?  I know, not many of us like change especially when we think we have it all together.  We get frustrated when things don’t quite go as planned, but this is where the changing of the mindset comes in.  Do all things as if we were honoring the King.  Think and react as a child of God on a mission to accomplish His true desire, saving the lost.

Embracing change is never easy.  We get comfortable where we are at and begin to become set in our ways, refusing to see things at times any differently.  Friends, I tell you this, we are not here for us.  We are here because God wants a relationship with each and everyone of us that He has created and His desire is to change us from the inside out so that we can lead others to Him.  What an honor it should be to serve the King. What a privileged to win souls for the Kingdom of Heaven.  We are empowered by a God who loves us so much He sent His own Son to a cross to die for us.

So surrendered I will remain.  Let God change my plans.  Let God move me.  Let God change EVERYTHING in me that does not represent Him.  I want to be a light for the lost.  I want to be maneuvered by the love of God Yes, I am embracing change.  Change is good. Change is wonderful.  Change is what I have been longing for all this time.


Being Loved Back Together

Psalm 33:22
Let Your unfailing love surround us, LORD, for our hope is in You alone.

Psalm 36:10
Pour out Your unfailing love on those who love You; give justice to those with honest hearts.

Three years ago I was sitting in a hospital room on my daughter’s 15th birthday watching my husband of 17 years cling to every heartbeat.  As I watched him labor for his next breath, I was consumed with this overwhelming need for a rescue.  I had been married to a drug addict for way too long.  I had married this man under the assumption that I could “fix” his drinking problem.  I was going to end up with the best husband ever when I was done “fixing” him.  How could I have become so deceived?  Want to know why?  Because I needed love and a way out of my house.  Because I was eager to start a family and have the “perfect” American lifestyle.  Because I was so broken already before I even entered the actual marriage that I could not see how crazy it was of me to think I could “fix” anything in another human being.

Now I stand in awe at what God has brought into my life.  I will try to make a long story short, and give just a few details.  About 3 months ago while I was on vacation, I began to cry out to God about my marriage.  I had been standing, waiting and praying for over three years for my husband to do three things:  Find God in his life, get a job and keep it and lastly to be drug and alcohol free.  These were the three things I required before I could even consider counseling or the idea of rebuilding our very broken marriage.  During those three years we had no contact…no phone calls or visits.  God had us separated for His purposes.  In that three years nothing changed, in fact he is now facing prison time.

After he showed up drunk to my daughter’s open house in August, I really began to seek God for answers.  What am I waiting for?  When will he find his way back to God?  Will my marriage ever be restored?  As I was blasting all of these questions at God, I heard Him clearly say, “I promised you the restoration of your family, not your marriage.”  Stopped me dead in my tracks.  What did He just say?  In the next few moments I felt a release come over me and I felt in my heart of hearts that I had been released to divorce.  Now this is where I stand in awe of God and how He works.  It is not for us to figure out, but for us to receive and trust in Him and not question His ways for He has already planned and purposed out our lives.

About a year ago I met a man, John, who spoke into my son’s life, I remember telling him that He was the one who would bring my son back to God at some point.  I only saw John a handful of times over the course of a year, just at church and then finally at recent revival meetings.  We became friends and that was all I ever saw in our relationship, nothing more.  One night at a revival meeting someone approached us and asked if we were “an item” and we just laughed at such a strange question.  As a joke, John asked me out to dinner and before my flesh could say no, I blurted out yes.

Over dinner I shared my life story, something I had yet to do. Then we walked a nearby pier and he shared his story.  Then out of nowhere we began to minster to someone on the pier and God showed us a ministry right in front of us.  On the way back to the cars, we got so lost in God we found ourselves laughing and laying on the cement pier at 11 pm at night.  God did something to change our hearts in that moment of time and now, here we are three months later so in love and walking in what God has laid out for us.  On September 2, 2012 John asked for my hand in marriage and I said, Yes.  We are getting married on December 7th at revival and I have never been happier or filled with so much peace.

I do, however, need to make this very clear.  Yes, I know the divorce will not be final until November 13th and some may not see this relationship as being Biblically right, however, we both have been seeking God over this situation.  For the first two weeks of the relationship we gave God our emotions and begged Him to separate us before we got any further involved if this was not of Him.  Neither of us desired to be hurt and we both wanted our relationship to fully rest on God and His will for our lives.  Now here we are three months later and I have been loved back together by a man who has put God first in his life before everything else and is doing his best to love me like I should be loved.

Neither of us take any credit for our finding each other.  I in fact had sworn of men in my life after what I had been through, but God in His unyielding love saw to it to give me what a needed before I got what I wanted.  Once I realized God had given me exactly what I needed, I was able to receive that a God centered relationship was exactly what I did want.  Now I stand in complete openness with my friends and family.  I am covered by the grace of God and I am safe in His arms.  John and I are seeking God more and more every day and I am now in a place where I am willing to be loved back together so that I can truly be who I was designed to be by God.

Cut My Strings!

1 Timothy 1:5
You must teach people to have genuine love, as well as a good conscience and true faith.

Job 12:13
But God is the real source of wisdom and strength.

Job 14:18
But in the real world, mountains tumble, and rocks crumble;

Tonight at work one of my co-workers made a comment jokingly that he wasn’t a real Christian and  it instantly sparked a blog idea for me: How many of us want to be “real Christians” but we are bound to the things of this world because we don’t know how to cut the strings?  How many times do we stand in front of a church for one reason or another and profess to be real about our Christian walk only to walk out the doors and an hour late reattach our silly strings? How often do we sing songs of being free yet, there are strings on us that keep us from being who we are in Christ? Maybe it’s fear or distrust.  Could it be we just don’t trust ourselves?

The world has so much to offer.  Every time we walk into a grocery store there are options.  Those who watch television are droned into watching one commercial after another as companies try to entice us with the next greatest thing we need in our lives. Businesses are grabbing at our attention spans for their own gain in the world.  Well, I think the next greatest thing we all need in our lives is to cut the strings.  Once we begin to separate ourselves from the things of this world, the better vision we will have and the more likely we will be able to keep the strings from reattaching to us.

Pinocchio struggled throughout the entire story to become a real boy, just like we struggle every day to keep ourselves pure and holy in God’s sight.  Just like Pinocchio, every turn around the corner, there is danger and we have to wrestle with our subconscious to do what is right in the situation.  Will we make the right  choice every time?  Of course not, but we grow in our maturity each instance we do make the right decision.  My take on this, Pinocchio did not have Jesus in his heart.  He had no real path to follow , just a cricket, a pretty cool one at that.  Maybe Jiminey Cricket represented the Holy Spirit.  What if the Holy Spirit talks to people who do not know Christ, enticing them to cut their strings and follow Jesus?  There is so much freedom in being able to freely move about without being tied down to this world.

In the story Pinocchio does become a real boy.  Do we not desire to be real Christians?  Ones that are true to our word and represent Christ in all aspects of our lives?  Our Creator did not design us with strings attached, why?  Because He wants us to be free to choose Him.  If He wanted to control us, like the world does, then maybe we would have strings and this life would just be one big puppet show.  Really?  I don’t think so.  What are we doing in our lives to become real for Jesus?  Are we separating ourselves from the sins of the world?  Are we choosing every day to not become attached to what the world has to offer us instead of God’s provision?

I feel that what this all boils down to is, relationship, just like Pinocchio wanted with Japedo, a real relationship. He wanted to FEEL love and be wanted.  He wanted to belong and feel at home where he was.  Isn’t this what we all really want?  So today, I want to cut my strings.  Whatever is left in me that is not of God, give me those spiritual scissors and let’s cut away!  What holds us down to this world and prevents us from becoming real?  Guilt.  Shame.  Unbelief.  Unworthiness.  Sin.  Regrets.  Unforgiveness.  Pain.  Were not all these things taken care of at the cross?  Go get the scissors and free yourself today!