If you cling to your life, you will lose it; but if you give up your life for me, you will find it.
Today, the ministry is beginning. I do not have the website just yet up and running but things are in the works. The books are at the publishers, awaiting the final touches and the last bit of money to get them published. I assure you all matters are in God’s hands and He will be faithful to provide ALL of my needs. Today I reflect on what I have given up in surrender and I am wondering who else among God’s people are ready to push forward and allow God to be their all and all?
There once was a moment when I knew God was there for me, but I did not allow Him to take care of me like I do now. I was a big girl and I was going to raise my kids and change my husband and do all this things I thought I needed to do, until I realized it had nothing to do with me but everything to do with God. Just like everyone else I faced challenges (still do) and I took each one on as a walk in the valley or a grueling climb up the mountain getting stressed out and feeling as if I was getting nowhere. Just the same cycle over and over again, never really making a difference in my life to have a better relationship with God.
When my life stopped three years ago and I surrendered it all to God, the amazing things began to happen. I was separated from my husband so as not to go through the motions anymore, doing things I just did not want to be a part of. I received my new smile, only after I surrendered it all to God in a moment of despair. Both my kids have graduated from school and beginning their own lives. I was promoted at work. My books are about to be published, my ministry is starting and I am more free than I have ever been! Why? Because I have finally put God first in my life above all else.
This means I have given God my life, my family, my job and my ministry. I have allowed Him to work on behalf and do all the things I thought I had to have control over. WHAT A RELIEF!! Now I am happy and free. My attitude has changed and I feel He is using me in ways I never thought would be possible. I spent 18 years running around in circles and now that I have let go and let God, He has done more in 3 years time then I ever thought possible. Now instead of the valleys and the mountain climbing, He has set me upon the mountain top and I get to soar with the eagles while He is moving and working through me, How Awesome is That?
I encourage you to choose to give it all to God right now. Stop trying to do it all and getting frustrated, instead choose to give Him everything you have, focus your eyes on Jesus and rise above your current circumstances knowing that the God who loves you is in control!
“Yes, come,” Jesus said. So Peter went over the side of the boat and walked on the water toward Jesus.
First, I must apologize for the length of days between my blogs lately, it has been difficult adjusting to my new position at work and I have been very busy. I am hoping as I get a handle on things I will be able to focus once again on my blogging. As for today, this will be short and sweet as I am headed to revival meetings and I am seeking God for some answers. As many of you know, I am in the process of publishing a book. The process is slower than I want to go, yet I know it is all according to God’s perfect plan for my life. Today I want to share some joy and I hope you will rejoice as well for if you too choose to surrender, God is waiting to work a masterpiece in your life as well.
I am an ordinary person. I live an ordinary life for the most part. I am different than everyone else as we all are. I have hopes and dreams. I have tragedies and triumphs. The only difference between me and the unbeliever is God. It is this God Factor which orchestrates my life and gives me the desires of heart. It is this peace and understanding which gets me through my days. The key to all of this was surrender. I am in the process of putting together a little book about surrender and soon it will be available. Surrender was the key to writing my first book, if I had not given it all to God, I would still be in my rut and not growing with the Lord.
This morning, I spoke with a possible book representative. She gave me insights and pointers, sharing a part of her ministry with me. We talked about an hour and I hung up the phone happier than I have been in days. She spoke things into my life and confirmed many things. This book my friends is truly only the beginning. There will be more. God is calling me to a ministry position and I am looking for my yacht. I must get up and get out of my comfortable boat and seek greatness. I have to step out on to the water and trust God to take me to the next big thing. No longer will I dwell in the simple fishing boat, I will live in the yacht where ministering to the broken can begin.
I am so excited to see where God is taking me. I am ready for training and I am seeking those whom God will send into my life to grow me up in the ministry aspect of my life. I am searching for those who will invest time into my book. I am ready to be amazed by God and I want to take you on the journey with me. Ahead of me lay great possibilities and uncharted waters. Just beyond the next harbor there are people who need to hear God loves them and that He desires to heal their brokenness. Lots to do and pray about. Are you ready to go sailing with me? I will not leave you behind, Jesus did not leave me.
“My old self has been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me. So I live in this earthly body by trusting in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.” Galatians 2:20 NLT
Ever wonder what God is up to? It never ceases to amaze me the crazy stories I hear about those who have come to know the Lord. Sometimes the way God works things out is nothing like we planned it out to be. We are often puzzled by the happenings we witness around us all the time. My life has been no different. Yes, I made some bad choices along the way, but God turns all things to good for His glory. This is happening right now in my life and as I sit in a period of rest, God is doing all these things on my behalf. Let me be real with you here for a moment on this early Easter morning as we focus on resurrection time. This is a time for renewal. A time for new beginnings. A time to see just how alive in Christ we are.
As I sit here I can tell you I am at rest. I am doing nothing to force God into moving. I am in surrender and in worship mode. I have completely just let things happen in my life in the last few weeks and it has been amazing to watch God at work. My book is finished and being edited. Nothing I can do here but wait. I just received a promotion at work to General Manager. I knew I was being considered but they only let me know like two weeks ago. I was told I would be attending Hamburger University in August so I thought I had all summer to prove whether I deserved the position or not. Nope, they told me this Tuesday I was acting General Manager as of that past Sunday. Here again, nothing I did, just waiting and being obedient. The house situation, I laugh at this one. They lowered the price to $100,000, we have a possible buyer in mind for my dads house and we feel we are to just scrap out the trailer. Once more, God is in control because I let it go.
Now, here is the icing on the cake. Some may feel differently about this, yet I know that I know that I know it is God at work this very moment. There is so much God in this part of the story I probably can’t even explain it all in words. I have surrendered my marriage. Through soaking prayer, I have let my husband be released to God and I am married to Jesus. Clearly Jesus is taking care of my every need and providing the things I am in need of. Meanwhile, God is doing a work in my husband. This by far is the saddest part of my rest period but I feel it will be the one which brings the most joy. My husband is currently in the county jail waiting sentencing. He has been charged with forced entry and burglary. I do not know all the circumstances but according to the police officer I spoke with it must be pretty serious since the judge placed a $100,000 bond for him.
The timing for this situation is not favorable. Those who have read my Day of Deliverance know that on April 13th, 2009, my daughter’s 15th birthday my husband tried to commit suicide while strung out on several drugs. This situation comes 10 days before my daughter turns 18 which means if he is convicted of this crime, he will not only miss her birthday but also prom, graduation and her open house. Yet with all of this I am at peace knowing this is an answer to prayer. Not long after my husband and I were separated I had two different times of people praying over our family and it was prophesied that my husband would come to know the Lord through going to prison. Since what he is being charged with is a felony, this could be it. I cannot pretend to know what God is up to, however restoration is one of the promises He gave to me.
To further my excitement, at an Easter drama last night at a nearby church, God moved me in my spirit to write Brian’s name on one of my business cards and I was able to give it to a member of Teen Challenge (the place where Brian is suppose to go to find healing) and then my friend had me fill out a prayer request which I thought was weird since I do not attend that church and God was already at work. I filled it out anyways and gave it to the pastor, I giggled a little inside when his exact words were, ” I will make sure this gets to our jail ministry persons.” I so know God is at work and the fire in my belly is such a comfort. God is true to keep His promises and as I am in this rest period I am content knowing God is in control and there is nothing I have to do but be obedient in my surrender.