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Who Is Jesus to You?

Luke 15:20

20 So he got up and went to his father.

   “But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him; he ran to his son, threw his arms around him and kissed him.

Did you know that God accepts you for who you are?  No matter what you have done, no matter where you have been, He will always take you back.  Just like the prodigal son, He welcomes us back with arms open wide and hugs us, showering us with love like we have never known.  Do you also know that God is no respecter of persons which means, we are equal to Him as humans? Yep, the pastor is loved just as much as the beggar.  He loves the choir director as much as the drug addict.  He gives as much attention to the garbage collector as the president.  We all have a purpose to serve and God created us all to run towards our destinies.  He is always there to guide and to correct even when we seem to be unaware of His presence.  What is Jesus to you?  Is He just a religious figure in your life?  He is just something to believe in so that we shall not perish in Hell?  What is He really to you at this moment in your life?

I know; tough questions to answer for some of us.  I have different answers for every stage of my life.  There once was a time when He was just someone I prayed to.  He was someone I ran to when I was in trouble but never for the good things in my life.  There have been times in my life when I have just taken Him for granted, not realizing the big role He should have been playing in my everyday life.  I never thought I was important to God.  I always thought He only loved me a little and I was not worthy of receiving any blessings in this life because I had partied and smoked for so many years.  I am ever so thankful my veil has been removed and I can clearly see now just how much God loves me for who I am.  I now have this desire to become more like Jesus so that I to can begin to accept people for who they are and to begin to have some reasoning to why they behave the way they do.

As Christians’ should we not be following after Jesus and how He treated people?  I know it is very difficult to find acceptance for all the people in our lives.  All of us have co-workers and family members who just drive us nuts.  I am in a working environment where I have to deal with people from all walks of life and sometimes it is very hard to not get agitated by their behaviors at times.  I have one in particular whom I just love to hate.  We never see eye to eye and part of it is her recent disbelief in the things of God.  I know she has walked a very hard road in her life and it has truly just sucked the life out of her.  It pains me to see this once happy, carefree person burdened with pain and distaste for life which is very evident.  I just want her to return to the place in her life where she once was, in love with Jesus, and nothing else mattered because she knew He was there for her.  She stopped going to church because of what some others were speaking about her and her family and it has just been downhill from there.  I know I cannot force her into a renewed relationship with Jesus, I can just pray.

So who in your life needs you to be more accepting of who they are and where they have come from?  If God accepts us for who we are and where we are standing, then why are we not more accepting of others?  I realize at this moment some of you have this pit in your stomach because God is speaking directly to you.  I know each time when I have been too harsh to someone or too judgmental.  Don’t get me wrong, it is in our nature, however, when we take on the nature of Christ, we need to begin to change our lifestyles to reflect Him.  We can no longer just take Jesus as our Savior and go about our daily routines thinking we have nothing to change about ourselves.  Becoming Christ like also is not something we can accomplish over night, it is a slow process of deciding on a moment by moment basis what our reactions are going to be to people in our lives.  God calls us to a higher purpose and part of this is learning to accept people for who they are.  Who knows where the drug addict started out from or why they act the way they do, perhaps they are trying to fill a void in their lives and because they have been shut down by one too many humans, drugs are the only answer.  How about the pastor?  Sure we see how God works in their lives every Sunday as they stand in the pulpit and tries to convey how God is speaking to them to congregation of people who come from all walks of life.  Who are we to criticize His sermon if He is just listening to God and following His will?  God does not command us to judge, but to love.

I pray I have not offended anyone with this blog, however I hope I have stirred some thoughts around in your hearts.  I struggle everyday with this in every aspect of my life, while at work or driving my car or at the grocery store or at the mall.  People are everywhere and most of them are hurting and just wanting to be accepted and loved.  They just need someone to listen to them and accept them even if they are misbehaving or not walking like we think they should be.  Once again we are not called to judge people or to pretend we know how they should be living.  I think perhaps this is why God has called me to be a leader of the youth.  The teens are the most over-judged people I know.  Society seems to be in denial of their own teenage years and it frustrates me when people prejudge the tattoos and piercings and the dress code they display.  Yes, I agree some of these things are strange and not what I would choose for myself, yet I do not let the outward appearance how I feel for these teens.

I challenge all of us to practice accepting people for who they are.  I almost bet if you take 5 minutes to talk to the most annoying person at work tomorrow, you will begin to have compassion for them as you discover they are just human.  Will you do that?  Are you willing to spend just 5 minutes getting to know someone in your life that perhaps you have judged?  I am trying to remember God every moment of my day and He shows me things about people sometimes that just knock my socks off.  I pray He will do the same for you.  I never saw myself has a compassionate person before but the more I try to be a better Christlike person, the more I can see what God sees in others.  If we have struggles then so do they.  Nobody has had a perfect live, but everyone deserves to receive love.


Who is Following after You?

Proverbs 22:6
Train up a child in the way he should go, Even when he is old he will not depart from it.

Live a life worthy of being followed after is the subject I am about to type out.  Now, please do not take offense here, I am merely sharing myself and I struggle in this area as well, so bear with me and read until the end.  The above photo is one I use when I share my testimony and it displays the two sides of my personality while I was in the middle of my struggle with a drug addicted husband.  This picture depicts what I was and what I have now become.  I was depressed and terrified.  I was without hope and hurting.  Since then I have become positive and hopeful in all areas of my life.  I have learned to lean on God for all provision in my life and it has brought me to a place where I feel more stable in being a good example as a parent.  You need to become what you want your children to be.  How can anyone expect their children to be shining examples in society when behind the scenes they are continually exposed to a whole different world?

I grew up in a home where my mom and dad constantly were at war.  They screamed and swore.  My mom threw things at my dad.  My mom had a nasty name for every minute of my dads’ existence.  When I was 16 my parents decided to finally get divorced and as I was having lots of problems with my mom at the time, I chose to live with my dad.  On that day after we left the court house, my dad, whom I had never really gotten to know, began a journey of becoming the person I was to follow after.  My dad quit drinking. He quickly learned he was now the parent completely responsible for a teenager.  My mom went to live with my grandma in a nearby town and I rarely had contact with her until I became pregnant with my son.  Without my mom in the picture I began to see how loving my daddy really was.  He took care of my every need while teaching me life lessons along the way.

He showed me how to be responsible and helped me buy my own car and keep it running.  He taught me to be honest and trusted me to make the right choices for my life while not being too harsh.  After mom left I did not hear the swearing any more and I tried to eliminate it from my life.  I admit I was doing things my father would not have been proud of me for like drinking and smoking and out of what I thought was “respect” I hid these things from him.  When I met my husband, dad paid for lots of things like our trailer and things for the kids without having a clue that most of our money was going for my husbands drug addiction and that’s why we struggled so badly financially.  If anything my dad taught me how to be patient and loving.  He showed my that no matter what, he would do what he could for me and my family.

Then there came a time when dad began to see what was going on and now that I am separated from my husband, he tries even harder to help out.  My dad would give his last dollar to someone if they really needed it.  I find it hard to understand why my mom had such hatred for my dad, it is not the side I see.  As I am a single parent for now, I have some strengths but I also feel as though I have failed my children in so many ways.  As I was in the process of writing my book Addicted to An Addict I wrote the chapter about the bulk of what we went through and though I had forgiven my husband for what we went through, I was overcome with guilt about what I allowed my children to see.  They never really got to see what a real family is like.  Now I know there is no perfect families out there, however, they could have done without the screaming matches and the swearing.  They should have seen more love and less violence in our relationship.  Not that I wanted to spoil my kids, but they could have had so much more if our money had been spent properly.

I have two wonderful children that I wonder sometimes how they survived the wreckage of our marriage.  What example did we give them for a normal family life?  Have they gleaned anything worthy from our lifestyle?  Or did they just learn what “not to do” for their lives?  As I grow in the things of God, I find myself desiring to be better.  I try so hard to keep swearing out of my vocabulary and it is hard when I get upset, yet I have come a long way from three years ago.  I am not aspiring to be a perfect parent, I just want my kids to be loving and kind to all they come in contact with.  I want them to learn patience and how to argue without hurting.  I desire for them to be happy and not be walked on by another person.  I want them to find careers and do what they really want to do in life and not settle for second best.  If I want this for them, I must also want it for me.

My son struggles with how a loving God could leave me in such a predicament for so long and I had to explain to him that I went through what I did because of my own choices and that I had become trapped and thought I had no way out.  He fails to see through the hurt just how God pulled me from the pit I had fallen into and gave me a second chance to change my life.  After writing the chapter in my book and realizing the damage I may have done to my kids, I could not even open my computer to work on the book for three months.  The pain was too bad.  God had given me my children and He trusted me to take care of them.  I felt as though I had let God down in the process.  I since then have found forgiveness and am working on rebuilding myself.  In discovering myself, I have begun to set a bar for my kids.  I have learned a few things along the way and each day I grow closer to God’s destiny for my life.  I just pray my children will follow after me and not the world and its’ ways for I love them with all my heart and always will love them no matter what, just like my daddy who adopted me so many years ago does to this day.

Love Poured +Faith = Hope

Matthew 21:21
Then Jesus told them, “I tell you the truth, if you have faith and don’t doubt, you can do things like this and much more. You can even say to this mountain, ‘May you be lifted up and thrown into the sea,’ and it will happen.

“Do what is good and run from evil so that you may live! Then the Lord God of Heaven’s Armies will be your helper, just as you have claimed. Hate evil and love what is good; turn your courts into true halls of justice. Perhaps even yet the Lord God of Heaven’s Armies will have mercy on the remnant of his people.” Amos 5:14-15 NLT

Had another awesome Saturday night at church.  It seems when many choose to go and party on the weekends, I end up at the Fathers house and find much going on.  Tonight was kinda spectacular.  Let me set the scene for a typical Saturday at church.  We come in and just listen to the music which is playing for about an hour, during this time I journal, read the Bible or just sit and soak.  Then there is a teaching time followed by prayer if anyone needs it.  Sometimes things do not go as “we” plan but rather the Holy Spirit changes the line-up.  Tonight I felt compelled to draw a bit and hence came the drawing above.  This also sparked a few things in my thinking and I came away well refreshed and seeking God even more.

My life, as with any Christian should be, is built upon faith.  During the recent revival I learned many things about faith.  I discovered I really did not have much until about three years ago when God pulled me out of the mess I was in and began to set my life apart from the destruction it had previously known.  My finances were looking better, I was writing more than ever, I was healing and I was beginning to finally believe God for things in my life.  Through this faith I acquired a good running van, kept my job, learned how to budget my money and recently getting my teeth fixed.  Faith is that thing which we cannot see and that is where the difficulty lies.

Take getting this house I want for instance.  People are telling me it is just not possible.  My credit rating says it will difficult to get an interest rate I can afford.  My flesh is telling me I am going for the impossible, yet all the while my faith is letting me pursue this dream.  If you read my blog Deer in the Front Yard, then you already understand just how perfect this house is and how much of a God thing it is for both parties involved.  I am acting on faith as I begin to search out my options for purchasing this home.  I have even begun a work in my current trailer to set things in motion.

As I sat in church tonight, journaling to God, I begin to see a different side of faith like I had not know before.  As the music was playing I began to see this pitcher as it was being filled with water and it was overflowing.  Now I am a writer and drawing is not my expertise, however I began to draw out what I was seeing.  I now have my vision for 2012 which is centered around hope and God just took it a few steps farther for me.  As indicated in the picture, water is flowing from above and this represents the Father’s love for us.  As it pours into the pitcher, which represents us, it mixes with our faith.  It is then when we begin to pour into the lives of others that it turns into Hope.

Another angle too is that when God is pouring love into our lives and we are filled with faith then the hope just begins to pour out as in a continuous stream from above. Just like Peter we must activate our faith if we want things to happen.  Once we are walking by faith on the water before us we must then keep our eyes on Jesus so as not see the circumstances below our feet for surely we will falter. So my focus in 2012 is to be filled up with Jesus so that my faith will remain activated.  By allowing this to happen, faith can arise and be seen causing others to have hope for their lives as well.

Nothing is too big for God and even when others in our lives say we cannot attain our goals, we know when we are operating out of faith, nothing is impossible.  We need to daily renew our minds so that our focus will remain on Jesus and our faith will grow stronger.  I have seen God do so many things already in my life, I find it hard not to have faith.  As I have grown stronger, knowing God is in control, I am able to press forward into other venues of life knowing that if God desires it for my life than it shall be.  As I am finishing the very last chapter of my book, I look forward to taking it to an editor and beginning the process of getting it published with the faith that God is in control.

What is next?

“[A psalm of David.] Let all that I am praise the Lord; with my whole heart, I will praise his holy name. Let all that I am praise the Lord; may I never forget the good things he does for me.” Psalm 103:1-2 NLT

Well, the Christmas season is gone, and next it is New Years. A time of setting goals and making resolutions.  Perhaps the precise moment in time to change a few bad habits in our lives like smoking or over-eating.  A chance for new beginnings to start in our lives.  Maybe we plan to marry someone this coming year, big things to plan there.  Or we want to get fit and healthy so we can live a little longer.  What if we looked at the coming year a bit differently than usual?  Why not take the focus off from us and place it onto someone else?  Hmmmm……some food for thought huh?

The last blog I wrote about the real meaning of Christmas had to do with hope and one of my readers commented with this simple thing:  Helping Ordinary People Everywhere = H.O.P.E.  What a brilliant idea for a resolution for 2012!  If I know God is taking care of my every need and He is in control, does that not open me up to help others?  If I am trusting God then I need not worry about me, I can focus on being of the Father’s business instead, just like Jesus.  What a novel idea!

In today’s society we are so wrapped up in worry we fail to see past it all.  We can never seem to get ahead and are always wondering where the next big corruption in our life is going to happen.  Well with the H.O.P.E. plan in place, whala, no more worry because we will have taken the focus off from our own circumstances and begin to see the needs of others around us.  I know, it will not be as easy as I seem to make it look, but we can pray on it.  We can ask God to show us how it can be accomplished.

So many things can be done with this new focus.  We can grow in our relationship not only with God but with the people will be interacting with along the way.  I am so excited to be going to Grand Rapids tomorrow with my fellow managers to visit a Ronald McDonald House.  We will be preparing dinner and visiting with the children and parents who are currently there.  What a joy it will be to just help out in this small way.  When we stop staring at ourselves in the mirror long enough to see that there are others hurting out there too, perhaps we can begin to make a difference.

I know when I was in the midst of my marriage I was very broken and as I have shared was stuck in a rut of depression that I couldn’t even see.  I thought I was the only one going through what I was and that no one could possibly have it as bad as I did.  Now that I am on the other side of the circumstance, I can clearly see I did not have it as bad as the battered wife or the ones living in complete poverty without a roof over their head.  I am grateful for what God did to change my life and now I am ready to help change some others around me.  I am excited for the completion of my book to be right around the corner for I know since it has been inspired by God, it will touch the lives of others who need to be pulled up and set upon safe ground.

So in conclusion, I am going to leave me behind and begin to look for opportunities to help those who need it.  I find myself not much of a servant style person even though I like helping others.  I will start looking for simple ways to brighten someones day, perhaps starting the greeting card company with my daughter will happen this year too.  I don’t really know where this will take me but I am ready for a journey with God.  I know He will lead me and send me down the right avenues if only I open myself up to be used by Him.  May your hearts be touched as well to maybe go outside the box a little this year and try to make a difference in the lives of those around you.  Be creative.  Share your ideas.  Just go and love His people!

You ARE Just LIke Everybody Else

Psalm 103:4
Who redeems your life from the pit, Who crowns you with lovingkindness and compassion;

Isaiah 30:18
[ God Is Gracious and Just ] Therefore the LORD longs to be gracious to you, And therefore He waits on high to have compassion on you. For the LORD is a God of justice; How blessed are all those who long for Him.

Acts 10:34
Then Peter opened his mouth, and said, Of a truth I perceive that God is no respecter of persons:

Romans 2:11
For there is no respect of persons with God.

Ready for this one?  You are not any different than anybody else…in the eyes of God.  God does not lay any precedence in the life of another who seems to be ahead of us in the Christian Walk.  He loves the president of a company just as the secretary.  He loves the preacher the same amount as the newly born Christian.  He loves the drug addict just the same as the devote Christian.  Let us take a moment to wrap this around our brains, God created us, He loves us, He wants a relationship with everyone He has placed the breath of life into, why would He love us each differently?  No matter where we go, no matter what we do, our God has compassion and scoops us right back into His loving arms and welcomes us home.  Look at the story of the prodigal son (Luke 15:30-32) the father rejoiced upon the return of his wayward son and so too is it with our Heavenly Father.

As we begin down the road to the Promised Land we begin to see that God has spared us from a multiple of mishaps along the way.  I can name several instances where I could see where God saved my life and if He did it for me, would He not do it also in the lives of others around me?  God pulls people, saved and unsaved, out of fire struck buildings and smashed cars every day and when they walk away and honor God for their recovery God is glorified.  The Bible says to do ALL things to Glorify God and having compassion for others is one of them.  How many times are we quick to judge others even if we don’t really mean too?  I have to repent all the time when I start to make judgements and conclusions about others around me. The world has made us so stero-typing that we have lost sight of God in all of it.  Do we honestly think God looks down at earth and separates us into “groups”?  Do you think when we get to heaven we will have our own sections according who we were on earth?  NO!  God loves all of us with the same agape love and no matter how we try to deny it, it is not going to change.

We may stomp our feet when someone gets their dream before we get ours, however I assure you we need to examine what we have not done in our own lives to see why.  For years I have thrown a pity party of one because of the lack I had in my life.  Well, it was not because God did not want to bless me, it was my lack of faith and trust which left me in the middle of my disaster.  It wasn’t because God did not love me the same as my friend who had a huge home, nice car, money in the bank and a life that just seemed so perfect.  It was because I chose not to listen and thought I had it all under control.  We have no right to place people in categories and I am sure it is not fair to anyone to be “placed” in a certain group.  We need to stop judging the lives of others and focus on how we can have compassion for them instead.

Take the homeless man you just passed along the road, how did you react?  Did you begin to make a life story for him without even knowing what he was all about?  How about the loudly speaking person in the grocery store, do we judge where she came from and what she is complaining about?  Watching a child being disciplined in public, do we quickly frown upon the parenting skills and begin to judge?  I really encourage all of this coming week to ask God to let us see others like He does.  I feel as I am writing this tears welling as God is gripping my heart in this area.  We are to have compassion, judging is for God, not us.  We help shine the Light when we ourselves step out of the judging position and lower our walls to meet people right where they are.  Why is this so hard for us?  I don’t pretend to have all the answers, and frankly I do not want to know them all, however I know what I hear in my spirit.  Compassion is a key we all need to hold in our out stretched hand to those in need.  If you give it, God will give it to you.

Cutting the Tie

Matthew 19:8
He said to them, “Because of your hardness of heart Moses permitted you to divorce your wives; but from the beginning it has not been this way.

Today, I am blogging something the Holy Spirit has been poking at me about since Saturday night.  I know that testimonies change lives and that if we would only begin as a church body to share more of our lives with people, God could do greater good in the earth.  What I am about to write is personal and heavy, I just felt I should put that warning out there.  Okay, with that said, here we go.  Marriage is important to God.  It is a sacred relationship between one man and one woman.  We are to seek God first when searching for  a mate and as I now counsel young men and women alike, start a list of what you want in a mate and submit it to God.  Stick to the list, never compromise. God has a plan for your life and it is up to you to trust He will connect you with just the right person.

So many times in the recent separation, people have asked me about divorce.  Why are you still waiting?  Why are you not legally separated?  Why have you not started the divorce proceeding?  I know those persons ask out of love and just want what is best for me, however to stay Biblical and until God speaks to me and releases me, divorce is not the answer.  Yes it has been over two years.  Yes I get frustrated that I sometimes still got stuck with unpaid bills from him, but God always provides.  Yes I sometimes get tired of waiting, yet I am content in my circumstances.  I would not have grown so close to God at this point if He wasn’t the only one in my life that I am clinging to.

Now, when God caused the separation between my husband and I, He made it VERY clear we were not to have any contact.  No emails, no texting, no phone calls and certainly no face to face encounters.  We were both addicted to each other whether we could see it or not and God knew that bond needed to be broken in order for each of us to heal.  the first year was really tough.  We have two children so I THOUGHT I needed to communicate things concerning the children so I would text my husband.  I wanted to make sure he knew my expectations so I emailed him a few times.  When he called I thought to myself, I need to answer this, what if he is coming back to the Lord or got a job or just needs to tell me something important.  When he texted I felt the same way, what ifs bounded in from everywhere and God was trying to protect me from this but my flesh was so unwilling.

Finally about a year ago, right before I began going to the revival, I received that last text I ever read from my husband, since then I have been very good about deleting voicemails and texts.  I was hurt so deeply by what I read in a simple text that I finally understood what God was protecting me from.  The text simply said, “When you are done playing church, text me and see if I am still waiting for you.”  Cut me like a knife, I cried so long over that.  God gives us specific direction in our lives so that we will be protected from the ploys of the enemy and so often we choose to ignore the situation and the warnings and just keep doing what we want to do, often being hurt is the end result.

Just a few days ago, I was a prophetic mentoring class at my church.  After some soaking music time, prayer and a lesson, the floor is open to those who need personal prayer.  Five chairs are placed in the altar and we are invited to sit if we need someone to pray over us.  I was called up front to pray over another lady and as it was finished, a man looked at me and told me I needed to sit.  Nope, I was fine where I was, did not feel as though I needed any prayer that night, however he was pretty stern about it so I sat.  Some two hours later, there I was: no makeup left from all the tears, filled with joy, had forgiven some people in my life and dealt with some bitterness issues along with some healing for my lungs.  God sure knew what He was doing and I was just ready to go home and continue resting in Him, however, Satan had other plans for the rest of the evening.

As always I check my cell phone before leaving and found I had 4 messages…..all from my husband.  Now he has not tried to contact me in quite some time, except for his aunt passing just recently.  I knew in my heart, though to the human I eye this looked like it could be an urgent matter, that this was merely an attack.  The joy I had just received from God that night through intense prayer, Satan wanted to steal away so quickly.  I handed my phone to my friend who was with me and asked her to delete all the messages.  As she did I calmly walked the isles of the church in prayer and not allowing this to ruin what God has just filled me with.  In the end my friend tells me I need to send one more email to my husband.  Um, God, what about the no contact rule?  Did that change?  So I asked her to be sure about this and she ended up calling me before I got home asking me to give her the email because she was the one who was to send it!

God is good.  He watches over us and when He does something that we just don’t understand at the moment, if we are following in obedience, then we know it is for our own good and we just have to trust.  As I was walking the isles a vision came to me about divorce.  What if when people divorced, they had to come before God?  Sort of reenacting the marriage but starting at the altar first instead of the outside of the church.  Would this stop some divorces?  Would this give God the opportunity to change hearts?  I certainly would love to be a part of Divorce Ceremonies if I knew God could change lives through it.  Can you imagine inviting you family and friends to a Divorce Ceremony?  How much more difficult would it be to walk away?  Now I know there are all kinds of reasons for divorce and even Biblical there are exceptions, however I am really speaking about those couples who have been faithful to each other but have just somehow lost that love and are thinking they made the wrong choice and now just want out of the marriage.

I bought a purity ring to wear while I am separated (my wedding rings were smashed by my husband one night in a fit of rage) and this ring serves two purposes:  one it keeps me honest and two it shows that I am already taken.  I have no desire to begin a relationship with any other man for any reasons.  I am not lonely, God is my husband for the time being.  I know God is at work on my behalf as well as my husbands.  In the mean time God is teaching me how to heal and is working to show my husband what he needs to learn as well.  In closing, just know that God loves you right where you are at and He knows you will make mistakes but He is a just God and one who easily forgives.  I trust Him with my life and I know He only desires good for me.  I pray you come to this same understanding and embrace your marriage for what God intended it to be.  If you are single and looking, make your list and stick to it.  If you have been broken by human love, seek God.

Spoiled Princess

Philippians 4:6 Do not fret or have any anxiety about anything, but in every circumstance and in everything, by prayer and petition ( definite requests), with thanksgiving, continue to make your wants known to God.

How many times have we read that verse and then just shrugged it off feeling like God was talking to someone else?  Why do we find ourselves in such deep sorrow that we cannot acknowledge that God really does love us and He wants to bless us?  How is it possible we can believe Jesus died on the cross for us, yet we don’t ask for anything in faith that we really want because we feel undeserving of it?  When I was in the middle of my marriage and we were fighting to keep our heads above water I was looking at the ground and seeing the disaster I was in when I should have been looking to heaven for help!

Put your hand in front of your face about an arms length away.  What do you see?  Your hand!  If you want to see what is on the other side you have to move it away, but it is still there.  If you want to look to either side you have to bend your body in uncomfortable positions to see around it.  Now let us imagine for a moment that your hand is your battle.  We cannot see through it.  Without moving it out of the way we can not go around it.  Because it is attached to you it goes before you where ever you travel.  Why would we want to live like that, always focusing on the pain right in front of us?  Constantly reminding us of what we have to face every day?

Okay, now if we take that hand away and join it with the other and offer them in surrender to  God, our gave is lifted upwards and our focus is taken off from our hands, our battle.  We now can focus on something else and begin to regain sight of what we really should be focused on, God’s provision.  When our eyes are free to gaze upon our loving Father, things become clear.  We suddenly can hear His voice.  We can begin to trust Him for the things we need in our lives.  God wants to step in and save us from our battle, but we have to be willing to give up the fight.  We have to finally get so desperate we just throw our hands into the air in total surrender, claiming no more, the battle as our own.

In the past few months I have been trying to figure out why I am so happy, even though to the outside world I should be going slightly insane.  People say I should divorce and start a new life with someone else.  Financially things are still not in perfect order and some say I should file for bankruptcy.  I am refusing to go down the worldly road when God has taken me by the hand and lead me a path of trust and blessing.  Why would I not listen to God and move in a direction I know He does not desire for me?  If we take things to God in prayer and make our requests known to Him, then and only then can He begin to move on our behalf!

I am choosing to stay near God and away from worldly desires and distractions.  I am focusing on becoming the vessel God needs me to be.  Sometimes He wants me to do crazy things, but I see the vision and press on for completion of the task and He just keeps blessing me!  I told my friend this morning I was going to buy one of those necklaces that says “Spoiled Princess” because that’s how I feel some times.  God loves me.  God loves you.  Anyone can receive the blessings they desire if they just lay down their lives and start renewing their RIGHT relationship with God.  Not just a superficial love, but a deep, trusting love that nothing can break through!  Start today to believe in that verse above, maybe reread the prayer of Jabez and start today working towards seeking God for all things in your life!