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You Are Safe

John 8:12

Jesus, the Light of the World ] Jesus spoke to the people once more and said, “I am the light of the world. If you follow me, you won’t have to walk in darkness, because you will have the light that leads to life.”
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Here they come rolling in.  You get that feeling in your gut days or weeks before the storm appears on the horizon.  You just have this feeling of doom that no matter what you try to do just does not go away.  You dread even walking out the door as it draws nearer.  You try to prepare yourself by drinking plenty of water (reading the Word), getting yourself prepared with the right gear to weather the storm (the armor of God) and making sure you will have light in case the power goes out (getting right with Jesus).  We do all these these things and the storm just keeps coming.
Ever been at the edge of the storm?  Right about to step in as you brace yourself for the
worst when you find it’s only a renewing rain?  You get yourself all worked up and surround yourself with a prayer chain only to find your next step puts you into the loving grace of God and you can see the purpose of all you just went through?
So many times in my life I have been down right scared.  Just terrified of what the next step will be.  When I was sitting in the passenger seat of the car while my husband at the time was being questioned by the police for his driving and I heard the officer say that if you keep being smart I will give your wife a ticket too, my heart skipped a 1,000 beats.  I had never been in trouble before with the law and I was terrified of being sent to jail.  We had been so broke we were driving with no insurance or updated plates on the car.  On top of that he was driving on a suspended license.
As I sat there awaiting my doom, I prayed, I cried out to God with all that was within me.  I searched for my light to shine on this dark moment.  After the officer placed my husband in the back of his cruiser, he came over to me and asked one simple question as he handed me a ticket as well, “Why did you allow an unlicensed driver to drive your car?”  My response was simple and stupid, “I don’t know, I was not feeling well today so I let him drive”.  What I wanted to explain to the man standing before me was that I was in a relationship where you don’t tell an addict that you are going to drive, you just submit to his authority whether it is right or wrong.
So there I sat in the parking lot of McDonalds watching my husband being driven to jail and not being able to go anywhere because of the situation of no insurance or plates.  Once again I was seeing the storm.  I had a fear arising in me as I was facing the fact that I had to go in front of the county prosecutor and explain my situation in hopes that I didn’t have to go to jail or pay a bunch of fines.  I knew I had to be strong even though I was scared to death.  I knew God was with me yet I feared what the world was going to do with me.  So I prayed and stepped into the storm before me and felt the presence of God just covered me.
To make a long story short I was pardoned from the offense and my husband received the correction for the whole situation.  I was delivered by the hand of God from a situation which could have been very difficult to walk through.
How many times have you freaked out over a storm only to discover you were safe all along?  Even though the road ahead looked ugly, you knew in your heart that it was safe ground.  God will walk you through every situation if you just choose to stay calm and prepare yourself in the things of God.

If It Takes Time Behind Bars

“My old self has been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me. So I live in this earthly body by trusting in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.” Galatians 2:20 NLT

Ever wonder what God is up to?  It never ceases to amaze me the crazy stories I hear about those who have come to know the Lord.  Sometimes the way God works things out is nothing like we planned it out to be.  We are often puzzled by the happenings we witness around us all the time.  My life has been no different. Yes, I made some bad choices along the way, but God turns all things to good for His glory.  This is happening right now in my life and as I sit in a period of rest, God is doing all these things on my behalf.  Let me be real with you here for a moment on this early Easter morning as we focus on resurrection time.  This is a time for renewal.  A time for new beginnings.  A time to see just how alive in Christ we are.

As I sit here I can tell you I am at rest.  I am doing nothing to force God into moving.  I am in surrender and in worship mode.  I have completely just let things happen in my life in the last few weeks and it has been amazing to watch God at work.  My book is finished and being edited.  Nothing I can do here but wait.  I just received a promotion at work to General Manager.  I knew I was being considered but they only let me know like two weeks ago.  I was told I would be attending Hamburger University in August so I thought I had all summer to prove whether I deserved the position or not. Nope, they told me this Tuesday I was acting General Manager as of that past Sunday.  Here again, nothing I did, just waiting and being obedient.  The house situation, I laugh at this one.  They lowered the price to $100,000, we have a possible buyer in mind for my dads house and we feel we are to just scrap out the trailer.  Once more, God is in control because I let it go.

Now, here is the icing on the cake.  Some may feel differently about this, yet I know that I know that I know it is God at work this very moment.  There is so much God in this part of the story I probably can’t even explain it all in words.  I have surrendered my marriage.  Through soaking prayer, I have let my husband be released to God and I am married to Jesus.  Clearly Jesus is taking care of my every need and providing the things I am in need of.  Meanwhile, God is doing a work in my husband. This by far is the saddest part of my rest period but I feel it will be the one which brings the most joy.  My husband is currently in the county jail waiting sentencing.  He has been charged with forced entry and burglary.  I do not know all the circumstances but according to the police officer I spoke with it must be pretty serious since the judge placed a $100,000 bond for him.

The timing for this situation is not favorable.  Those who have read my Day of Deliverance know that on April 13th, 2009, my daughter’s 15th birthday my husband tried to commit suicide while strung out on several drugs.  This situation comes 10 days before my daughter turns 18 which means if he is convicted of this crime, he will not only miss her birthday but also prom, graduation and her open house.  Yet with all of this I am at peace knowing this is an answer to prayer.  Not long after my husband and I were separated I had two different times of people praying over our family and it was prophesied that my husband would come to know the Lord through going to prison.  Since what he is being charged with is a felony, this could be it.  I cannot pretend to know what God is up to, however restoration is one of the promises He gave to me.

To further my excitement, at an Easter drama last night at a nearby church, God moved me in my spirit to write Brian’s name on one of my business cards and I was able to give it to a member of Teen Challenge (the place where Brian is suppose to go to find healing) and then my friend had me fill out a prayer request which I thought was weird since I do not attend that church and God was already at work.  I filled it out anyways and gave it to the pastor, I giggled a little inside when his exact words were, ” I will make sure this gets to our jail ministry persons.”  I so know God is at work and the fire in my belly is such a comfort. God is true to keep His promises and as I am in this rest period I am content knowing God is in control and there is nothing I have to do but be obedient in my surrender.