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Ostrich Syndrome

The enemy hunted me down; he kicked me and stomped me within an inch of my life. He put me in a black hole, buried me like a corpse in that dungeon. I sat there in despair, my spirit draining away, my heart heavy, like lead. I remembered the old days, went over all you’ve done, pondered the ways you’ve worked, Stretched out my hands to you, as thirsty for you as a desert thirsty for rain.
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Ever just dealt with something over and over again.  You do everything in your power to fix it and make it work.  You have exhausted every bit of you into the situation with the same results..no change.  What about those situations that come at you so quickly the only reaction you have is to go ostrich and bury your head?  When this happens you are just praying it will go away and quickly.  If you can’t see it, it can not affect you.
I call this the Ostrich Syndrome.  The ability to bury your head in the sand and pretend as if you cannot be seen.  Can you just picture this in your mind?  Even if we bury our heads the rest of our body is open for attack, in fact you would be in for a more fatal blow from the enemy at this point.  When we just bury our senses so to speak so that we don’t have to taste, smell, see or hear our enemies we are still open to him touching us.
A good example of this is when I was in my past marriage I often closed my eyes and hoped it would all just go away.  I no longer wanted to hear the screaming or taste the tears.  I didn’t want to see the pain in my children or smell the rottenness of the mess I had gotten myself into.  There were days when I would just bury my head and pretend I was free from the attacks.  It never worked.  I still felt the stings from the enemy.  My ex-husband still drank. Still smoked. Still searched daily for  his next fix.  Meanwhile with my head in the sand I was oblivious to what was really going on around me.
My children were hurting.  My heart was breaking.  I was slowly being erased by the enemy.  My life no longer mattered.  I wanted to just run away but I couldn’t because my head was buried in the sand. While I still had my head in tact, the rest of me was being attacked by the enemy.  I no longer cared what I looked like.  I had lost all hope in ever having a life.  The enemy had me exactly where he wanted me…buried..oblivious to what was happening..dead to life…hopeless.
Then one day I lifted my head and began to see what was happening.  It was then that I saw this hand reaching out to me and I began to lose the need to bury my head or run away.  Suddenly I wanted to face all of the disaster surrounding me and stop closing my eyes hoping everything would just disappear.  What a feeling as I began to shake the dirt from my head.  I began to hear clearly what God wanted for my life.  I could see a way out.  I started to taste freedom and I could feel the presence of God begin to take over my entire being.  I could smell the fragrance of Jesus in the air.
What caused me to pull my head out? I don’t really know.  I just knew inside of me that I was done with being buried in the sand.  I was done with the attacks from the enemy.  I was just done with all of it and I either could leave my eyes shut and my head buried in the sand or I could break free and run to Jesus.
Today I am grateful for freedom.  I am free to love again even when I thought it to be impossible.  I am free to be me and feel accepted.  I still have things to work through but for the most part I am healed.  I have hope now. No more ostrich syndrome for me!  I want to see everything God is doing in my life!
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Drops of Healing

Joel 2:23

Rejoice, you people of Jerusalem! Rejoice in the Lord your God! For the rain he sends demonstrates his faithfulness. Once more the autumn rains will come, as well as the rains of spring.
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Sometimes when we hear the sound of an approaching storm we begin to prepare ourselves for the downpour.  Depending on how severe a storm may be we might seek shelter and cover the windows for safety.  If we are caught outside we run for the nearest dry place and wait until the storm passes through.  Yes some storms are destructive and can do some very bad damage while others just pass by with a little sprinkle of rain.  We can clearly compare these real rain storms with ourselves.
There are storms which come in our lives that are tougher to handle than others and it takes all kinds of gear to protect ourselves from the pain they bring.  We hide ourselves from the storm not wanting to get wet or struck by lightening.  We have learned from past experiences that the storms just take a toll on us and we have no desire to face another one. As I faced one ordeal after another in my previous marriage I was so tired of the storms raging I wanted to pack it all up and move to a state or country far, far away yet I knew the storms were building my faith, even if I could not see it.
Every time I endured a storm no matter its’ size, I grew more and more dependent on God to help me through it.  When the storms first began, I was not following after God and it all seemed hopeless, however, once I let God back into my life the storms got a little easier because I gained wisdom for the situations.  Just like if you moved to a state that was prone to hurricanes, after the first time of being in one you would know better how to brace yourself for the next one.  Same thing with God, He teaches you how to endure the storms while He makes a way for you to be healed.
I look back now on all of the storms in my life and I can see them for what they actually were, character building, healing rains.  Every storm has something to glean from it.  Every storm brought me closer and closer to who I am in Christ today and I am ever so thankful for the rain.  The rain provided drops of healing for my broken heart.  It was the rain that held me together.  Now I see the storm and my feet want to dance in the rain instead of hide from it.