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The Darkness of the Cocoon (a continuation)



“So it’s time to enter into darkness,” says no one ever!  As seekers of a Christ centered life we are compelled to search for the light to be filled with holiness and purity as Christ was.  No one desires to be left in darkness.  Not one of us with a right mind want to continue on in the state we are in, it’s only when darkness broods in our lives that our thought processes become tainted.  We walk around with our caterpillar mentality thinking that we will never change.  No one notices me.  I will always be in this state of mind.  I am just ordinary and have no purpose so I will just walk around in circles until I die.

I am hear right now speaking life!  I am speaking light!  I am speaking into the heart of darkness and saying, “Let there be Light!”  My heart breaks that so many people are in the bondage of the caterpillar stage of life.  In my first marriage I always hoped things would change, I never did anything to actually change it.  God had to wait until I was desperate enough to want out.  He had to wait until I desired something different.  He had to be patient enough to wait until I was ready to enter into the cocoon where transformation could begin.

Now this may sound like we are going backwards, but bear with me.  We are born into this world and like I said in the previous blog, we begin to eat up everything of this world, it’s like we don’t know anything different.  Then one day, we have an encounter with God and we begin the healing process.  We begin to believe that we have a purpose and that we are worthy of love.  We start to look in the mirror and see that change is happening.  We suddenly decide that change needs to continue and we surrender what we know as life to God and He begins the process.

We enter into a stage that I am calling the cocoon stage only because this is where the darkest things in our life are revealed, transformed and changed.  It is in the cocoon stage that we are hidden in a darkness not like the worlds but we are hidden by God.  We are protected from the influences of the outside carnal world.  We reside in a place where only God can touch us and transform our thinking.  He turns the “I ain’t good enough”  into “I have worth”.  He takes the “I am ugly” and changes it to “I am beautiful”.  He takes the “I can’t” and molds it into “I can do all things through Christ!”.

Most importantly He takes our lifeless flesh bodies and turns them into wings of life and freedom.  When we emerge from the cocoon at the end of the process we emerge whole and full of life.  We no longer desire to eat of the world but we desire to drink in the goodness of God.

Are you tired of eating the garbage of the world?  Do you have a desire to change?  Do you want to be free?  Happy? Joyful? Content?  Then it’s time to enter the cocoon.  It’s time for you to allow God to penetrate you to the core with His love, mercy and grace.  Don’t be fooled by the devil into thinking that you are not worth the time it takes to change because you are.  Others are waiting for your transformation process so that they too can witness the loving kindness of God.


Coloring in the Lines

1 Corinthians 13 The Way of Love

         ] If I speak with human eloquence and angelic ecstasy but don’t love, I’m nothing but the creaking of a rusty gate. If I speak God’s Word with power, revealing all his mysteries and making everything plain as day, and if I have faith that says to a mountain, “Jump,” and it jumps, but I don’t love, I’m nothing. If I give everything I own to the poor and even go to the stake to be burned as a martyr, but I don’t love, I’ve gotten nowhere. So, no matter what I say, what I believe, and what I do, I’m bankrupt without love.  Love never gives up. Love cares more for others than for self. Love doesn’t want what it doesn’t have. Love doesn’t strut, Doesn’t have a swelled head, Doesn’t force itself on others, Isn’t always “me first,” Doesn’t fly off the handle, Doesn’t keep score of the sins of others, Doesn’t revel when others grovel, Takes pleasure in the flowering of truth, Puts up with anything, Trusts God always, Always looks for the best, Never looks back, But keeps going to the end. …


This week I am focusing on relationships…ya know those things filled with love and stuff?  What is a relationship? Webster defines it as follows:


noun \-shən-ˌship\

: the way in which two or more people, groups, countries, etc., talk to, behave toward, and deal with each other

: a romantic or sexual friendship between two people

: the way in which two or more people or things are connected

God describes it perfectly in the scripture verse above.  Love is something we might never ever wrap our minds fully around.  This week I will share a little bit about my husband and I’s relationship in hopes of shedding light onto the subject from our perspective.  Let me begin by stating, I told God I did not want a man in my life.  Some may giggle, but I did exactly that.  After being in a very broken relationship for 22 years, I just wanted to publish a book and travel.  That’s it. No attachments. No commitment except to God.  Just me, myself and Jesus!

Funny how God had MUCH bigger plans for me.  It says a relationship is how people communicate or deal with each other.  Hmmm, deal with? It makes it sound like such a complicated, hard thing.  A true relationship built on love is easy. Yes there are some things to work out, however, I feel the secret to a successful relationship is simply God.  If God is love, then a relationship based on God is then surely based on love.  John and I know that if we ever stop letting God be the center of our marriage we will surely fall short of the intent of love.  We know that the absence of God is the absence of love.

When John and I met we both knew God.  Now, while I was content to be without man, John on the other hand was seeking for a wife.  I still laugh sometimes when I think about how sneaky God can be sometimes.  So often in life we think we have it all figured out and we are going to tell God how it’s going to go.  Wrong!  He has awesome plans for our lives.  He longs to see us happy!  So long story short, God showed up in both of our lives and though John got what he wanted all along, I had to come to the realization that often God gives us what we need in life long before we realize that we really wanted it all along anyways.

Tomorrow, I will share how things change in relationships.  I will share how we can grow stronger in not only love but our faith.  If only we could get that embedded in our brains:  God is love and love is God, the word relationship would not be such a scary one in our vocabulary.

Matter Over Mind

Ephesians 6:12

      For we are not fighting against flesh and blood enemies, but against evil rulers and authorities of the unseen world, against mighty powers in this dark world, and against evil spirits in the heavenly places.


Mind over matter seems like a lie just now, shouldn’t it be what matters takes over our minds? How else are we going to be in the Presence of God? If we let all the thoughts of today meander in while we are worshiping we will never touch God! If Jesus is all that matters then He should take over your mind.

This thought ran across my mind as I was recently riding in the car listening to a worship song.  I snapped out of the zone I was in and quickly wrote this thought process down which was then followed by a mini-sermon preached to my husband.  My spirit was just on fire for a moment as I marveled at this revelation. It was as if someone took over me for a moment just to get this into my spirit.  Seriously if we are aspiring to be more and more like Jesus, shouldn’t we be letting Him take over our minds so that we can think like He does and act they way He would?

I posted that exact quote above on Facebook that very day and I was astonished to discover that no one liked it.  Not one of my 1,800 friends liked that status, which caused me to further reflect on it’s weight in my perspective.  I talked to a few friends.  Did a little research and I still came up with the same feeling, if all that matters is Jesus then He should have control of our minds.  The Bible even says to hold all thoughts captive and turn them over to Jesus.

I know it’s hard to change, believe me I went kicking and screaming to the altar several times.  I did not want to change all the ugly things I had hidden away.  I wanted to just keep walking forward pretending that everything was just A-okay.  Change hurts.  You have to face past hurts and woundedness.  You might have to forgive a few people along the way, including yourself.  Who wants to go through all of that?  I do!  Pick me!

I no longer wanted to stay where I was in life so I chose to make Jesus the center of it all and my life had completely changed in just three short years.  I was relocated, reloved and finally happy for the first time in years. I learned how to be compassionate and accepting of others.  I was changed from the inside out but only because I put what mattered the most over my mind, Jesus.

Are you in a place right now that you know is not where you really desire to be?  Perhaps you have taken some wrong turns or made the wrong choices in life, well, you are not stuck.  There is a simple solution to it all:  Jesus. Maybe today is the day you yell out to God and He grabs your hand and pulls you from the pit.  The mind is a powerful thing and once you let Jesus take it over, the sky is the limit!!!

Ha! Settle for Happy?

Nehemiah 8:10
Then he said to them, “Go, eat of the fat, drink of the sweet, and send portions to him who has nothing prepared; for this day is holy to our Lord. Do not be grieved, for the joy of the LORD is your strength.”

You may want to buckle up for the reading of this blog, as I just got home from a revival meeting.  Every time I find myself sitting in a pew receiving what God has for me, I just want more.  I can never get enough and I don’t want to settle for just being happy, I want to be filled with joy!  Now, as I write this some will not understand where I am going with this, but just hang on, the ride might be bumpy, but I promise you, we will arrive safely and with maybe you will have an awakening of the spirit you never had before.
In today’s society, we have a million “Happily Ever Afters”, all the Disney movies have it and the best romantic novels and we all have dreams of having it, however, what strength do we actual derive from it?  In the end, maybe we had a 50 year “Happily Ever After” marriage, but was there a gain?  Was there any real fruit from it?  Perhaps we were just settling for the worlds version of joy, calling it good and just being content to stay where we were so as not to “Rock the Boat”. The world has it’s counterfeits to everything of God, so could it be that happy is just a counterfeit for joy?  Yes I know happy is in the Bible, but joy is mentioned many more times and seems to have a more serious side to it.
Now before anyone gets offended, I want to clearly state that these are my own opinions and just seems to be what is on my heart after the revival meeting tonight.  I myself do not want to just settle for accepting Jesus into my life and living an ordinary “happy” life, I want my life to count for something, which means I will need to go against the ideals of the world and in order to do this, the joy of the Lord will need to be my strength.  Settling is something we all do in the flesh.  Some of us are more competitive though when it comes to the things of God and we cannot get our Spirit Man to just settle for the ordinary, it always wants more. There comes a point in one’s life where they need to make a conscience decision and check their flesh at the door so they can continue forward into the purpose God has for their lives.  So many people get so busy trying to  be happy they never get to feel real joy.  Real joy only comes from God and is found when searching the things of God in one’s life.
Yes, I desire to be happy in life, yet I know there is more to God than just being happy so to speak.  There is this indescribable feeling you get when you are at the altar and worshiping God with all that is within you, joy, unspeakable joy.  Here too we could just settle for staying in our pews and singing songs, not worshiping and appear to be happy, however after some one on one encounters with the Holy Spirit, true joy from worship only comes when one is surrendered in worship and the focus is solely on Jesus and not the band. Happy is going to a concert and seeing your favorite band play, joy is found in worshiping God for who He is and what He has done for us.
Do you see my point in this?  God wants us to be happy for sure, yet He calls us to a deeper purpose and that is where joy is found.  Take for instance my writing “Be Blessed” on coffee cups.  God showed this to me awhile back and I thought to myself, “How silly!  Really God?  What if I offend someone?”.  Well, God has shown me several times that I am actually making a difference in peoples lives with those simple writings on a silly styrofoam cup.  I get reports at least twice a month about stories of how those two words made someones day and that just brings me great joy, a joyous feeling in my spirit that makes me want to dance because it is Kingdom work and God gets all the glory.
So in this short life, I want to increase my joy and find more than a “happy medium”.  I want the fullness of what God has for me and will not settle for just being happy with what have.  I am a child of God, a princess and one who has the favor of the Lord at all times.  God loves us so much He wants to be the Joy that is our strength.  So, don’t worry, you can still be happy, but I think you will be missing out on the true purpose God has for your life.  If your only goal in life is to be happily married with two kids, a dog, a house and a nice car, truly this is not your destiny but the normalcy of the world.  In the end of this life do you want to fit into the worlds standards and be happy or do you want to see the things of God and be filled with a joy that no worldly words can really describe?  The choice is truly up to you, but as for me, I am seeking joy.