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From Drops to Floods

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But me he caught—reached all the way from sky to sea; he pulled me out Of that ocean of hate, that enemy chaos, the void in which I was drowning. They hit me when I was down, but God stuck by me. He stood me up on a wide-open field; I stood there saved—surprised to be loved!
Man, I missed the mark again.  That did not turn out like I wanted it to.  I can’t do anything right.  I failed again. Everyone is going to be mad at me now.
Nobody likes me.  Nobody wants me.  Nobody want to hang out with me.  Nobody wants to spend time with me because _________________________.  (fill in the blank)  Everybody hates me, what good am I?
I feel like we think  plagues were just a thing of the past in Old Testament times.

BUT, I feel the devil uses counterfeit plagues to keep us in fear and bondage in our minds.  So many of us struggle everyday with our minds.  We never think we measure up to the standards of God or man.  We feel like no matter how hard we try nothing seems to turn out right and we think people are mad at us INCLUDING God Himself.

Ugh!  Stupid devil.  I am so tired of people living in fear of failure.  It causes so much stress and anxiety to good people.  God does not intend for us to spend one minute or even one second thinking that He is mad at us.  He gave up His only Son to die on a cross which took care of all of that.  Now He only sees us through His Son.

We are good enough.  We are worthy of love.  We are loved by God.  

If we could only wrap our heads around this every waking moment of the day we could live in a river of peace so deep and wide nothing much else would matter.  If we messed up at work we would just forgive ourselves and float down the river on our inflatable mattress without a care in the world.  If we felt like we disappointed someone we would just ask for forgiveness and continue on down the river, eyes on Jesus because in the end He is all that matters.

When those drops of doubt start invading out minds, its really hard to stop them because the devil will just keep bringing up your past and pretty soon you find yourself in a flood of disaster barely holding your life together.  Everything seems dark (plague of darkness).  Everything seems to be too noisy (plague of frogs).  Things seem to be so irritating (plague of lice, boils & locusts).  We feel like we have lost everything (plague of livestock and firstborn).  And nothing we seem to do makes us feel any better almost as if we have poisoned ourselves (plague of water into blood).

Do you see how twisted the devil has made or minds?  What a mess we seem to be…YET..that’s not how God sees us.  Let me show you how God sees us:

We are Loved.

We are Valuable.

We are wanted.

We are NOT rejected.

We are Blameless.

We are the Righteousness of God.

We are Worthy.

We are Friends of God.

We are God’s living stones.

We are Children of God.

This is how we should be floating down that river of peace.  Knowing who we are in Christ!  Spend some time today and begin to believe who you are in Christ.  Below are  90 I am statements, read through them  and begin to BELIEVE in who you are to God.

I am blameless and free from accusation. (Colossians 1:22) Christ Himself is in me. (Colossians 1:27) I am firmly rooted in Christ and am now being built up in Him. (Col. 2:7) I have been made complete in Christ. (Colossians 2:10) I have been spiritually circumcised. My old unregenerate nature has been removed. (Colossians 2:11) I have been buried, raised, and made alive with Christ. (Colossians 2:12,13) I died with Christ and I have been raised up with Christ. My life is now hidden With Christ in God. Christ is now my life. (Colossians 1:1-4) I am an expression of the life of Christ because He is my life. (Colossians 3:4) I am chosen of God, holy and dearly loved. (Col. 3:12; 1 Thessalonians 1:4) I am a son of light and not of darkness. (1 Thessalonians 5:5) I have been given a spirit of power, love, and self-discipline. (2 Timothy 1:7) I have been saved and set apart according to God’s doing. (2 Timothy 1:9; Titus 3:5) Because I am sanctified and am one with the Sanctifier, He is not ashamed to call me brother. (Hebrews 2:11) I am a holy partaker of a heavenly calling. (Hebrews 3:1) I have the right to come boldly before the throne of God to find mercy and grace in a time of need. (Hebrews4:16) I have been born again. (1 Peter 1:23) I am one of God’s living stones, being built up in Christ as a spiritual house. (1 Peter 2:5) I am a member of a chosen race, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a People for God’s own possession. (1 Peter 2:9,10) I am an alien and stranger to this world in which I temporarily live. (1 Peter 2:11) I am an enemy of the devil. (1 Peter 2:11) I have been given exceedingly great and precious promises by God by Which I am a partaker of God’s divine nature. (2 Peter 1:4) I am forgiven on the account of Jesus’ name. (1 John 2:12) I am anointed by God. (1 John 2:27) I am a child of God and I will resemble Christ when He returns. (1 John 3:1,2) I am loved. (1 John 4:10) I am like Christ. (1 John 4:10) I have life. (1 John 5:12) I am born of God, and the evil one…the devil…cannot touch me. (1 John 5:`8) I have been redeemed. (Revelation 5:9) Over 90 Statements from Scripture Describing Who I Am In Christ My Nature In Christ I have been healed. (Isaiah 53:5) I am the salt of the earth. (Matthew 5:13) I am the light of the world. (Matthew 5:14) I am commissioned to make disciples. (Matthew 28:19,20) I am a child of God. (John 1:12) I have eternal life. (John 10:27) I have been given peace. (John 14:27) I am part of the true vine, a channel of Christ’s life. (John 15:1,5) I am clean. (John 15:3) I am Christ’s friend. (John 15:15) I am chosen and appointed by Christ to bear His fruit. (John 15:16) I have been given glory. (John 17:22) I have been justified…completely forgiven and made righteous. (Romans 5:1) I died with Christ and died to the power of sin’s rule over my life. (Romans 6:1-6) I am a slave of righteousness. (Romans 6:18) I am free from sin and enslaved to God. (Romans 6:22) I am free forever from condemnation. (Romans 8:1) I am a son of God; God is spiritually my Father. (Romans 8:14, 15 Galatians 3:26; 4:6) I am a joint heir with Christ, sharing His inheritance with Him (Romans 8:17) I am more than a conqueror through Christ, who loves me. (Romans 8:37) I have faith. (Romans 12:3) I have been sanctified and called to holiness. (1 Corinthians 1:2) I have been given grace in Christ Jesus. (1Corinthians 1:4) I have been placed into Christ, by God’s doing. (1 Corinthians 1:30) I have received the Spirit of God into my life that I might know the things feely given to me by God. (1 Corinthians 2:12) I have been given the mind of Christ. (1 Corinthians 2:16) I am a temple…a dwelling place…of God. His Spirit and His life dwell in me. (1 Corinthians 3:16; 6:19) I am united to the Lord and am one spirit with Him. (1 Corinthians 6:17) I am bought with a price; I am not my own; I belong to God. (1 Corinthians 6:19,20; 7:23) I am called. (1 Corinthians 7:17) I am a member of Christ’s Body. (1 Corinthians 12:27; Ephesians 5:30) I am victorious through Jesus Christ. (1 Corinthians 15:57) I have been established, anointed and sealed by God in Christ, and I have been given to the Holy Spirit as a pledge guaranteeing my inheritance to come. (2 Corinthians 1:21; Ephesians 1:13,14) I am led by God in triumphal procession. (2 Corinthians 2:14) I am to God the fragrance of Christ among those who are being saved and those who are perishing. (2 Corinthians 2:15) I am being changed into the likeness of Christ. (2 Corinthians 3:18 Since I have died, I no longer live for myself, but for Christ. (2 Corinthians 5:14,15) I am a new creation. (2 Corinthians 5:17) I am reconciled to God and am a minister of reconciliation. (2 Corinthians 5:18,19) I have been made righteous. (2 Corinthians 5:21) I am given strength in exchange for weakness. (2 Corinthians 12:10) I have been crucified with Christ and it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me. The life I am now living is Christ’s life. (Galatians 2:20) I am a son of God and one in Christ. (Galatians 3:26, 28) I am Abraham’s seed…an heir of the promise. (Galatians 3:29) I am an heir of God since I am a son of God. (Galatians 4:6,7) I am a saint. (Ephesians 1:1; ! Corinthians 1:2; Philippians 1:1; Colossians 1:2) I have been blessed with every spiritual blessing. (Ephesians 1:3) I was chosen in Christ before the foundation of the world to be holy and am without blame before Him. (Ephesians 1:4) I was predestined…determined by God…to be adopted as God’s son. (Ephesians 1:5) I have been sealed with the Holy Spirit. (Ephesians 1:13) I have been redeemed and forgiven, and I am a recipient of His lavish grace. I have been made alive together with Christ. (Ephesians 2:5) I have been raised up and seated with Christ in heaven. (Ephesians 2:6) I am God’s workmanship…His handiwork…born anew in Christ to do His work. (Ephesians 2:10) I have direct access to God through the Spirit. (Ephesians 2:18) I am a fellow citizen with the rest of God’s family. (Ephesians 2:19) I may approach God with boldness, freedom, and confidence. (Eph. 3:12) I am righteous and holy. (Ephesians 2:24) I am a citizen of heaven, seated in heaven right now. (Philippians 3:20 Ephesians 2:6) I am capable. (Philippians 4:13) I have been rescued from the domain of Satan’s rule and transferred to the kingdom of Christ. (Colossians 1:13) I have been redeemed and forgiven of all my sins. The debt against me has been cancelled. (Colossians 1:14)

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Five Things to do Without a Cell Phone

But God reassured him, “Easy now. Don’t panic. You won’t die.”

Judges 6:23 MSG

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Middle of texting my bestie whom hadn’t had a phone in forever and my phone begins to act up. Ugh. My heart begins to beat a little faster. No. Don’t stop working. Phone starts barking codes and warnings. My heart races a little faster.  Okay. Calming down I pressed the off button thinking it will reset my phone and stop the panic rising within me…nope. Just a blank white barely visible screen.

Now last time my phone was acting up I had an almost sheer out panic attack. I could not imagine being without it. What if my kids needed to get a hold of me? What if my dad fell and could not reach me? What if work was in need of me? What if. What if. What if.  I was terrified to be disconnected. Not to mention what was I going to do with my spare time if I couldn’t play my games or scroll through my Facebook? 

This time I was calmer and I discovered a few things. Even though I was under a small panic attack on the inside I discovered just how attached I had become to this hand held device.  Time consuming. Life distraction. Focus thief. Disconnection device.  Sorry…just calling my cell phone for what it is.  I have become so wrapped up in the next event in my phone that I have been neglecting what is more important: LIFE.

So here are just 5 things I discovered while I went without a Cell phone for a mere 36 hours:

1. I still knew how to read an actual book.  It felt so good to actual hold a book and physically flip through the pages as I learned new knowledge for life.

2.  I could hear God more clearly.  I could just sit in silence with no background noise and feel His Presence and hear His voice. 

3.  I could get more housework done.  This might not seem like a plus aspect, however being distracted by Facebook and games I have neglected my duties as a wife.

4.  No one died because my phone wasn’t working. No one needed me in a desperate manner in those 36 hours. Life actually still went on as my phone was silent.

5.  Lastly I discovered a freedom that I had not know since the invention of the cell phone.  I do not need my phone for survival.  Life will continue to move forward.  Accidents will still happen.  People will still need each other and we can be found if needed some way.
So yesterday as I sat in the phone store and simply watched the lady open my phone up, remove the battery and bring life to my phone I was excited yet I was apprehensive.  I didn’t want to become a slave to my phone again.  I wanted the freedom I had without it yet I knew it was going to go have to be a slow detox.  So I think I am almost ready to let this go.  Almost. (as I sit waiting for church to start typing this blog entry on my revived cell phone).

Dear God,

Thank You for showing me that everything just goes on in life without being attached to my phone.  Help me in the coming days to experience the freedom of unattachment from earthly devices and strengthen my attatchment to You.  I long to dwell In Your Presence and hear Your voice.

In Jesus Name.  Amen.

.Too Many Yes’s

Some say it’s normal.  Being busy is a way of life.  Not being on the go means you are not doing enough.  To sit down is to waste time.

In today’s society there is so much to do.  We are constantly filling up our calendars with all kinds of events and goals and never ending chores.  Our to do lists get longer and longer by the minute.  Then, we lay awake at night when we are suppose to be resting and think about all of the things we did not get done.  Is this really how God intending us to be as humans?

In the video you will notice there are cups and cups and CUPS of coffee to help get through the week.  After I produced the video God said to me the coffee represents how often we rely on other things to get us through our days rather than leaning on Him for our strength and support.

We would run ourselves ragged if we continued on that pace in the video for very long.  When we are so busy doing the WORK of God, when do we have time to spend with God?  Which is why I would like to suggest that we take ACTION and learn to rest.  What?  Rest is an Action?  Yes.  Yes it is.  If we forget this one simple element, rest,  in our life, we will soon be unable to take any action at all.

A is for Abide:  Learn how to stop running around and just abide in Jesus.

C is for Calling:  Are the things you are doing really your calling?

T is for timing:  Is there realistically time in your schedule for what you say yes to?

I is for intent: Why are you saying yes?  To please God or man?  Is it  yes just because there is  a desire to fit in?

O is for Open Communication:  We must have open communication with God so that we will be directed to the things He wants us to do

N is for Next Step:  If we are rested, God will be able to define our steps and put us right in line with the promise of

Jeremiah 29:11

 This is God’s Word on the subject: “As soon as Babylon’s seventy years are up and not a day before, I’ll show up and take care of you as I promised and bring you back home. I know what I’m doing. I have it all planned out—plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for.

I know I made it seem easy, yet I know it’s not.  You have to start with loving yourself enough to say NO to those things which are hindering you from spending quality time with God.  You really don’t have to do it all.  That’s a lie from the enemy.  He wants us to have our calendars filled everyday.  He wants us to be worn out and unrested.  But God doesn’t.  He wants to lead you beside green pastures and let you see the still waters.  He desires to restore us and guide us in the right paths.  He wants to protect you from evil and comfort you.  He wants you to sit at His table amongst your enemies.  He wants to anoint your head with oil and fill your cup to overflowing.  He wants goodness and mercy to follow after you and He wants to dwell with you in His house…..

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How can He do this is we don’t sit still long enough?

Dear God:

Forgive us for being so busy that we miss you in the process.  Teach us how to rest.  Show  us how in our own individual ways what it means to rest.  We give you permission to slow us down so that we can rest in You daily.  Lord, we praise You for the work You are about to do in our lives.  Thank You for loving us right where we are.

In Jesus Name. AMEN

Who Took My Blankie?

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Just recently I had a passionate conversation and I wished I had recorded it, however, I will do my best to repeat the magnitude of what was said.

We are born.  Not by our own choice, but God’s.  We come into this world very unaware of our surroundings.  No clue perhaps in those first few moments of taking our first breaths.  Then as if out of nowhere there is a cutting.  A sudden revelation of a separation takes place.  The life line which you had been connected to for nine or so months suddenly is gone.

Now of course in those early stages of life we don’t actually have those thoughts running through our heads as birthing is a natural process which has been happening in this earth for a very long time.  For those who have anxiety at the moment you can probably close your eyes and imagine that whole beginning scene.  Those with separation issues could also relate.  What you once knew as comfort and connection is suddenly gone. Taken away.

So let’s take this to the next level.  As children we often cling to things such as stuffed animals, dolls or the ever so popular blankie.  These items become very important to us in early life.  You share EVERYTHING with this object, things you probably never told anyone else except for maybe your imaginary friend if you had one around.  I remember my son had a favorite teddy bear.  He went every where my son went.  If it was time for Teddy to have a bath, my son would stand by the washer and dryer until the whole process was complete.  He was clearly attached.

For the purposes of this discussion I am going to use the representation of the Blankie as I move through this next phase.  The Blankie is going to represent things we cling to in life as a comfort: food, family, friends, secret sins, drugs, alcohol and the likes.  Anything which we choose to go to instead of God.  As with the Blankie, we develop a relationship with our source of comfort.  It’s the one thing we know that will never let us down, it does not have the ability to.  We know when no one else understands us, our Blankie will.  It will comfort us.  Keep us close.  Never rejecting us.  Always a true friend and confidante.

What happens when God asks us to let go of the Blankie so that He can be our comfort, our true friend and confidante?  Of course!  We panic.  We cling all the tighter to our Blankie because a fear rises up in us.  How can we trust anyone else with our Blankie?  It knows us inside and out and would never hurt us or reject us or leave us hanging.  How do we know we will find comfort after we let go of the Blankie?

It all comes down to trust.  A trust beyond all thinking.  A trust so strong you have no choice but to cling to it instead of your false comforts.  For you see, a Blankie is just a false representation of love and trust.  In the end, you can’t take it with you.  It will be burned up with the things of the past.  You will step into heaven and God will be there.  Not your Blankie,–your false comfort.

God is calling us to trust Him with EVERYTHING.  Just like we shared our entire early stages of life with said Blankie, God wants you to choose to trust Him.  He wants to be your comfort.  Your security.  You source of Acceptance.

Some of us are still clinging to our Blankies.  We are at a point in our adult lives where we are afraid of being hurt and disappointed.  We don’t want to give up the very thing which has been there all along.  Drugs, alcohol, secret sins, food, bad relationships and various other addictions are not our security.  They are not our comfort.  They are not to be trusted.  Only God. God is the only one who will never let you down.  He will be there from the beginning until the end.  You can take Him where ever you go.  You can share every secret with Him.

One final thought.  In the beginning, we are not the ones who get to choose who cuts the cord.  When it comes to our false comforts we don’t have to do anything but trust God to take them and heal us from the aftermath.  We run around this big earth thinking we have to do more.  Thinking we are the ones who have to fix ourselves before we can go to God.  Those are lies.  God will take your Blankie.  All you have to do is believe.

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Dear Lord, Help me today to trust you with my Blankie.  I choose today to trust you with my Blankie.  I believe You can be trusted.  I believe You are my source of comfort and security.  Lord let me learn that the past is behind me and You are right in front of me, waiting to heal me.  I thank You Lord for removing those things in my life which are not of You.  I pray for all those who feel stuck in their sin or addictions that they made find true comfort in You alone and be healed from their wounds.  In Jesus Name.  Amen.

I am Seed

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Just recently I have realized how much easier life is when I just sit and stay.  Like a dog learning new tricks I am.  To be still and quiet.   To be content with just slowing down.  Smelling the roses.  Picking up pretty rocks.  Exploring new paths.  Waiting for the sunset.  Reading a book.  Painting a picture.  Slow walks along the beach. Taking 1,000 pictures of a cricket or flowers or water.   Just the simple elegant things of life.

So many times in my life I have been way too busy with other things to even notice that God was trying to keep up with me.  Sometimes I have so many projects going at one time that nothing ever gets completed.  I get so dang excited about ideas I sometimes want to dive right in even though I still have other things in the works already.

Psalm 1:3 in the Message Bible says:

Psalm 1:3 The Message (MSG)

2-3 Instead you thrill to God’s Word,
    you chew on Scripture day and night.
You’re a tree replanted in Eden,
    bearing fresh fruit every month,
Never dropping a leaf,
    always in blossom.

When I first read this, I felt such an excitement with it and then I realized we were discussing a tree here.  Something which is non-mobile.  It is a seed planted meant to just be.  To just sway in the wind.  To allow the soil to house its’ roots.  To just grow and produce leaves and sometimes grow fruit.  To just be and depend on God to feed and water it.  To just be dependent  on God to shelter and protect it in all stages of growth from the seed to full maturity.

It is only when we slow down that we can truly depend on God.  It is in the slow moments we are reminded that God is in control.  It is in the slow times we see just how good God truly is and how He really does take care of our every need.  He feeds us with the Word.  He waters us with His Presence.  He protects us from all weather conditions life throws at us.

When we stop to just be, all fear dissolves.  After we have discontinued our pursuit of taking care of our own needs, God shows up in all of His splendor and we can be content with just being.  

At some point we need to come to the realization that we are merely the seed.  We have nothing else to do but just be.  Think of seed planted in the ground.  It sits.  It waits.  It is broken.  Then it beings to grow.  It grows both above ground and underground.  We don’t see the roots as they grow and often that is how we are as humans, we hide the roots, yet above the surface everything looks good.  Our trunks our sturdy and our leaves look just right yet underneath it all, buried deep inside are roots some good some bad.

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I encourage us all today to just be.  Take some time to just sit.  Stay.  Marinate.  Accept God is in control.  Be content in the stillness of God.  Begin to know that He meant it when He said, Be Still and KNOW I am God.

Dear Lord, I thank You for taking care of all of my needs.  I thank You that I can really just be.  I desire to get to know You better.  I look forward to just being more in Your presence.  I thank You for allowing me to just be.  Lord, I also thank You that You will begin to show others what it really means to just be so they too can find peace in just being still.  AMEN

Getting to the Track is the Easy Part

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When life knocks you right of the track you are on, get back up and head toward the track.  Yup!  I know it sounds simple, and I also know it’s not easy.  Falling is never an easy place to rise up from yet it puts you in the perfect position for the greatness of God.  It places you in a vulnerable spot on which  great victory can occur.  When we feel defeated to the core then it’s time to sing praises.  It’s time to rejoice!  It’s time for joy to bubble up from within because God is about to do something so great your mind can’t even wrap itself around the miracle.

I am battling with my weight at the moment and am getting really frustrated.  I am on the right track.  I am moving forward but the train just has not picked up any speed.  The train I am on lacks motivation.  It lags behind the rest hoping at some point to catch up and get ahead of the game.  I may never get ahead of the rest and that is exactly where I need to be to have  peace within my soul.  I need to believe that I am on the right track and at least moving forward in the right direction.  I need to believe God is directing the train and His ways are greater than mine will ever be.

Today I posted a blog in my Sparkpeople app which brought me to tears right in my office.  In one simple moment of time I felt the presence of God in my life in a powerful Father-Loving way.  He accepts me.  He loves me.  He is my strength.  He is my rescuer when I fall.  He is the only One who can pick me up, dust me off and set me in the right direction, any other voices are just distractions.

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Today, choose the let Him pick you up, dust off the dirt and set you on the path towards the right track.  He does not require us to return to where we once began the journey, however, He let’s us start right where we fell.  There are no do overs with God, just continuations towards the right way.  You are good enough for God to save you.  You have not failed to the point where He forgets about you.  You are created for a plan and purpose.

Begin today to believe in you.  Believe in love.  Believe in faith.  Believe God is who He says He is.  Allow Him to set you on the right track.  If you fall off again, choose to know it is okay, He will pick you up right where you are.  You do not have to seek help, He will come to you.  Before you even ask He knows your distress and help is already on the way. He has everything you need to stay on track, no need for inventing schemes or great plans for survival.  He alone has the answers.  He alone knows your every need.  He alone is the maker of the track you are to be on.

 

Dear God, Today I pray for all of us who are struggling in any area of our lives.  I know You are sending help already, you won’t leave us in the dust, broken and battered.  I pray peace to come today.  I pray You will heal our wounds and set us on the right track towards the plan you have for our lives.  Thank You for the work you are doing on our behalf.  Thank You for the healing that is coming.  Thank You for accepting us just as we are.  In Jesus Name.  Amen

Pick Me!

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Ever been unhappy with a job?  Dissatisfied with where you are in life?  Not fully on board with your boss?  Feeling unappreciated?  Work load is too much?  Feeling like you can’t just go in and do your job and then leave it behind to go home and enjoy life? Too many hours each week? Physically stressful? Co-workers causing drama?  A never ending barrage of events? All of the Above?

Well, some of those things applied to my job of 30 years.  I started at McDonald’s when I was 16 and I worked there until about a month ago. Over the years this job had its ups and downs.  Deep down I know that ketchup ran through my veins.  I had been in the business long enough to know how to deal with almost every type of customer and crew member.  I loved the busy days.  The satisfaction of good numbers.  The thrill of seeing happy customers.  But….

In 2012 I became a General Manager and things began to change for me.  I had challenges I had not faced before.  I was now the one in charge..of a whole store.  I did schedules and inventories and hiring and firing and paperwork and meetings and training and customer service and customer complaint calls and the list goes on.  I was on call 24/7 in case something happened at the store meaning I could not turn my phone off “just in case” and it was permanently attached to me wherever I went.  As time went on I took on more stress than I probably needed to.

At the same time, I began to love the people I worked with.  They were on my prayer list.  Some called me mom.  I was building relationships and sometimes we even talked about Jesus.  When God began to lift the grace from me to work in this capacity of General Manager I began to question His motives..yes, God’s motives.  I argued that if I went on to something different who would be here for these people?   Where would my ministry field be?

I had back surgery in November and I get a huge dose of disconnect.  The store was not allowed to be in contact with me as this was a work related accident.  So for three months I was off work…the longest EVER in my life for not working.  I had plenty of time to write, rest and live in His Presence.  A very relaxed and stress-less situation.  I was pretty happy-go-lucky and I loved it.

When I went back to work the stress returned.  It was almost like I had been a free roaming horse who just got bridled for the first time.  As I tried to mesh my new free lifestyle with work again I felt so frustrated.  This being on call 24/7.  The people not wanting to come to work.  The drama.  It was too much.  I just wasn’t filled with enough grace to do this type of work again.

Tomorrow I will fill you on the rest of the saga.  But for now just know this:  Sometimes God lifting the grace is the very thing which catapults you into your promise land.

Dear God, Thank You for lifting grace at times.  Thank You that You always offer me a safe place to be.  Help me to see You and what You are doing on my behalf.  Thank You for knowing every detail of what I need in my life to move into my promise land.  Thank You that with every twist and turn of my life you will be right beside me.  Help me to stay so close to You that I can feel You breathing.

In Jesus Name  Amen