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Towels in the Washer

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Let me set the scene for this blog:

Busy day at work. Phones ringing.  Orders coming in.  Got behind.  Having company over for dinner.  Need a roasting pan for the chicken.  Go to Walmart.  Husband asked to have money put on our debit card.  Wait in line for 20  minutes.  Get home and prepare chicken.  Won’t be done until 9 pm.  Go to lie down before company comes over.  Husband asks for the laundry to be moved from the washer to the dryer.  GROAN!  Just sat down.  Feet hurt from 5 mile walk from day before.  Contacts are dry.  Slight headache from work day.  HANGRY.  Open lid to washer and find towels in with the regular clothes.

TICKING TIME BOMB EXPLODES AND HUSBAND IS THE NEAREST VICTIM!

How often do the most innocent persons in our lives get the brunt of our bad days?  I am not sure that I have ever gone off on my husband like I did yesterday.  Words I usually do not spew out were flying like missiles aimed directly at him with intent to harm.  I did not care in that moment what I said I was just so angry I let everything I said become like a personal attack on an innocent bystander.  I quickly apologized after I cooled down and it is a good thing my husband knows my heart enough to realize I meant nothing I said in those heated minutes of World War III happening right before his eyes.  I mean today I can at least laugh about it.  The look of bewilderment and surprise on his face was truly priceless, poor guy.

Well that was just a precursor to today’s volcanic eruption.  I got a good night sleep and we even slept in, however, something was still off with me.  I noticed my left shoulder was aching and this usually only means one thing…rejection was trying to rear it’s ugly head.  I had my husband pray over me before we started our day.

Kinda wish I would have just left it alone.

After returning home from our morning coffee and a drive before hubby went off to work, I went inside to get my camera and a bite to eat.  I don’t want to get into too many details but you will need a little background story to understand what happened next.  We live with my 86 year old father because he is unable to live alone.  He gets around okay and can still take care of himself but he can’t do laundry and upkeep on the house.  Besides on the occasion when we do leave for a few days he gets fearful and something usually arises.  Anyways, dad is very protective of the refrigerator for some reason (we are guessing fear of some kind)  and things are not to be kept in there for very long and must be put into the smallest container possible.  So for the last 5 years there has been an ongoing frustration with what and how we keep things in the frig.

When I went into the kitchen the first thing dad said from his chair in the living room was “What are you going to do with the chicken from last night?”  I replied with an I don’t know at the moment, perhaps make chicken soup tomorrow.  This response was not what he was hoping for and me having my own agenda for the day already planned out, this simple situation turned into World War IV.  I cringe to even relive the live action warfare which conspired again.  I apparently touched a live wire somewhere in my brain and again here I was spewing words (to my own father) that should never have been released from my mouth.  In anger I took the chicken and threw it in the garbage dumpster outside, grabbed my purse and my camera and left.

I immediately called my husband in tears and frustration.  What was happening to me?  I was a wreck.  Acting out of character.  Using unsavory language at people I loved.  Of course he reminds we prayed for God to come in and heal whatever was causing the pain in my shoulder.  And then he said, “Resentment.  You are dealing with resentments from your past.  And maybe it has something to do with it being Mother’s Day tomorrow.  I don’t know, but let Daddy to heal you.”

So with a heavy heart I started seeking God in what to do.  I took my camera out and visited several of my favorite spots which is how I connect with God the best.  I captured birds, turtles, flowers, geese and their babies and even a muskrat only to discover on my journey that God had me stop and ponder at a tree.  A tree with a strip missing like a fresh wound.  He said this pain was from a fresh wound, yet it was an old pain which had been ripped open by life’s circumstances.

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He told me to keep walking there was something else He wanted to show me.  On my way back to my car I used the same path so I saw things going back that I had not seen on the first time through.  I stumbled upon this tree which had been abused my woodpeckers.

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God started explaining to me what I was looking at.  On the surface you can clearly see there has been damage and an entry way into the inner most part of the tree.  On closer inspection one could see cobwebs where something else had taken up residency.  Then looking even deeper you would see the wound itself was torn to shreds.  The top hole appears to have no ending, yet there is a light which shines through the darkness of it.

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This is what so many of us deal with day after day.  We get wounded at some point in our lives and people keep attacking it, over and over and over again until we are empty inside.  Then, when we allow God to tend to our brokenness  He shines His light within us and begins to heal that which has hurt us for so long.  The key here is allowing God in.  So many times we want to fix it all on our own.  We don’t want anyone’s help.  We often feel that it was our fault in the first place that we are hurting.  We didn’t do something right.  We were not good enough at some point.  We deserved the abuse.

I am still not quite sure what I am dealing with but I do feel more at peace after spending some time with the Lord today.  I still am trying to process the loss of my mom two months ago today and there is a lot of pain with that wound.  The tape which plays over and over again that “I am not good enough” and “I can’t do anything right” taunts me even when I try to just close my eyes and ignore it.  

In conclusion, don’t you wish sometimes that life came with warning signs so we would know when to brace ourselves?  Speed Bump.  Road Impassable.  Water May Go Over Road.  Bridge Might be Icy.  Dead End.  No Outlet. Watch for Emergency Vehicles.  Do Not Enter.  One Way.  Caution Pedestrians.  Road Construction Next 20 Miles.  Railroad Crossing.  Yield.  Stop.  Frequent High Wind.  Narrow Bridge.  Pavement Ends.  Deer Crossing.  If only life could send us signs along the way we could prepare ourselves for what is coming up next.  We could be on guard for any mishap which may happen along life’s journey.  Sometimes things just come out of nowhere and we are blindsided, that is where God needs to come in and redirect our steps.  We need to trust Him enough to know the road ahead of us and let Him send the Holy Spirit to give us the warning signs to keep us on track.

Dear God, Be near me today and expose that which You want to heal in me.  Teach me to trust You with littlest of things to the great big ordeals.  I thank You for healing me from my deepest wounds.  I trust you with them.  Shine Your light on my innermost being so that I may be lead in the right direction.  In Jesus Name, Amen.

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Perspectively Speaking

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When it comes to perspective we have to have the right filter on in order to see clearly what God is doing in our lives.  For example you get stopped at a red light when you need to be somewhere in a hurry or get stuck behind a slow driver with no way to pass.  You get frustrated and maybe a little road rage erupts, however, WHAT IF God was protecting you from an accident?  I could spend all night sharing instances of us having the wrong perspective but I would like to share a story with you that is happening in my life right now.  A story which will demand me having the correct prospective.

So long story short without too many gory details, I have been experiencing off and on several female issues in the past 5 or 6 years.  I went for a physical recently and my blood work showed I had an hemoglobin (iron) level of 8.7 when it is suppose to be a 12.  So now doctor wants some answers…more blood work (only to show the level is now 8.3)  **no cause for panic yet..it’s at 7 when a blood transfusion is needed**.  Now there is a trip to the OBGYN for an ultra sound and biopsy because things are a little more serious than I was seeing.  A trip to the colon doctor for a colonoscopy just to rule out where I am losing iron.  How do I feel at this point? I guess a little nervous but surely wanting answers.

Now I do need to let you in on a little back story, I will keep it short, I am recently remarried as of five years ago and we had decided kids were not something we wanted as I was in my 40s and my husband in his 20s (yes God did a wonderful thing while my perspective was not to get remarried but that’s a blog for another day) and we were good with that.  Well until a prophet said to us one day ” The Lord will make a way for you two to have a child physically (my tubes are tied) and financially if you come back to this alter in agreement.  God did a change of heart in both of us, yet I do not recall us actually going back to the altar in agreement, so it’s been about 3 years since this new development in our life.

Okay, current day…we visit with the OBGYN and she remembers our conversation from 2 years ago in which we discussed options for getting pregnant and then explains I have a 8 cm fibroid which is pushing on my uterus causing most of my issues.  It is not cancerous but just basically a large muscle which has developed over time.  Before she gave us our options she asks about getting pregnant and in a nutshell my husband spoke up and said, “In all reality I am really jealous for my wife’s time and I like that we can just pick up and go at any time, so let’s do what is best for my wife.” (yes there were tears all around)  Getting that topic of discussion out of the way, on to the topic at hand…what to do next.  How do I feel at this point?  Maybe some relief of the pressure of trying to get pregnant these last three years.  A little nervous still about the plan ahead.

She explained a procedure where I could get injections every three months to perhaps shrink the fibroid and stop my periods but that would only last a year.  Next option is partial hysterectomy to which my husband asked why not the whole thing?  Because, says the doctor, “We don’t her to become cranky, irritable and experience hot flashes right after surgery.”  To which my husband replied , “Let’s keep the ovaries in there!”

So how am I feeling at this point?  A surgeon is about to extract a major part of my body, yet I am at peace.  I could be freaked out and panicked yet I know God is in this and is guiding all of the events ahead of me.  In one surgery many issues that I have been dealing with for years will be taken away along with unnecessary pain.  I guess what really brought me to this perspective was reading a devotion with my husband where there quoted Psalm 103 in which it said God will remove my enemies.  In that moment I thought, wow, God is allowing this to happen because He is protecting me from an attack of the enemy.  I was just flooded with peace at that moment.

Now of course I can look at the funny side of this too, I had asked Him to help me lose weight..never thought removing an organ would be the answer.  Plus I was just saying I needed a vacation and this requires 2 weeks off.  Well play God, however this only brings us to a deeper realm of faith as I have no short term disability.  We will have to trust God to provide during that time which I know He will as He has done in the past.  If I had the wrong perspective about this my husband and I would just be worried about how things were going to get paid, where can we pinch more out of our budget, can we get hours in at work before the surgery and on and on and on.

The wrong perspective can riddle our daily lives with unnecessary work and needless agony.  When our perspective is out of whack we should turn to God in prayer and ask Him for His perspective. When we view things through the correct lens we see peace in the situation instead of a need for performance on our part.  God is our provider.  He is our Healer.  He is our all in all.  I was talking with a friend to day about us asking God to remove things from our lives and I said we have the wrong perspective.

We are not the surgeon, God is.  He is the one Who decides what needs to be removed from our lives to keep us from harm.  He is our protector and always knows what is best for us.  It would be like me going to the surgeon and telling them to give me a hysterectomy because I thought that would heal me, however the surgeon using wisdom may have a different option all together.  Same thing with God.  Sometimes we ask to be delivered from something yet God knows we may need to keep that in our lives to help us learn a lesson or receive revelation.  We need to allow Him to be the surgeon.  We need to let Him perform the necessary procedures to bring us into the fullness of revelation.

 

Underachiever Award Goes to: Brenda Czarniak 47th Year in a Row

2018

I am not one to set new year resolutions because I only find myself on the floor the eve of a new year making the same old promises to myself and God, knowing in the back of my head it is all just talk.  Empty, worthless drivel.  Goals I will not set incude:

  • I will not exercise more in the new year.
  • I will not take more walks then the year before.
  • I will not be any more organized than what I am at this very moment.
  • I will still wait for the last minute to do things.
  • I will not push myself to write.
  • I will not make all the right choices when it comes to healthy eating.
  • I will not stop coloring my hair and embracing the gray.
  • I refuse to set goals and ambitions for the new year only because I am afraid of failure and the mentally of “I can’t do anything right” haunts me year after year.  It is my wound and I have been protecting it all this time.  I cannot fail if I don’s set goals.  My wound cannot get any worse if I choose not to set things in motion for the new year.

There.  Now that I have established everything I am NOT  going to do in 2018 I feel so much relief.  No expectations to fulfill.  No standards to keep up with.  No commitments.  No chance of failure or not doing something right.  If I write, I write.  If I exercise, I exercise.  If I choose cake over carrots may the cake be chocolate.  If I get my desk organized then I will celebrate probably with ice cream.  No pressure. No problem.

EXCEPT

Psalm 42

1 As the deer longs for streams of water,
    so I long for you, O God.
I thirst for God, the living God.
    When can I go and stand before him?
Day and night I have only tears for food,
    while my enemies continually taunt me, saying,
    “Where is this God of yours?”

My heart is breaking
    as I remember how it used to be:
I walked among the crowds of worshipers,
    leading a great procession to the house of God,
singing for joy and giving thanks
    amid the sound of a great celebration!

Why am I discouraged?
    Why is my heart so sad?
I will put my hope in God!
    I will praise him again—
    my Savior and my God!

Now I am deeply discouraged,
    but I will remember you—
even from distant Mount Hermon, the source of the Jordan,
    from the land of Mount Mizar.
I hear the tumult of the raging seas
    as your waves and surging tides sweep over me.
But each day the Lord pours his unfailing love upon me,
    and through each night I sing his songs,
    praying to God who gives me life.

“O God my rock,” I cry,
    “Why have you forgotten me?
Why must I wander around in grief,
    oppressed by my enemies?”
10 Their taunts break my bones.
    They scoff, “Where is this God of yours?”

11 Why am I discouraged?
    Why is my heart so sad?
I will put my hope in God!
    I will praise him again—
    my Savior and my God!

 

As deep cries out to deep, God calls us to higher and higher levels in Him.  He wants us to have everything He has destined for us to achieve.  He wants us to be healthy but it does not need to control our every thought.  I am sure He would like us to be organized simply to help keep us focused on His next step for us.  He wants us to be happy in our own skin and if something needs to change, He will lead us in that direction. At times I feel like such a mess almost as if I was an unraveled ball of yarn that someone took apart and then just left in a pile on the floor.  In and of myself I cannot put myself back into shape, I will need to trust the Creator to do this.  With that being said, if I spend 2018 just seeking Him, He will guide me in the right direction.

By me setting up goals and standards for the new year I am almost saying, “Don’t worry God, I got this! See You in 2019 and I will be ready to move forward with what you have for me.”

So what am I going to do in 2018?  Just be.  Just be in an attitude of gratitude.  Just be thankful for where I am at the moment.  Just be in an atmosphere of continual praise and worship.  Just be silent in His presence so I can hear the next step.  Just be content with what I have knowing God has some much more for me.  I am just going the be me and see what God does in and through me.  Romans 8:18 seems to be the verse for the year for our family.

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My prayer this year for all of you reading this is for you to see making a new years resolution in a whole new light.  Let God into your goals.  Let God into any resolutions you feel you may need to make.  Just let God be in your life.  Just be in His presence.  Just be who He created you be.  You will discover in a very short time that His desires for your life are nothing like the standards of the world we so easily measure ourselves against.

Happy New Year! 

May 2018 show up in all it’s intended glory and show you who God really is.  May you be able to Just Be and pursue that which God desires for you to follow after.  May you find peace and joy in resting rather than working harder.  May you be blessed and highly favored as you begin to believe what God says about you rather than the world.  Most of all, I pray that you can Just Be.

Auto-Pilot Distracted Living

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I am almost embarrassed to tell this story yet I know that freedom comes from sharing our testimony, so here it goes!  

It was an ordinary Sunday afternoon, church was over and dad needed to go to the grocery store.  Let me preface this story with dad is 85  and can no longer live alone so we try to help him out as much as taking him to the store and doctor appointments.  Being in bad health his demeanor is usually grumpiness and some confusion so the usual running conversation on Sunday afternoon goes something like this:

Me:  Dad, are you ready to go shopping?

Dad:  I would have rather gone this morning.

Me:  Sorry Dad I had to go to church.

Dad:  Had to go?

Me:  Yes dad, we have Bible Study and I am on the worship team.

Dad:  Ok, well, I hope I can make it…

This is the conversation we have almost every Sunday.  Then we get to the store and he is frustrated with how full the parking lot is and how many people he anticipates to be in the store.  Once we get in he worries the whole time the electric cart is going to leave him stranded in the middle of the store.  It is really sad to see how much fear riddles my dads life and frustrating at the same time, especially when those around us have no idea what we have been through just to get to the dairy section of the store.

So on this particular Sunday I was thinking a strategy in my head of how I was going to drop dad off at the grocery section of the store and I was going to go in the other entrance because I knew we needed hand soap.  So as I was parking the car I was planning my trip into the store when I pulled into the parking spot only to notice the car in front of me was about to leave and I thought to myself, “Boy I bet they are mad because they can’t just pull through to leave.’ (which is surely a thought I would have had if it was me)  Then  a car pulled up two spots away with a really loud stereo and my attention was drawn to that instead.

After all of those distractions I went back to focusing on the task at hand:  Operation Hand Soap. I entered the store as planned, grabbed the hand soap and headed across the store to the produce section where dad was waiting not so patiently and we spent the next hour acquiring groceries and disputing whether we needed items or not.  Almost done and dad is in a panic because the electric cart is at half battery so I tell him to proceed to the front check outs and I will finish getting the last few items. (which I took too long to do and prompted a cell phone call to inquire what happened to me)

We get to the check-out, I pack up the cart and the usual routine is dad pays and I head off to load the car and pick him up.  I reach for my keys and they are absent from my purse…already in a state of frustration, I begin to panic.  I had hoped they were not locked in the car because my husband would have no way to bring me a key and so this scenario begins in my head about how he will be upset and what about dad and what about the frozen foods……

I arrive at the car only to discover with somewhat relief that indeed the keys were in the car and I had somehow managed to leave the door unlocked.  So once I calmed myself down a bit and forgave myself for not taking the keys out and locking the door, I loaded the groceries in the back of the car and got in to pick up dad only to discover that not only did I leave the keys in the ignition with the car unlocked I had in fact also left it running.  What?  How?  Why?  I ran through my head the events leading up to this and I decided I was just too distracted.  This was so out of my character.  How could I have allowed this to happen?  Only by the grace of God was my car even still in the parking lot.

Well, this got me thinking for sure and the Lord started showing me how we have become so distracted with the things of this world we have kind of left our Christianity on Auto-Pilot in hopes that it will still be there when we return.  We go through the motions of our days often being distracted by this thing and then another until we are almost running around like chickens with our heads cut off.  We are barely thinking straight and often allow the things of this world to upset us far more than we should.

When we finally do take a moment to come to our senses and spend some time focusing on the things of God we often discover the spirit part of our lives is often left to fend for itself.  We find it hard to read the Word.  We try to fit in a Bible Study when we can. Often we just don’t want to listen to Christian music and enter into His Presence.

BUT GUESS WHAT!!

God’s grace is there.  He will keep us running.  He will be still be there when our focus returns to Him and the distractions have gone away.  When we face our fears and overcome our anxieties we once again realize that it was His grace the entire time that kept us safe.  It is His Grace which keeps our spirit in perfect peace when chaos erupts around us.  It is His Grace which keeps us safe even when great storms seem to separate us from seeing Him in a situation.  It is His Grace that keeps us from falling apart at the seams when we are too distracted to notice.  It is His Grace and Love which prevents us from ever getting to distracted to notice He loves us right where we are, lost or found

Dear Lord, Please help me to stay focused and not to be distracted by the things of this world.  Keep me safe and headed in the right direction.  I thank You for the peace which passes all understanding and I thank You for always loving me no matter where I have wandered.  In Jesus Name  Amen

Time to Adjust My Crown

James 1:12 
Blessed is the one who perseveres under trial because, having stood the test, that person will receive the crown of life that the Lord has promised to those who love Him.

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Under normal circumstances, I would NEVER have posted this photo of myself.  But, today is not a normal day by any means.  After a little bit of road rage on the way to the store, while driving my dad, then a few people “in my way” at the store, and a grumpy dad because of it, and then 3 hours of healthy food prep for the week only to have someone say to me (I am sure in love and concern):

Have you lost any weight since you started making all this “heathy food” because it sure doesn’t look like it.”

Preface this with the night before my body acting out of whack and not getting much sleep and this makes for a very “fleshy” day.  Under normal circumstances I usually don’t have road rage and I am not irritated by those also shopping for their weekly groceries but for some reason today was just one of those days.  Then when I heard the words of defeat concerning my weight I was just done.

On a day like today I just need to take the advice of our pastor this morning and “Adjust my crown” and know who I am in Christ.  On a day like today I need not worry about the mistakes I have made, I just need to adjust my crown and move forward.  When one realizes they are the daughter or son of the Most High King the perspective of life should change.  One should be able to stand up tall and put their shoulders back and accept who God says they are not what the world just threw at them.

I could walk around the rest of the day moping and sulking because nothing I seem to do changes my outward appearance.  I have cut out soda (6 months), I have GREATLY reduced my sugar intake and gluten.  I cook fresh veggies for lunch and eat salad…I could go on but I think we all know the routine.  What will it take to lose the weight?  More healthy eating?  More exercise?  More defeat to push me to try harder?  I have been there and done that for months now with no results.  I even was doing my Faith and Fitness videos and feeling really motivated until I saw no results so I just gave up.  Defeated I stopped encouraging others all together.  Why bother?

Well, it’s time for me to put on my “Big Girl Panties” and buck up to the plate and try harder.  Do more to be active.  Do more to be healthy.  Concentrate all my time on measuring and monitoring my meals.  Time for me to be very meticulous about what goes on health wise for my body….

WAIT…(INSERT SOUND OF A RECORD STOPPING ABRUPTLY)

I do not need to do any of those things if they are causing me to worry or be stressed.  I must simply adjust my crown and move on.  Move to prayer and resting at the feet of Jesus, for it is at His feet that I will received all of the answers I need.  It is in my resting where God can do His most mighty miracles.

I am at the heaviest I have ever been pushing 210 pounds.  No wonder I am tired.  No wonder my body is out of whack, however, I can’t do anything about it if I am worried and stressed and over achieving.  Pushing myself to get motivated.  I am only going to achieve weight loss if I take Jesus with me.  If I allow myself to be still long enough, He will show me what to do and give me the desire to complete it.

Well, now that I have decided to straighten my crown and not to accept what the world thinks about me, I can enjoy the rest of my evening with my beloved husband knowing that I am loved by the Most High King and He is happy to see me with my crown on straight and my heart in the right place.

Dear Lord,

Today I pray for all of those who are struggling with poor self image and weight issues.  Help them to see themselves as You see them not like the world does.  Help them to rest in You and to be still long enough to hear what the next move is.  I pray Lord for hearts to be healed and lives changed.  I pray for crowns to be straightened and for minds to be renewed.  Thank You Lord for direction in all areas of our lives.  Thank You that You accept us just as we are and You love us right where we are.  In Jesus Name Amen.

 

From Drops to Floods

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But me he caught—reached all the way from sky to sea; he pulled me out Of that ocean of hate, that enemy chaos, the void in which I was drowning. They hit me when I was down, but God stuck by me. He stood me up on a wide-open field; I stood there saved—surprised to be loved!
Man, I missed the mark again.  That did not turn out like I wanted it to.  I can’t do anything right.  I failed again. Everyone is going to be mad at me now.
Nobody likes me.  Nobody wants me.  Nobody want to hang out with me.  Nobody wants to spend time with me because _________________________.  (fill in the blank)  Everybody hates me, what good am I?
I feel like we think  plagues were just a thing of the past in Old Testament times.

BUT, I feel the devil uses counterfeit plagues to keep us in fear and bondage in our minds.  So many of us struggle everyday with our minds.  We never think we measure up to the standards of God or man.  We feel like no matter how hard we try nothing seems to turn out right and we think people are mad at us INCLUDING God Himself.

Ugh!  Stupid devil.  I am so tired of people living in fear of failure.  It causes so much stress and anxiety to good people.  God does not intend for us to spend one minute or even one second thinking that He is mad at us.  He gave up His only Son to die on a cross which took care of all of that.  Now He only sees us through His Son.

We are good enough.  We are worthy of love.  We are loved by God.  

If we could only wrap our heads around this every waking moment of the day we could live in a river of peace so deep and wide nothing much else would matter.  If we messed up at work we would just forgive ourselves and float down the river on our inflatable mattress without a care in the world.  If we felt like we disappointed someone we would just ask for forgiveness and continue on down the river, eyes on Jesus because in the end He is all that matters.

When those drops of doubt start invading out minds, its really hard to stop them because the devil will just keep bringing up your past and pretty soon you find yourself in a flood of disaster barely holding your life together.  Everything seems dark (plague of darkness).  Everything seems to be too noisy (plague of frogs).  Things seem to be so irritating (plague of lice, boils & locusts).  We feel like we have lost everything (plague of livestock and firstborn).  And nothing we seem to do makes us feel any better almost as if we have poisoned ourselves (plague of water into blood).

Do you see how twisted the devil has made or minds?  What a mess we seem to be…YET..that’s not how God sees us.  Let me show you how God sees us:

We are Loved.

We are Valuable.

We are wanted.

We are NOT rejected.

We are Blameless.

We are the Righteousness of God.

We are Worthy.

We are Friends of God.

We are God’s living stones.

We are Children of God.

This is how we should be floating down that river of peace.  Knowing who we are in Christ!  Spend some time today and begin to believe who you are in Christ.  Below are  90 I am statements, read through them  and begin to BELIEVE in who you are to God.

I am blameless and free from accusation. (Colossians 1:22) Christ Himself is in me. (Colossians 1:27) I am firmly rooted in Christ and am now being built up in Him. (Col. 2:7) I have been made complete in Christ. (Colossians 2:10) I have been spiritually circumcised. My old unregenerate nature has been removed. (Colossians 2:11) I have been buried, raised, and made alive with Christ. (Colossians 2:12,13) I died with Christ and I have been raised up with Christ. My life is now hidden With Christ in God. Christ is now my life. (Colossians 1:1-4) I am an expression of the life of Christ because He is my life. (Colossians 3:4) I am chosen of God, holy and dearly loved. (Col. 3:12; 1 Thessalonians 1:4) I am a son of light and not of darkness. (1 Thessalonians 5:5) I have been given a spirit of power, love, and self-discipline. (2 Timothy 1:7) I have been saved and set apart according to God’s doing. (2 Timothy 1:9; Titus 3:5) Because I am sanctified and am one with the Sanctifier, He is not ashamed to call me brother. (Hebrews 2:11) I am a holy partaker of a heavenly calling. (Hebrews 3:1) I have the right to come boldly before the throne of God to find mercy and grace in a time of need. (Hebrews4:16) I have been born again. (1 Peter 1:23) I am one of God’s living stones, being built up in Christ as a spiritual house. (1 Peter 2:5) I am a member of a chosen race, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a People for God’s own possession. (1 Peter 2:9,10) I am an alien and stranger to this world in which I temporarily live. (1 Peter 2:11) I am an enemy of the devil. (1 Peter 2:11) I have been given exceedingly great and precious promises by God by Which I am a partaker of God’s divine nature. (2 Peter 1:4) I am forgiven on the account of Jesus’ name. (1 John 2:12) I am anointed by God. (1 John 2:27) I am a child of God and I will resemble Christ when He returns. (1 John 3:1,2) I am loved. (1 John 4:10) I am like Christ. (1 John 4:10) I have life. (1 John 5:12) I am born of God, and the evil one…the devil…cannot touch me. (1 John 5:`8) I have been redeemed. (Revelation 5:9) Over 90 Statements from Scripture Describing Who I Am In Christ My Nature In Christ I have been healed. (Isaiah 53:5) I am the salt of the earth. (Matthew 5:13) I am the light of the world. (Matthew 5:14) I am commissioned to make disciples. (Matthew 28:19,20) I am a child of God. (John 1:12) I have eternal life. (John 10:27) I have been given peace. (John 14:27) I am part of the true vine, a channel of Christ’s life. (John 15:1,5) I am clean. (John 15:3) I am Christ’s friend. (John 15:15) I am chosen and appointed by Christ to bear His fruit. (John 15:16) I have been given glory. (John 17:22) I have been justified…completely forgiven and made righteous. (Romans 5:1) I died with Christ and died to the power of sin’s rule over my life. (Romans 6:1-6) I am a slave of righteousness. (Romans 6:18) I am free from sin and enslaved to God. (Romans 6:22) I am free forever from condemnation. (Romans 8:1) I am a son of God; God is spiritually my Father. (Romans 8:14, 15 Galatians 3:26; 4:6) I am a joint heir with Christ, sharing His inheritance with Him (Romans 8:17) I am more than a conqueror through Christ, who loves me. (Romans 8:37) I have faith. (Romans 12:3) I have been sanctified and called to holiness. (1 Corinthians 1:2) I have been given grace in Christ Jesus. (1Corinthians 1:4) I have been placed into Christ, by God’s doing. (1 Corinthians 1:30) I have received the Spirit of God into my life that I might know the things feely given to me by God. (1 Corinthians 2:12) I have been given the mind of Christ. (1 Corinthians 2:16) I am a temple…a dwelling place…of God. His Spirit and His life dwell in me. (1 Corinthians 3:16; 6:19) I am united to the Lord and am one spirit with Him. (1 Corinthians 6:17) I am bought with a price; I am not my own; I belong to God. (1 Corinthians 6:19,20; 7:23) I am called. (1 Corinthians 7:17) I am a member of Christ’s Body. (1 Corinthians 12:27; Ephesians 5:30) I am victorious through Jesus Christ. (1 Corinthians 15:57) I have been established, anointed and sealed by God in Christ, and I have been given to the Holy Spirit as a pledge guaranteeing my inheritance to come. (2 Corinthians 1:21; Ephesians 1:13,14) I am led by God in triumphal procession. (2 Corinthians 2:14) I am to God the fragrance of Christ among those who are being saved and those who are perishing. (2 Corinthians 2:15) I am being changed into the likeness of Christ. (2 Corinthians 3:18 Since I have died, I no longer live for myself, but for Christ. (2 Corinthians 5:14,15) I am a new creation. (2 Corinthians 5:17) I am reconciled to God and am a minister of reconciliation. (2 Corinthians 5:18,19) I have been made righteous. (2 Corinthians 5:21) I am given strength in exchange for weakness. (2 Corinthians 12:10) I have been crucified with Christ and it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me. The life I am now living is Christ’s life. (Galatians 2:20) I am a son of God and one in Christ. (Galatians 3:26, 28) I am Abraham’s seed…an heir of the promise. (Galatians 3:29) I am an heir of God since I am a son of God. (Galatians 4:6,7) I am a saint. (Ephesians 1:1; ! Corinthians 1:2; Philippians 1:1; Colossians 1:2) I have been blessed with every spiritual blessing. (Ephesians 1:3) I was chosen in Christ before the foundation of the world to be holy and am without blame before Him. (Ephesians 1:4) I was predestined…determined by God…to be adopted as God’s son. (Ephesians 1:5) I have been sealed with the Holy Spirit. (Ephesians 1:13) I have been redeemed and forgiven, and I am a recipient of His lavish grace. I have been made alive together with Christ. (Ephesians 2:5) I have been raised up and seated with Christ in heaven. (Ephesians 2:6) I am God’s workmanship…His handiwork…born anew in Christ to do His work. (Ephesians 2:10) I have direct access to God through the Spirit. (Ephesians 2:18) I am a fellow citizen with the rest of God’s family. (Ephesians 2:19) I may approach God with boldness, freedom, and confidence. (Eph. 3:12) I am righteous and holy. (Ephesians 2:24) I am a citizen of heaven, seated in heaven right now. (Philippians 3:20 Ephesians 2:6) I am capable. (Philippians 4:13) I have been rescued from the domain of Satan’s rule and transferred to the kingdom of Christ. (Colossians 1:13) I have been redeemed and forgiven of all my sins. The debt against me has been cancelled. (Colossians 1:14)

http://www.risenking.org/_literature_125219/Who_I_Am_In_Christ

Five Things to do Without a Cell Phone

But God reassured him, “Easy now. Don’t panic. You won’t die.”

Judges 6:23 MSG

http://bible.com/97/jdg.6.23.MSG

Middle of texting my bestie whom hadn’t had a phone in forever and my phone begins to act up. Ugh. My heart begins to beat a little faster. No. Don’t stop working. Phone starts barking codes and warnings. My heart races a little faster.  Okay. Calming down I pressed the off button thinking it will reset my phone and stop the panic rising within me…nope. Just a blank white barely visible screen.

Now last time my phone was acting up I had an almost sheer out panic attack. I could not imagine being without it. What if my kids needed to get a hold of me? What if my dad fell and could not reach me? What if work was in need of me? What if. What if. What if.  I was terrified to be disconnected. Not to mention what was I going to do with my spare time if I couldn’t play my games or scroll through my Facebook? 

This time I was calmer and I discovered a few things. Even though I was under a small panic attack on the inside I discovered just how attached I had become to this hand held device.  Time consuming. Life distraction. Focus thief. Disconnection device.  Sorry…just calling my cell phone for what it is.  I have become so wrapped up in the next event in my phone that I have been neglecting what is more important: LIFE.

So here are just 5 things I discovered while I went without a Cell phone for a mere 36 hours:

1. I still knew how to read an actual book.  It felt so good to actual hold a book and physically flip through the pages as I learned new knowledge for life.

2.  I could hear God more clearly.  I could just sit in silence with no background noise and feel His Presence and hear His voice. 

3.  I could get more housework done.  This might not seem like a plus aspect, however being distracted by Facebook and games I have neglected my duties as a wife.

4.  No one died because my phone wasn’t working. No one needed me in a desperate manner in those 36 hours. Life actually still went on as my phone was silent.

5.  Lastly I discovered a freedom that I had not know since the invention of the cell phone.  I do not need my phone for survival.  Life will continue to move forward.  Accidents will still happen.  People will still need each other and we can be found if needed some way.
So yesterday as I sat in the phone store and simply watched the lady open my phone up, remove the battery and bring life to my phone I was excited yet I was apprehensive.  I didn’t want to become a slave to my phone again.  I wanted the freedom I had without it yet I knew it was going to go have to be a slow detox.  So I think I am almost ready to let this go.  Almost. (as I sit waiting for church to start typing this blog entry on my revived cell phone).

Dear God,

Thank You for showing me that everything just goes on in life without being attached to my phone.  Help me in the coming days to experience the freedom of unattachment from earthly devices and strengthen my attatchment to You.  I long to dwell In Your Presence and hear Your voice.

In Jesus Name.  Amen.