“That was the best mammogram!,” says no one ever. Those things are painful and uncomfortable. Having to be half naked in front of a stranger and all of the weird noises and pinching. I was dreading my appointment this morning when my husband called to tell me to cancel all of my appointments today because the roads were icy and he did not want me out in this 20 degree Michigan weather. I asked if he was sure because I had a 9 am mammogram appointment that I was ready to cancel and to my dismay he said I should go but to be very careful driving. And so I went.
How many times have we “ignored”, “set aside”, “put on a back burner” or “rescheduled” what we are suppose to be doing for God? For me…too many to count. I am a writer. I see things which need to be written and I write my heart. My goal? To touch one heart for Jesus. To make plain that which this fallen world has made complicated. I have been in this boat before where I know I need to write but I will find every excuse in the world not to accomplish the task before me. Today I received a push from a total stranger in an uncomfortable situation.
I could have 1,500 people come up to me and be like, “So when is the next book coming out? What’s it about?” and I would have some sappy reply to cover up the fact that I had not even started it. I can tell them the title and what it’s about but I have no words on paper to prove it. Recently I have been off work…10 weeks to be exact with the means of resting and writing. Have I written any words towards a book? Nope. Blogging is at a minimum. I just seem to have no motivation. I can’t even use the excuse anymore that I don’t have the means to create said book because I now have this beautiful new laptop with the right program to use to write with.
But! Because God loves me, He doesn’t give up. He keeps pursuing me. He is my creator and He knows the plans and purposes He has for me and that is to write. Today the technician who took my “pictures” was Christian and the encouragement from her meant so much to me. God used a complete stranger to give me ideas and venues for my writing. He chose to use something I was dreading and rewarded me with His grace. I left that appointment walking on cloud 9! Why? Because as I was leaving I told her thanks for the encouragement and her response was, “Thank You! You were also an encouragement to me today!”
So now I am back on my mission. If I can touch one person with the words I scribe it is all worth it. Enough running away from my gifting. Finished with the lies from the enemy that I am not making a difference. I am done with trying to be a writer and am accepting the words: I am a writer.
Dear God, It’s me Brenda. I know that you have instilled in me a purpose. An avenue of scribing words so that Your people will be able to hear Your heart. I thank You today for this precious gift You have given to me. Thank You for pursing me. Thank You for pushing. I pray now for those who are struggling with their gifting that You would begin to pursue them and show them the same grace You have given to me. I pray that You would use all of us in some way for Your purposes. Lord I surrender my gift to You. Use me. In Jesus Name, AMEN
So, my very dear friends, don’t get thrown off course. Every desirable and beneficial gift comes out of heaven. The gifts are rivers of light cascading down from the Father of Light. There is nothing deceitful in God, nothing two-faced, nothing fickle. He brought us to life using the true Word, showing us off as the crown of all his creatures.
Alright, in the last two blogs I explained how we each have a gift of our own and that we should not desire to have someone else’s gift. Today let’s explore opening and using our gift. Do you remember Christmas time when you were a kid, how excited you were to open presents? Then you would play with it for like a month and then on to the next exciting toy on the market. Some of us do this with our gift.
Others open the box and for whatever reason are afraid to take it out of the box. Some use part of their gift and others take the whole gifting out and use it everyday. Since each of us come from all different walks of life we may also just be in different stages of using our gift.
When I first began to write, I kept it to myself or I shared with a select few people. Now that I am fully aware that my writing is a gift from God to use to spread the Good News, I am more willing to share it with the world not just a few persons. Using your gift takes some risk, especially when you first figure out you even have a gift.
Some people at first tend to deny that their gift is even usable. They might be shy or insecure about the gift they have inside and it takes time to develop it. I am a little on the shy side myself so when I began writing I wasn’t even sure it was worth the time or the effort, however, as God began to unfold the people it was touching, I then began to gain confidence.
So have you figured out what your gift is? Did you open it yet? Are you ready to begin to use it? I encourage you to open it and try it on for size. God will lead you in the right directions and open any necessary doors for you. Trust in God to help you see what a difference you can make with your gift.
Then I observed all the work and ambition motivated by envy. What a waste! Smoke. And spitting into the wind.
“The grass is greener on the other side of the fence.” How many times have we heard this statement? We as humans always seem to want what the other person has. We want to “keep up with the Jones’s” . Sometimes people want what others have just because they think they will never get it for themselves. Others want what others possess because they are jealous.
Another reason for us wanting another persons gift is that we don’t realize we have one of our own. I wish I could preach like that! I wish I could write a book! I wish I could sew an outfit! I wish I was crafty. I wish I could cook a gourmet meal!! I wish I could style my hair like hers! I wish. I wish. I wish. How many times do we speak these things or at least think the thoughts? We get so wrapped up in what we can’t do that we forget to search for our own gift.
For me, I have known for a long time I like to write. I wrote tons of poems in middle and high school. I took creative writing classes and I even received a scholarship from my writing to attend college. Did I believe I was a writer? Nope. When my friend said to start a blog I was nervous. Who is going to read it? When I began to write my first book again I was doubting its success.
We need to come to realize we all have a special gift which God gives to us the moment we begin life. Some people spend their whole lives not knowing what their gift is or they have it in their possession and do nothing with it. I have chosen to take my writing as far as I can. I have tried to be dedicated to writing a blog every week…yes I have failed at times but I just keep trying.
I attended a powerful conference just recently and a Man of God prayed over me. He stood back and looked sternly at me and asked me if I knew I was in a place of influence. I agreed that I was concerning my job, however I thought that was the only area. He prayed that God would place the mantle of influence over my life and that He would begin to show me my areas of influence.
My first glimpse of this was yesterday when I was just going over my stats here on WordPress. There is this map which shows how many different countries have read my writing. I was reminded that about 3 years ago it was prophesied into my life that my writings would touch the nations. I shrugged it off not really believing this to be true until yesterday that it is. I discovered that people from 65 different nations have read my blog.
I stood there is awe of what God can do. The only thing I have to do with this is obedience. I opened my gift and used it and in return God has blessed me. I encourage you today to find and open your gift. I know you have one. What has God given to you for the nations? How has He equipped you to do His will here on earth?
1 Corinthians 1:7-9
Just think—you don’t need a thing, you’ve got it all! All God’s gifts are right in front of you as you wait expectantly for our Master Jesus to arrive on the scene for the Finale. And not only that, but God himself is right alongside to keep you steady and on track until things are all wrapped up by Jesus. God, who got you started in this spiritual adventure, shares with us the life of his Son and our Master Jesus. He will never give up on you. Never forget that.
Sometimes we feel as if we have no purpose in life. We can’t decide when we leave high school what we want to be for the rest of our lives. There are times when we are just content to work our 9 to 5 jobs and just live day by day without anything changing. Do you know that each of us has a gift? We have all been given a special way in which to reach others and change lives?
Once we begin our lives as Christians we take up the cross of Jesus and begin to bear witness of the Gospel and its’ message. We have been commissioned to share the Good News with everyone we meet and to love one another. How come we find this so hard to do? Because some of us have not opened our very own gift. God loves us to such a degree that He gives us good gifts in which we can use to show others the light of Christ. Remember we are the light in the darkness of this world.
This week we will dig into the gift and how we use and abuse it. For me my gift is writing. I have loved to write since I was in kindergarten and wrote my first poem. I love stringing words together and now that I am older I am challenged with helping others see Christ through my writing. I have two books written with a third on the way. I blog as often as possible, yet I feel that sometimes it does not matter. Am I doing enough?
The answer from God is yes. My gift is writing, not starting churches or traveling at this point. The gift God has given to me is writing and He knows I love it. I am not saying that someday my writing won’t lead me to start a church with my husband or travel the world but for now I need to open my gift and begin to use it.
So, what is your gift? Have you even opened the box yet? We are never to young or to old to receive from God. I guarantee that God will move on His own timing but we have to be willing to at least open the gift. We have to be willing to take the steps to develop our gift. We need to come to the understanding that lives can be saved and we have been given a gift in which to do so. So I challenge you to open your gift and begin to explore the possibilities God has set right before you!