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Right Where I am….

Your life is a journey you must travel with a deep consciousness of God. It cost God plenty to get you out of that dead-end, empty-headed life you grew up in. He paid with Christ’s sacred blood, you know. He died like an unblemished, sacrificial lamb. And this was no afterthought. Even though it has only lately—at the end of the ages—become public knowledge, God always knew he was going to do this for you. It’s because of this sacrificed Messiah, whom God then raised from the dead and glorified, that you trust God, that you know you have a future in God. 1 Peter 1:18-19 MSG

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Ever feel like it’s just not worth it to move any further?  You just have this stupid desire to be content with what you have already accomplished and call it good? I am kinda in that boat right now.  I just want to either be successful in what comes next or just stay right here.  I have worked hard to build this blog.  I have written two complete books and just waiting for publication funding to roll right in.  I am working on the third book while I wait….but I am just not sure why I am stuck in this mode of wanting to just not move.

I recently attended a church service and God showed me how many of us sacrifice things.  We extend our arms out in front of us as if we are setting something on a shelf with the intent of gaining easy access to it when we need it. This is how I have been about my writing lately.  I surrender the book publishing over and over and over and over it seems like, yet nothing moves.  Then I pause to reflect on what a pastor once mentioned in a sermon.  When you are stuck you need to go back the last word you got a word from God and start from there.

 Hmmmm…write the third book.  That was the word.  Am I doing that now? Nope!  Keep putting it on the back burner, KNOWING, the other two have gone nowhere so why bother….sigh! Not the idea God has in mind for my future I am sure.  The rest of the vision I saw was that God was asking us to place things we intend to give to Him on the highest shelf possible.  Instead of the offering being right in front of us we need to raise both of our arms in COMPLETE surrender so that we will be less tempted to try to get in back into our own hands.

So what now?  I have two options:  Quit or Write the third book.  It’s always up to us what we want to do because of our free will given to us by God, yet we can never reach our destiny if we don’t listen for  God’s still small voice to guide us along the way.  It is completely up to us if we want to do what He asks of us but I can tell you without the shadow of a doubt that you will stay right where you are if you do not complete the assignments.

So do you feel stuck?  Feeling like it’s not even worth pursuing your dream?  Well I am writing this blog as a pep talk to both of us then…pick up where you left off.  Put your feet in motion to the rhythm of faith and keep pressing forward into the things God has planned for you.  I wonder how many of God’s people give up right before the biggest breakthrough of their lives? Let us not be counted among that number.

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Here I Stand

Luke 1:46-55

And Mary said, I’m bursting with God-news; I’m dancing the song of my Savior God. God took one good look at me, and look what happened— I’m the most fortunate woman on earth! What God has done for me will never be forgotten, the God whose very name is holy, set apart from all others. His mercy flows in wave after wave on those who are in awe before him. He bared his arm and showed his strength, scattered the bluffing braggarts. He knocked tyrants off their high horses, pulled victims out of the mud. The starving poor sat down to a banquet; the callous rich were left out in the cold. He embraced his chosen child, Israel; he remembered and piled on the mercies, piled them high. It’s exactly what he promised, beginning with Abraham and right up to now.
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What have I learned in surrender?  I have learned to be content in all things as it says in Philippians.  I have learned how to be loved back together.  I have learned that God is truly in control.  And I think this biggest thing I have learned in surrender is that it is always best just to stay surrendered.  Not easy at times, yet if things are already set into motion by God, then who am I to stop it?
When I decided to follow after Jesus at age 6, I thought my life was going to be easy.  I figured if God had made me then He would take care of me.  So much of this is true, however, He did give us a free will and sometimes we take advantage of that and make some choices not of God.  I freely admit that I was not seeking after God for a mate when entered into my first marriage.  I know that it may not have been the right way to go, yet God does this amazing thing of turning anything bad into good.
I learned through trial and error that standing in surrender to God’s will was much easier than doing everything my way all the time.  The more I surrendered, the more peace I found.  The more peace I obtained the more joy I contained.  At first it was not easy to just stand and let God take care of everything but once I began to see the benefits of such a great Father’s love, standing became easier and I did a lot less squirming.
So, needless to say, here I stand.  I will not be moved or shaken or stirred or pushed or defeated. With God on my side He says no one can be against me.  I know, hard to accept sometimes, but that’s truly how it works.  He moves mountains.  He destroys our enemies.  He provides for our needs.  Really, we just need to stand surrendered to His plan, it’s that simple.

Do Not Disturb

Psalm 78:23

But He commanded the skies to open; He opened the doors of heaven.
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How many of us are waiting for God to do something?  How often do we just plunder through doors thinking we have the right way to go when in reality God has something better waiting for us if we just become patient in His presence and wait on Him.  Of course we have all heard at some point or another, “Are you waiting on God or is He waiting on you?”  It’s the age old question and here is the answer I found in the Bible:  Isaiah 30:18

[ Blessings for the Lord’s People ] So the Lord must wait for you to come to Him so He can show you His love and compassion. For the Lord is a faithful God. Blessed are those who wait for His help.  We have to seek God out for our desires but then we must wait on Him before we move.
Wow! What a fresh revelation to see as I am writing this very blog.  The reason I wrote on the subject of doors and patience is because tonight I was given a prayer about 5 doors being set in front of me and I am just waiting.  I know what is behind each door and I have the freedom to choose which one I will open.  They are all good and will lead to God, however, I am patiently waiting for God to choose just the right door for me.  He is honored by my patience.  It was a pretty cool word to have spoken to me and I knew right away what it pertained to, my books.
I have been at a standstill for quite some time concerning the publishing of my books and I could probably come up with a hundred schemes on how to get them published by now, but I am waiting on God. In my standing and waiting, $800 has been provided and I know there is more provision to come.  I know that I cannot rush this.  I am also secure in God enough to know He has a much better plan behind whatever door He opens than I do.
I know it never seems easy to wait.  I personally never considered myself to be a patient person, however, looking back at my life, I guess I have been.  I have stood in places of my life where others would have ran far away.  I have chosen not to move when I easily could have made my own choices and gone off the deep end.  I see a pattern now looking back, the more I just waited for God in my circumstances, the greater the reward.
Now here I am standing with these five doors set before me and I will continue to lay it all down in surrender and allow God to open the perfect door for me.  I am placing Do Not Disturb signs on each of the doors so as not to be tempted to open them up just to see what the possibilities are.  What are you waiting on God for?  Have you even brought it to His attention and sought out His grace?  What would you do if you had the choice to open the doors?  Waiting on the Lord is never easy, especially with this free will of ours, yet the reward is so much greater when we allow the Creator of our life to move us in the direction of our destiny.