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Time to Adjust My Crown

James 1:12 
Blessed is the one who perseveres under trial because, having stood the test, that person will receive the crown of life that the Lord has promised to those who love Him.


Under normal circumstances, I would NEVER have posted this photo of myself.  But, today is not a normal day by any means.  After a little bit of road rage on the way to the store, while driving my dad, then a few people “in my way” at the store, and a grumpy dad because of it, and then 3 hours of healthy food prep for the week only to have someone say to me (I am sure in love and concern):

Have you lost any weight since you started making all this “heathy food” because it sure doesn’t look like it.”

Preface this with the night before my body acting out of whack and not getting much sleep and this makes for a very “fleshy” day.  Under normal circumstances I usually don’t have road rage and I am not irritated by those also shopping for their weekly groceries but for some reason today was just one of those days.  Then when I heard the words of defeat concerning my weight I was just done.

On a day like today I just need to take the advice of our pastor this morning and “Adjust my crown” and know who I am in Christ.  On a day like today I need not worry about the mistakes I have made, I just need to adjust my crown and move forward.  When one realizes they are the daughter or son of the Most High King the perspective of life should change.  One should be able to stand up tall and put their shoulders back and accept who God says they are not what the world just threw at them.

I could walk around the rest of the day moping and sulking because nothing I seem to do changes my outward appearance.  I have cut out soda (6 months), I have GREATLY reduced my sugar intake and gluten.  I cook fresh veggies for lunch and eat salad…I could go on but I think we all know the routine.  What will it take to lose the weight?  More healthy eating?  More exercise?  More defeat to push me to try harder?  I have been there and done that for months now with no results.  I even was doing my Faith and Fitness videos and feeling really motivated until I saw no results so I just gave up.  Defeated I stopped encouraging others all together.  Why bother?

Well, it’s time for me to put on my “Big Girl Panties” and buck up to the plate and try harder.  Do more to be active.  Do more to be healthy.  Concentrate all my time on measuring and monitoring my meals.  Time for me to be very meticulous about what goes on health wise for my body….


I do not need to do any of those things if they are causing me to worry or be stressed.  I must simply adjust my crown and move on.  Move to prayer and resting at the feet of Jesus, for it is at His feet that I will received all of the answers I need.  It is in my resting where God can do His most mighty miracles.

I am at the heaviest I have ever been pushing 210 pounds.  No wonder I am tired.  No wonder my body is out of whack, however, I can’t do anything about it if I am worried and stressed and over achieving.  Pushing myself to get motivated.  I am only going to achieve weight loss if I take Jesus with me.  If I allow myself to be still long enough, He will show me what to do and give me the desire to complete it.

Well, now that I have decided to straighten my crown and not to accept what the world thinks about me, I can enjoy the rest of my evening with my beloved husband knowing that I am loved by the Most High King and He is happy to see me with my crown on straight and my heart in the right place.

Dear Lord,

Today I pray for all of those who are struggling with poor self image and weight issues.  Help them to see themselves as You see them not like the world does.  Help them to rest in You and to be still long enough to hear what the next move is.  I pray Lord for hearts to be healed and lives changed.  I pray for crowns to be straightened and for minds to be renewed.  Thank You Lord for direction in all areas of our lives.  Thank You that You accept us just as we are and You love us right where we are.  In Jesus Name Amen.



Ha! Settle for Happy?

Nehemiah 8:10
Then he said to them, “Go, eat of the fat, drink of the sweet, and send portions to him who has nothing prepared; for this day is holy to our Lord. Do not be grieved, for the joy of the LORD is your strength.”

You may want to buckle up for the reading of this blog, as I just got home from a revival meeting.  Every time I find myself sitting in a pew receiving what God has for me, I just want more.  I can never get enough and I don’t want to settle for just being happy, I want to be filled with joy!  Now, as I write this some will not understand where I am going with this, but just hang on, the ride might be bumpy, but I promise you, we will arrive safely and with maybe you will have an awakening of the spirit you never had before.
In today’s society, we have a million “Happily Ever Afters”, all the Disney movies have it and the best romantic novels and we all have dreams of having it, however, what strength do we actual derive from it?  In the end, maybe we had a 50 year “Happily Ever After” marriage, but was there a gain?  Was there any real fruit from it?  Perhaps we were just settling for the worlds version of joy, calling it good and just being content to stay where we were so as not to “Rock the Boat”. The world has it’s counterfeits to everything of God, so could it be that happy is just a counterfeit for joy?  Yes I know happy is in the Bible, but joy is mentioned many more times and seems to have a more serious side to it.
Now before anyone gets offended, I want to clearly state that these are my own opinions and just seems to be what is on my heart after the revival meeting tonight.  I myself do not want to just settle for accepting Jesus into my life and living an ordinary “happy” life, I want my life to count for something, which means I will need to go against the ideals of the world and in order to do this, the joy of the Lord will need to be my strength.  Settling is something we all do in the flesh.  Some of us are more competitive though when it comes to the things of God and we cannot get our Spirit Man to just settle for the ordinary, it always wants more. There comes a point in one’s life where they need to make a conscience decision and check their flesh at the door so they can continue forward into the purpose God has for their lives.  So many people get so busy trying to  be happy they never get to feel real joy.  Real joy only comes from God and is found when searching the things of God in one’s life.
Yes, I desire to be happy in life, yet I know there is more to God than just being happy so to speak.  There is this indescribable feeling you get when you are at the altar and worshiping God with all that is within you, joy, unspeakable joy.  Here too we could just settle for staying in our pews and singing songs, not worshiping and appear to be happy, however after some one on one encounters with the Holy Spirit, true joy from worship only comes when one is surrendered in worship and the focus is solely on Jesus and not the band. Happy is going to a concert and seeing your favorite band play, joy is found in worshiping God for who He is and what He has done for us.
Do you see my point in this?  God wants us to be happy for sure, yet He calls us to a deeper purpose and that is where joy is found.  Take for instance my writing “Be Blessed” on coffee cups.  God showed this to me awhile back and I thought to myself, “How silly!  Really God?  What if I offend someone?”.  Well, God has shown me several times that I am actually making a difference in peoples lives with those simple writings on a silly styrofoam cup.  I get reports at least twice a month about stories of how those two words made someones day and that just brings me great joy, a joyous feeling in my spirit that makes me want to dance because it is Kingdom work and God gets all the glory.
So in this short life, I want to increase my joy and find more than a “happy medium”.  I want the fullness of what God has for me and will not settle for just being happy with what have.  I am a child of God, a princess and one who has the favor of the Lord at all times.  God loves us so much He wants to be the Joy that is our strength.  So, don’t worry, you can still be happy, but I think you will be missing out on the true purpose God has for your life.  If your only goal in life is to be happily married with two kids, a dog, a house and a nice car, truly this is not your destiny but the normalcy of the world.  In the end of this life do you want to fit into the worlds standards and be happy or do you want to see the things of God and be filled with a joy that no worldly words can really describe?  The choice is truly up to you, but as for me, I am seeking joy.