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Auto-Pilot Distracted Living

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I am almost embarrassed to tell this story yet I know that freedom comes from sharing our testimony, so here it goes!  

It was an ordinary Sunday afternoon, church was over and dad needed to go to the grocery store.  Let me preface this story with dad is 85  and can no longer live alone so we try to help him out as much as taking him to the store and doctor appointments.  Being in bad health his demeanor is usually grumpiness and some confusion so the usual running conversation on Sunday afternoon goes something like this:

Me:  Dad, are you ready to go shopping?

Dad:  I would have rather gone this morning.

Me:  Sorry Dad I had to go to church.

Dad:  Had to go?

Me:  Yes dad, we have Bible Study and I am on the worship team.

Dad:  Ok, well, I hope I can make it…

This is the conversation we have almost every Sunday.  Then we get to the store and he is frustrated with how full the parking lot is and how many people he anticipates to be in the store.  Once we get in he worries the whole time the electric cart is going to leave him stranded in the middle of the store.  It is really sad to see how much fear riddles my dads life and frustrating at the same time, especially when those around us have no idea what we have been through just to get to the dairy section of the store.

So on this particular Sunday I was thinking a strategy in my head of how I was going to drop dad off at the grocery section of the store and I was going to go in the other entrance because I knew we needed hand soap.  So as I was parking the car I was planning my trip into the store when I pulled into the parking spot only to notice the car in front of me was about to leave and I thought to myself, “Boy I bet they are mad because they can’t just pull through to leave.’ (which is surely a thought I would have had if it was me)  Then  a car pulled up two spots away with a really loud stereo and my attention was drawn to that instead.

After all of those distractions I went back to focusing on the task at hand:  Operation Hand Soap. I entered the store as planned, grabbed the hand soap and headed across the store to the produce section where dad was waiting not so patiently and we spent the next hour acquiring groceries and disputing whether we needed items or not.  Almost done and dad is in a panic because the electric cart is at half battery so I tell him to proceed to the front check outs and I will finish getting the last few items. (which I took too long to do and prompted a cell phone call to inquire what happened to me)

We get to the check-out, I pack up the cart and the usual routine is dad pays and I head off to load the car and pick him up.  I reach for my keys and they are absent from my purse…already in a state of frustration, I begin to panic.  I had hoped they were not locked in the car because my husband would have no way to bring me a key and so this scenario begins in my head about how he will be upset and what about dad and what about the frozen foods……

I arrive at the car only to discover with somewhat relief that indeed the keys were in the car and I had somehow managed to leave the door unlocked.  So once I calmed myself down a bit and forgave myself for not taking the keys out and locking the door, I loaded the groceries in the back of the car and got in to pick up dad only to discover that not only did I leave the keys in the ignition with the car unlocked I had in fact also left it running.  What?  How?  Why?  I ran through my head the events leading up to this and I decided I was just too distracted.  This was so out of my character.  How could I have allowed this to happen?  Only by the grace of God was my car even still in the parking lot.

Well, this got me thinking for sure and the Lord started showing me how we have become so distracted with the things of this world we have kind of left our Christianity on Auto-Pilot in hopes that it will still be there when we return.  We go through the motions of our days often being distracted by this thing and then another until we are almost running around like chickens with our heads cut off.  We are barely thinking straight and often allow the things of this world to upset us far more than we should.

When we finally do take a moment to come to our senses and spend some time focusing on the things of God we often discover the spirit part of our lives is often left to fend for itself.  We find it hard to read the Word.  We try to fit in a Bible Study when we can. Often we just don’t want to listen to Christian music and enter into His Presence.

BUT GUESS WHAT!!

God’s grace is there.  He will keep us running.  He will be still be there when our focus returns to Him and the distractions have gone away.  When we face our fears and overcome our anxieties we once again realize that it was His grace the entire time that kept us safe.  It is His Grace which keeps our spirit in perfect peace when chaos erupts around us.  It is His Grace which keeps us safe even when great storms seem to separate us from seeing Him in a situation.  It is His Grace that keeps us from falling apart at the seams when we are too distracted to notice.  It is His Grace and Love which prevents us from ever getting to distracted to notice He loves us right where we are, lost or found

Dear Lord, Please help me to stay focused and not to be distracted by the things of this world.  Keep me safe and headed in the right direction.  I thank You for the peace which passes all understanding and I thank You for always loving me no matter where I have wandered.  In Jesus Name  Amen

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A Fortune Cookie with No Fortune

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As I was sitting here on New Years Day 2016 contemplating what God wanted me to share, I was feasting on some fortune cookies left over from our latest take out meal.  As I opened my second cookie I was surprised to find no little paper with some words of wisdom printed on it.  Now, not that I follow any of these fortunes but it’s still fun to read them and sometimes I have to admit, they line up with something which is happening in my life at the moment.  So I guess God is leading me today to share about empty expectations.

Did we get all we expected out of the last year?  I know for one I had some ups and downs but I have to say for me personally I did not get done what I had expected to do.  I wanted to get started on book number four and be in the publishing stage at this point.  Two things have prevented me from accomplishing this:  self-motivation and no computer with a word processor on it.

I recently had back surgery and I had clearly heard the Lord say to me as I was facing this that I was to rest and write.  Okay, great I thought to myself, God is giving me the opportunity to rest and write, then after surgery things were tougher than expected and sitting up was not my friend.  So I decided to rest and that maybe it was a two part ordeal.  I rested and then I realized my six weeks was almost up and I had not even typed out one word in the new book.

After seeing the physician for my post-op visit I was told that I would head off to physical therapy and could not return to work until it was completed…this meant 6 more weeks off.  With six more weeks ahead of me,  I decided to get serious about my writing only to discover that the laptop I had been borrowing did not have a word program and neither did the new laptop my hubby bought for me for Christmas.  Now what I asked God?

I felt like I was stuck behind a task I had been assigned with no means to accomplish it.  A friend suggested that I hand write the book but that’s too hard to do and keep up with the words which begin to flow.  Another friend said I should speak my book into a microphone on my phone but that just got too complicated because it’s not the way I am gifted to write.

So here I am with a book idea, expecting to write and I can’t.  So I sit here feeling guilty and disobedient to God.  The devil has a field day sometimes condemning me and making me feel worthless and lazy, like I am wasting my gift.  What is happening in your life that the devil is trying to beat you over the head with or make you feel guilty?  Some days I fear that God will take my writing from me but I know that’s a lie.  The devil can turn any promise from God into a lie if we allow ourselves to submit to fear.

This is what I hear God saying:  Whatever you expected from last year, just let it go.  It’s a new year.  A new beginning.  Choose to renounce the lies and see yourself as I do.  You are my beloved.  You are loved.  You are accepted.  I will not take things away from you, it is not My nature.  Believe that I only want your love and obedience.  I only desire a true relationship with you.  Come, talk to Me. Abide in Me.  You are never too far away to come back home.  Choose today to start again.  

Dear Lord, help me today to see me as You do.  Teach me to hear only Your voice and to rise up against the lies of fear.  I thank You that You are here with me everyday to guide me and teach me.  I thank You for sticking with me even when I seem to running in the wrong direction.  I know that You  have great plans for my life because Your Word promises that to me. I love you Lord!  Amen

Run or Walk?

Romans 8:38

And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God’s love. Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither our fears for today nor our worries about tomorrow—not even the powers of hell can separate us from God’s love.
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What is fear? Is it real or just imaginary?  How come some of us fear one thing and others are fearful of different things?  I guess since we were all raised in different homes we learned to fear separate things.  For me, water is a fear.  I get to about chest high and a panic state arises in my spirit and I begin to really feel the fear.  I know in my heart that God did not give me a spirit of fear, so why I am I still afraid of the water?
Fear keeps us from doing so many things.  It surely is an enemies tool against our lives.  Some of us even fear spiders which are millions times smaller than we are, how is that even possible?  What about those who are afraid to leave their homes, they are bound to a fear which mobilizes them.  There is a fear for pretty much everything on earth and we either need to choose to live without fear or just avoid the snares all together.
Tonight as I was hanging out in the pool, I tried once again to deal with my fear. I know where my fear started, it was when I was about eight years old and was thrown off a boat in hopes that I would learn how to swim.  Then to add to this fear and keep me there, my son had a near drowning experience when he was six.  This summer I walked farther into Lake Michigan than I had ever done, but somehow, the fear is still lingering.  All I can do is surrender it once again to God for I know He has a plan to remove the fear.
What are you afraid of?  Do you run from your fears or do you walk in quiet confidence knowing God did not give you a spirit of fear?  I think this is a subject which hits all of us.  I can’t say that I have ever met anyone who has no fears, it just proves that Satan is hard at work trying to keep us from doing the things God has set out for us.  We at some point will need to come to terms with our fear and face it instead of running from it.  We will need to stare it right in the face and speak truth to it, the truth that if we are with Chirst, we have no fear.
I myself want to get over this fear of water.  I will keep pressing in each time to be able to conquer it.  I no longer want to run, I want to take this fear of water by the hand and walk out what God has promised me….A Spirit without fear!  Are you ready to face a fear or two?

Who is Afraid of the Big Bad Wolf and Why?

Psalm 27 NLT

A psalm of David.

The Lord is my light and my salvation—
    so why should I be afraid?
The Lord is my fortress, protecting me from danger,
    so why should I tremble?

I could find lots of passages in the Bible about how not to be in fear, for God is in control the enemy has  been defeated, so why are we so fearful?  We fear from lack of money.  We fear our children will come to harm.  We are afraid of the dark.  We are terrified of thunder storms.  We run for fear of spiders and small creatures.  We fear failure.  We fear rejection.  We fear just about everything you can imagine and then we give those fears names and identities.  Why?

Now I surely have fears, yet I know I have nothing to fear with God right beside me.  I will admit that my greatest fear is deep water.  I can swim to save my life I think, but once I cannot feel the bottom or the water is nearing my chest I get into a panic.  So imagine that fear and put yourself in the shoes of all those other fears I listed above…do any of those fit you?  Are there ones out there which I have not mentioned?  Do you know there are persons out there who fear leaving their homes?  Those who are afraid to drive a car?  What is it that Satan holds over our heads to make us so fearful?

God sent His only Son to die on the cross for our salvation and the process He won the battle and defeated Satan, how is it he still has a hold on so many things in our lives?  Because he knows God has great things planned for each of our lives and he wants to butt in wherever he can and mess things up.  Ugh!  Just makes me sick to think he has so much control in this world.  I wish I could get over this fear I have and as I get older I am getting bolder, however I have conquered my fear of spiders, but only because EVERYONE else in my household would run and hide screaming all the way, “MOM!!!  KILL IT!!  KILL IT!”  Only to run into assess the situation to find a spider I needed a magnifying glass to find so I could smoosh it with my shoe.

How can we begin to conquer the fear factors in our lives?  Simple, surrender.  Surrender everything you have a fear about and see what God can do with it!  He is awesome in power and can help us defeat every fear.  He does not desire us to be bound by such devilish things and so we must learn to just give up fear.  Hmmm… Give Up Fear, that’s sounds so simple, guess what for some it will be, yet others will need to seek counsel for release because Satan has them so deceived by fear.  I pray as you now have this tidbit of info, that you begin to surrender things, perhaps one at a time and allow God to heal that which torments you.  I bet most fears come from something internal such as my fear of water comes from when I was young and was thrown off of a boat in hopes that I would just “learn how to swim”, instead I have gained a great fear for water.  Then Satan strengthed that fear by allowing my son to nearly drown in a swimming pool when he was 6 years old.

Perhaps you can start by just repeating this simple line:  Fear has no hold on me for I am completely covered by the blood of Jesus.

Share what fears you have conquered, maybe you are the key which unlocks healing for someone else!