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Ostrich Syndrome

The enemy hunted me down; he kicked me and stomped me within an inch of my life. He put me in a black hole, buried me like a corpse in that dungeon. I sat there in despair, my spirit draining away, my heart heavy, like lead. I remembered the old days, went over all you’ve done, pondered the ways you’ve worked, Stretched out my hands to you, as thirsty for you as a desert thirsty for rain.
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Ever just dealt with something over and over again.  You do everything in your power to fix it and make it work.  You have exhausted every bit of you into the situation with the same results..no change.  What about those situations that come at you so quickly the only reaction you have is to go ostrich and bury your head?  When this happens you are just praying it will go away and quickly.  If you can’t see it, it can not affect you.
I call this the Ostrich Syndrome.  The ability to bury your head in the sand and pretend as if you cannot be seen.  Can you just picture this in your mind?  Even if we bury our heads the rest of our body is open for attack, in fact you would be in for a more fatal blow from the enemy at this point.  When we just bury our senses so to speak so that we don’t have to taste, smell, see or hear our enemies we are still open to him touching us.
A good example of this is when I was in my past marriage I often closed my eyes and hoped it would all just go away.  I no longer wanted to hear the screaming or taste the tears.  I didn’t want to see the pain in my children or smell the rottenness of the mess I had gotten myself into.  There were days when I would just bury my head and pretend I was free from the attacks.  It never worked.  I still felt the stings from the enemy.  My ex-husband still drank. Still smoked. Still searched daily for  his next fix.  Meanwhile with my head in the sand I was oblivious to what was really going on around me.
My children were hurting.  My heart was breaking.  I was slowly being erased by the enemy.  My life no longer mattered.  I wanted to just run away but I couldn’t because my head was buried in the sand. While I still had my head in tact, the rest of me was being attacked by the enemy.  I no longer cared what I looked like.  I had lost all hope in ever having a life.  The enemy had me exactly where he wanted me…buried..oblivious to what was happening..dead to life…hopeless.
Then one day I lifted my head and began to see what was happening.  It was then that I saw this hand reaching out to me and I began to lose the need to bury my head or run away.  Suddenly I wanted to face all of the disaster surrounding me and stop closing my eyes hoping everything would just disappear.  What a feeling as I began to shake the dirt from my head.  I began to hear clearly what God wanted for my life.  I could see a way out.  I started to taste freedom and I could feel the presence of God begin to take over my entire being.  I could smell the fragrance of Jesus in the air.
What caused me to pull my head out? I don’t really know.  I just knew inside of me that I was done with being buried in the sand.  I was done with the attacks from the enemy.  I was just done with all of it and I either could leave my eyes shut and my head buried in the sand or I could break free and run to Jesus.
Today I am grateful for freedom.  I am free to love again even when I thought it to be impossible.  I am free to be me and feel accepted.  I still have things to work through but for the most part I am healed.  I have hope now. No more ostrich syndrome for me!  I want to see everything God is doing in my life!
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Do You Know Where Your Bible Is?

 Psalm 119:11
I have hidden your word in my heart, that I might not sin against you.

 

One would think, a professing Christian as myself would have no dust accumulated on my Bible, however, this is my lacking place in my walk.  As I began to examine my life these past few weeks as I am walking out this valley, I soon realized I have some lacks in my life and daily reading of the Word is one of them. Sure, I read verses here and there and I read on Saturdays at church and Wednesdays at youth group and then again on Sundays, but a daily dousing of the Word? Nope not so much.  I have tried and tried an tried to start devotional times in my life, I always blame my out of whack work schedule for not having a decent one on one time for seeking God as far as reading the Bible.  I work at McDonalds as a manager and my schedule has no consistency to it.  One day I work at 4:30am another 4pm and still there are 8 to 5s and 11 to 8s.  Sure I could get up an hour before and set that as the time, but I find myself not motivated and too tired with the multitude of things I have to do every day.  Then again I could read last thing before I go to bed, yet I lack the discipline to do so.

This world we live in just keeps us busier and busier and who may I ask is the ruler of earth currently?  Satan’s desire is to keep us from receiving God in our daily lives and keeping us busy is his biggest ploy in today’s society.  I have tried to say “No” to things but I still find myself filling the space of time I should be reading the Bible with other things.  I don’t want to say I have ADD but I do get distracted.  Quiet time is a definite challenge for me!  Recently I had decided I was going to redo the Purpose Driven Life because I found a copy of it with a blank journal to go with it at a local Goodwill.  I had it all ready to go and even though I don’t really follow Lent as closely as I used to, I was going to start with day 1 on Wednesday and work my way through so I would end up finishing it on Easter.  Guess what?  It’s Saturday….um, I have yet to open the book!  On the same note, I found the devotional book from a long time ago in a thrift store, Be Still and Know.  Now I have read a few of these, but only when I think about it.  What am I going to do?

What if tomorrow there was this breaking news story and it was made law that we could no longer have Bibles in our possession. People came door to door collecting them.  Websites disappeared which had Bible references on them.  Facebook pages were banned from posting verses.  I Pods no longer had Bibles in them.  Just what if this all took place?  Would we have enough of the Word hidden our hearts to keep on the right track with God?  I think we would have a struggle in today’s society and its’ lack of respect for God.  I feel it would be easy to fall into the traps laid before us if we did not have such verses hidden in our heart like Philippians 4:13 and Psalm 46:10 or John 3:16.  How about the 23rd Psalm?  Would we be able to still speak life into others on what we do have hidden in our hearts?  Now don’t perceive this as judging because this is all about me and the lack of focus I have in my reading of the Word.

My point in sharing this devotion today is that I am asking for accountability and thus the reason for starting the Facebook Page:  Hiding the Word in Our Hearts.  It’s not a “read the Bible in a year plan” but more so a way of Christians reading together a certain chapter each week and memorizing one Bible verse per month to increase the Word in our hearts so that if some such disaster were to happen and we no longer had access to our Bibles we could still sustain our Christian walk and be confident in our knowledge of what the Lord is speaking.  We need to stay in tune with God so that when the war begins to get furious, we can walk in peace.  So, in short, who is with me?  I need this accountability and I would like to share this journey with the others in my life who need to also step up their game as far as hiding the Word in their hearts.  If you are ready to read through one, yes just one chapter a week and learn a new verse to have hidden for future reference, then look up Hiding the Word in Our Hearts on Facebook and let’s get started on this journey and begin to uplift each other!