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The Untruth of Ostrich Syndrome

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When life has its’ ups and downs and twists and sometimes drop-offs, where are we looking?  Are we focused on what happened in the past?  Are we gazing upon the disaster right in front of us?  Or are we fixed on Jesus?  For many of us we live staring blankly at the past or try to close our eyes from the messy places we are currently standing in.

For me I used to believe in the untruth of Ostrich Syndrome.  Never heard of it?  Well it’s the syndrome you get when there is so much fear in your life you panic and do the only logical thing you can think of:  bury your head in the sand like an ostrich.

In my first marriage I did a lot of closing my eyes and hoping things would go away or change.  When fear got really bad I just buried my head in the sand because not only could I not SEE the disaster, I couldn’t HEAR it either.  I often got caught up in believing nothing would ever change and that I was stuck in a spin cycle of turmoil and the washing machine was never going to stop.

I ignored bills I could not pay which usually resulted in a garnishment which in turn cut my finances every two weeks for months which caused us to have utilities shut off which drove us to bad eating habits and turned into poor nutrition and that led to sickness…ugh!  Do you see the spin cycle?  If only I had called the collection places instead of hiding and ignoring phone calls.  It’s not like they don’t give you enough chances, but I did not see a way of getting out of the cycle.

So today I was hit in face with a bill.  The amount is not huge BUT it is coming smack dab in the middle of a home remodel.  I have three things to do right now in this moment:

  1.  Do not stick my head in the sand

  2. Do not look at my current financial circumstances

  3. Trust God.  Put my gaze upon the One who is my Provider.

So the question at hand is how did I arrive today to be calm and keep my eyes open?  Wisdom and learning has a lot to do with it.  As I was preparing to speak to a group of women last year I did some research on ostriches and do you know what I discovered?  The don’t actually bury their heads in the sand.  Hmmmm imagine that!  There was a lie I had believed as a truth which meant the fear wasn’t going anywhere and as soon as I lifted my head the disaster would still be there in front of me completely unchanged.

We have to learn how to take life one step at a time with our eyes wide open on Jesus.  We make mistakes small, big and HUGE, however God already knows we will do that.  He already knows He has a plan to help us, we just need to come to a place of trust.  His Word tells us Who He is and it says He is faithful and our Provider, why do we doubt?

We doubt because the author of fear whispers in our ears, “Where is your God now?  This is your fault.  You will never get past this.”  We need to choose to stop listening to the enemy and believing who God really is.  We need to keep our focus on Jesus and stay the course set before us.  Our future has nothing to do with the whisperer of lies but has EVERYTHING to do with our Heavenly Father.

Hebrews 12:1

1 Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us…

Dear Lord,

Today I choose to believe what the Bible says about Who You are.  I choose to stop listening to lies.  I choose today to focus on the good things and not the past.  I thank You in advance for everything you are doing on my behalf.  Thank You Jesus!

Amen

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Yes but No

Psalm 91:1-13

You who sit down in the High God’s presence, spend the night in Shaddai’s shadow, Say this: “God, you’re my refuge. I trust in you and I’m safe!” That’s right—he rescues you from hidden traps, shields you from deadly hazards. His huge outstretched arms protect you— under them you’re perfectly safe; his arms fend off all harm. Fear nothing—not wild wolves in the night, not flying arrows in the day, Not disease that prowls through the darkness, not disaster that erupts at high noon. Even though others succumb all around, drop like flies right and left, no harm will even graze you. You’ll stand untouched, watch it all from a distance, watch the wicked turn into corpses. Yes, because God’s your refuge, the High God your very own home, Evil can’t get close to you, harm can’t get through the door. He ordered his angels to guard you wherever you go. If you stumble, they’ll catch you; their job is to keep you from falling. You’ll walk unharmed among lions and snakes, and kick young lions and serpents from the path.
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Ever been told yes then it turns to no?  Ever been believing for something only to be disappointed when it does not turn out like you expected?  Ever plan for something and then have the rug torn out from under you?  How do you keep trusting in God when these things happen in our lives?  Sometimes we get our hopes so high we plan for things that really are not attainable.
Ever been praying for something and God says no?  This kinda of happened to us today.  We lost all of our tax money to a bill we owed on without warning.  We had already planned to split our taxes in half and made plans for the spending.  I wanted a new camera and to finance the rest of the publishing of my book.  My husband wanted to upgrade our car stereo and fix some other things wrong with it.  In one opening of an envelope all of those dreams seemed deflated.
It’s a good thing God is bigger than our tax refund.  It is no coincidence that we just saw a video on a sermon that said sometimes when God says no, it’s because He has a bigger YES!  I found comfort in this.  I suddenly found peace that God had heard my prayers and my desires and He has something already in the works on our behalf.  We knew this bill was too big to handle and in the small portions we were paying it would taken awhile to get it paid off, so praise be to God for taking care of that debt in a way we did not expect.
I know this seems like such a touchy subject and it is easy to get bitter about losing all that money but we have been so blessed that we know getting bitter is not the answer.  Disappointed a little?  Sure, but we KNOW God is in control and since we gave control of our finances to God we just have to trust in Him.  Doesn’t it say on our money anyways “In God we Trust”?