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….said No One Ever


“That was the best mammogram!,” says no one ever.  Those things are painful and uncomfortable.  Having to be half naked in front of a stranger and all of the weird noises and pinching. I was dreading my appointment this morning when my husband called to tell me to cancel all of my appointments today because the roads were icy and he did not want me out in this 20 degree Michigan weather.  I asked if he was sure because I had a 9 am mammogram appointment that I was ready to cancel and to my dismay he said I should go but to be very careful driving.  And so I went.

How many times have we “ignored”, “set aside”, “put on a back burner” or “rescheduled” what we are suppose to be doing for God? For me…too many to count.  I am a writer. I see things which need to be written and I write my heart.  My goal?  To touch one heart for Jesus.  To make plain that which this fallen world has made complicated.  I have been in this boat before where I know I need to write but I will find every excuse in the world not to accomplish the task before me.  Today I received a push from a total stranger in an uncomfortable situation.

I could have 1,500 people come up to me and be like, “So when is the next book coming out? What’s it about?” and I would have some sappy reply to cover up the fact that I had not even started it.  I can tell them the title and what it’s about but I have no words on paper to prove it.  Recently I have been off work…10 weeks to be exact with the means of resting and writing.  Have I written any words towards a book? Nope. Blogging is at a minimum. I just seem to have no motivation.  I can’t even use the excuse anymore that I don’t have the means to create said book because I now have this beautiful new laptop with the right program to use to write with.

But! Because God loves me, He doesn’t give up.  He keeps pursuing me.  He is my creator and He knows the plans and purposes He has for me and that is to write.  Today the technician who took my “pictures” was Christian and the encouragement from her meant so much to me.  God used a complete stranger to give me ideas and venues for my writing.  He chose to use something I was dreading and rewarded me with His grace.  I left that appointment walking on cloud 9! Why?  Because as I was leaving I told her thanks for the encouragement and her response was, “Thank You!  You were also an encouragement to me today!”

So now I am back on my mission.  If I can touch one person with the words I scribe it is all worth it.  Enough running away from my gifting.  Finished with the lies from the enemy that I am not making a difference. I am done with trying to be a writer and am accepting the words:  I am a writer.

Dear God, It’s me Brenda.  I know that you have instilled in me a purpose.  An avenue of scribing words so that Your people will be able to hear Your heart.  I thank You today for this precious gift You have given to me.  Thank You for pursing me. Thank You for pushing.  I pray now for those who are struggling with their gifting that You would begin to pursue them and show them the same grace You have given to me.  I pray that You would use all of us in some way for Your purposes.  Lord I surrender my gift to You.  Use me. In Jesus Name, AMEN


Joy in Surrender and Addicting!!

Isaiah 61 [Full Chapter]

[ Announce Freedom to All Captives ] The Spirit of God, the Master, is on me because God anointed me. He sent me to preach good news to the poor, heal the heartbroken, Announce freedom to all captives, pardon all prisoners. God sent me to announce the year of his grace— a celebration of God’s destruction of our enemies— and to comfort all who mourn, To care for the needs of all who mourn in Zion, give them bouquets of roses instead of ashes, Messages of joy instead of news of doom, a praising heart instead of a languid spirit. Rename them “Oaks of Righteousness” planted by God to display his glory. They’ll rebuild the old ruins, raise a new city out of the wreckage. They’ll start over on the ruined cities, take the rubble left behind and make it new. You’ll hire outsiders to herd your flocks and foreigners to work your fields, But you’ll have the title “Priests of God,” honored as ministers of our God. You’ll feast on the bounty of nations, you’ll bask in their glory. Because you got a double dose of trouble and more than your share of contempt, Your inheritance in the land will be doubled and your joy go on forever. …


Ever find yourself too happy ya just don’t know how to really act or think?  Sometimes you keep yourself reserved because you don’t want to seem over zealous or prideful.  We don’t want that tag of being overly excited because we want all the attention.  This is how I feel regarding the fact that I just got two books published in one month!  It seems to me though that for some reason others are more excited about knowing a published author than I am being one..hmmmmm

So I have been pondering just this thing today…where is my unrated excitement?  What I am I holding back for?  Where is the joy?  Did I get my answer?…NOPE.  Still waiting to hear from God.  Perhaps He is just patiently  waiting for me to erupt like a volcano, I don’t know.  Now don’t get me wrong I am happy for the books being available and I am astonished at how quickly God moved, yet I seem to have this reservation about myself.

All I know is that I came to this place in my life where every thing is falling into place.  Things are just happening which I cannot explain to the normal world..our finances, our favor…..and to me it comes down to three things:  First we had to believe that this life could happen, second I came to a place where I just thanked God and third, obedience.   I know it sounds simple, but it truly is!

Today, I know this may sound weird but hear me out, today I used the restroom at a local restaurant and the toilet paper holder, WITH A LOCK on it,  flew open and hit my knee.  Didn’t hurt but I took it and pushed it shut so it would not open on someone else.  After the incident I thought nothing of it until the paper towel dispenser at church did the SAME thing!  Hmmmm, now I was asking God what’s up?  Know what He said?  I am opening many doors for you, even locked ones.  Then He said to me, don’t go shutting the ones I open or get discouraged if you are not quite walking through them just yet.

Wow!  What a marvelous God we serve!  So now I will sing!  Now I will shout!  Now I will dance!  Why?  Because my God allowed two of my books to be published in one month!!!  Yes He is faithful and good!

If you would like to order either of my books, they are available on Amazon.com and Kindle.

Right Where I am….

Your life is a journey you must travel with a deep consciousness of God. It cost God plenty to get you out of that dead-end, empty-headed life you grew up in. He paid with Christ’s sacred blood, you know. He died like an unblemished, sacrificial lamb. And this was no afterthought. Even though it has only lately—at the end of the ages—become public knowledge, God always knew he was going to do this for you. It’s because of this sacrificed Messiah, whom God then raised from the dead and glorified, that you trust God, that you know you have a future in God. 1 Peter 1:18-19 MSG


Ever feel like it’s just not worth it to move any further?  You just have this stupid desire to be content with what you have already accomplished and call it good? I am kinda in that boat right now.  I just want to either be successful in what comes next or just stay right here.  I have worked hard to build this blog.  I have written two complete books and just waiting for publication funding to roll right in.  I am working on the third book while I wait….but I am just not sure why I am stuck in this mode of wanting to just not move.

I recently attended a church service and God showed me how many of us sacrifice things.  We extend our arms out in front of us as if we are setting something on a shelf with the intent of gaining easy access to it when we need it. This is how I have been about my writing lately.  I surrender the book publishing over and over and over and over it seems like, yet nothing moves.  Then I pause to reflect on what a pastor once mentioned in a sermon.  When you are stuck you need to go back the last word you got a word from God and start from there.

 Hmmmm…write the third book.  That was the word.  Am I doing that now? Nope!  Keep putting it on the back burner, KNOWING, the other two have gone nowhere so why bother….sigh! Not the idea God has in mind for my future I am sure.  The rest of the vision I saw was that God was asking us to place things we intend to give to Him on the highest shelf possible.  Instead of the offering being right in front of us we need to raise both of our arms in COMPLETE surrender so that we will be less tempted to try to get in back into our own hands.

So what now?  I have two options:  Quit or Write the third book.  It’s always up to us what we want to do because of our free will given to us by God, yet we can never reach our destiny if we don’t listen for  God’s still small voice to guide us along the way.  It is completely up to us if we want to do what He asks of us but I can tell you without the shadow of a doubt that you will stay right where you are if you do not complete the assignments.

So do you feel stuck?  Feeling like it’s not even worth pursuing your dream?  Well I am writing this blog as a pep talk to both of us then…pick up where you left off.  Put your feet in motion to the rhythm of faith and keep pressing forward into the things God has planned for you.  I wonder how many of God’s people give up right before the biggest breakthrough of their lives? Let us not be counted among that number.

Your Gift Opens a Door for Someone Else

1 Corinthians 1:7-9

Just think—you don’t need a thing, you’ve got it all! All God’s gifts are right in front of you as you wait expectantly for our Master Jesus to arrive on the scene for the Finale. And not only that, but God himself is right alongside to keep you steady and on track until things are all wrapped up by Jesus. God, who got you started in this spiritual adventure, shares with us the life of his Son and our Master Jesus. He will never give up on you. Never forget that.
Sometimes we feel as if we have no purpose in life.  We can’t decide when we leave high school what we want to be for the rest of our lives.  There are times when we are just content to work our 9 to 5 jobs and just live day by day without anything changing.  Do you know that each of us has a gift?  We have all been given a special way in which to reach others and change lives?
Once we begin our lives as Christians we take up the cross of Jesus and begin to bear witness of the Gospel and its’ message.  We have been commissioned to share the Good News with everyone we meet and to love one another.  How come we find this so hard to do?  Because some of us have not opened our very own gift.  God loves us to such a degree that He gives us good gifts in which we can use to show others the light of Christ.  Remember we are the light in the darkness of this world.
This week we will dig into the gift and how we use and abuse it.  For me my gift is writing.  I have loved to write since I was in kindergarten and wrote my first poem.  I love stringing words together and now that I am older I am challenged with helping others see Christ through my writing.  I have two books written with a third on the way.  I blog as often as possible, yet I feel that sometimes it does not matter.  Am I doing enough?
The answer from God is yes. My gift is writing, not starting churches or traveling at this point.  The gift God has given to me is writing and He knows I love it.  I am not saying that someday my writing won’t lead me to start a church with my husband or travel the world but for now I need to open my gift and begin to use it.
So, what is your gift?  Have you even opened the box yet?  We are never to young or to old to receive from God.  I guarantee that God will move on His own timing but we have to be willing to at least open the gift.  We have to be willing to take the steps to develop our gift.  We need to come to the understanding that lives can be saved and we have been given a gift in which to do so.  So I challenge you to open your gift and begin to explore the possibilities God has set right before you!