Well, been awhile I know since my last blog and let me tell you ALOT has been happening and I thought I would just take a moment or two to bring us all up to speed. I am getting married as most of you know and there are only 21 days left to do one million two hundred and thirty five things. I find each day something new God wants to show me and I then I intend on blogging, but….well….
Here are some things of encouragement that I have discovered. One: Surrender equals God’s Perfect Will. Take for instance our wedding rings. John prayed for rings and two days later, he was given one..yes GIVEN..real diamonds and everything. Then the ring I was suppose to purchase was sold before I had the funds, I prayed…yup got handed a diamond men’s wedding ring. Two: God knows the plans He has for you. My example for this one, the date. We set a date and everything kept hindering us having it on that date. We surrendered, listened to God and choose the date we heard….once again God’s perfect date. First of all we found out that we became Facebook friends on December 7, 2011 an exact year from our now wedding date of December 7th, 2012.
Three: He always provides even when we have no clue how He is going to do it. After we set the date within a few days we knew it was the right date. John’s close friend had put his engagement up for sale on an online selling location and ended up giving it away in exchange for our photography for the wedding. And icing to that piece is that the young man who needed the ring was a former youth student of mine whom I had been praying for.
Four: He gives us the desires of our hearts. We had decided that we did not want a traditional wedding and we were not under any circumstances going to walk down a center isle. As we are part of the revival here, we had already decided we were having a revival wedding, however the only catch was that we did not have a church we were meeting in. I really had no desire to get married in a flea market building and low and behold, we partnered with a local church which is just beautiful….and no center isle at all.
I could go on with the two million other blessings in this wedding, however I don’t think there are enough words to describe what God is doing in our lives right now. My point in all of this is that when you are walking in right step with God, He provides everything you need right down to the purple paper wedding bells for less than $2. I am honored to be a daughter of the King and in 20 days (its after midnight now) I will be marrying a man who was hand picked by God to be my husband. I have never been loved so realistically ever in my life. John goes to God for everything and only does what He hears from the Father. Our relationship is truly based on the fact that our steps are already ordered and we are just being obedient to His Will.
1 Peter 1:12
They were told that their messages were not for themselves, but for you. And now this GoodNews has been announced to you by those who preached in the power of the Holy Spirit sent from heaven. It is all so wonderful that even the angels are eagerly watching these things happen.
Alrighty! I have always promised to keep my blog real and about matters of the heart. This one might be a little open but here it goes. If you know me at all or are Facebook friends with me you will notice I never really openly smile. Those who know me at work, also know that I do not open mouth smile very often. Well, reason being my front teeth are broken and I am embarrassed to smile. As I spent most of my marriage focused on many other things, not myself I let me go. Now that God has turned my life into a tale of prosper and blessing, I am able to regain what I had lost. I truly feel like a princess!
Some of you know I have been blessed with someone paying for me to get dentures. Someone from my church donated the $5,000 it is costing to get all of the work done and tomorrow I go for the final step of the process. As I was praying last night and thinking on all the things God has done for me, I just began to weep. When God reached down and pulled me from my pit, I never dreamed of all the things He would begin to do in my life. I have been blessed with Godly friends and revivals. Prospects of a new home are just around the corner. I am being restored physically. I have two books waiting to be published and I know God has the provision for those right around the corner.
So many blessings I cannot count them! I cannot pretend to say I know the answers to why God is blessing me, however, for sure it begins with faith. When I began to truly trust in God to take care of my many needs, He started right in. Yup, been low on finances in the last three years, yet I have not gone hungry or without a place to live or a car to drive. I thought I was done at McDonalds and then I was promoted. So many different things in my life that God has just turned into blessings. Even the fact of my husband being in jail is and act of God.
Surrendering it all is the key for me. I just wake up in the morning, talk to God, give Him my day and watch Him work on my behalf. Even today at work when a customer literally YELLED at me at the top of his lungs, I did not retaliate, I just pressed on knowing God had my back. Someone in lobby even stood up for me and that was really awesome. Six months ago I am not sure I would have handled that situation the same. When I surrender my day to God, I just have this peace that passes all understanding and I know that whatever comes my way, God is in it!
So I might not blog for a bit, just depends on how I feel. It is gonna take some getting used to and there might be more pain then when I just had a few teeth pulled. Just know that I have not disappeared, I am just seeking God and keeping busy! Be Blessed!!!
And if anyone gives even a cup of cold water to one of these little ones who is my disciple, truly I tell you, that person will certainly not lose their reward.”
Ever wonder why we get unexpected blessings some times? Just odd things happen in our lives which we may or may not be able to explain, yet they are wonderful blessings when the happen. Take for instance the donation for my dental work. Who just gives $5,000 to someone, not wanting anything in return? I will ever be grateful to whomever donated the funds to help restore me as a person so I can freely smile again. Then the thought occurred to me, what could I have possibly done that warranted me receiving such an awesome blessing? Not sure I could pin point anything specific, but it sure makes one want to keep blessing others in return, not in expecting a blessing, but because we can see how God works it out and that’s the fun part.
Okay, blessing someone with the intentional purpose of receiving a blessing in return is certainly not the right way to go about doing what the Lord asks of us. But how many do something for someone else only to grumble later that they never received anything in return? We need to bless with a humble heart knowing we are pleasing God by doing so. We must be careful so as not to cross that fine line into blessing for a result of some sort. Through the grapevine, still not having a clue who paid for my dental work, I have heard they received some bountiful blessings and God is working in their lives. I can almost say without an ounce of doubt they never intended to receive a “reward” for blessing me, however they understand the simple principal of giving.
Giving is simple when done with the right attitude and it does not always have to be something huge or grand. I bought a Bible for a young boy at a Christian festival this passed summer and the joy I received from his excitement was enough “reward” for me. I do not pretend to know what God has planned out for that boys’ future, but surely placing a Bible in his hands was the start of planting a seed. I have blogged about other blessings I have given and received, but the joy comes in the giving because we can’t always put two and two together and figure out just what our blessing is in the end. I just know that blessing others brings joy to both parties involved and I believe that is the way God intends it to happen. Some times when we bless, we are removing a burden from someone else and that surely makes it all worth it.
Sometimes I just find little things that I know would make someone smile, that’s a blessing. Sometimes it is paying for the rest of an order when someone does not have enough money at the check out register. I did that this Christmas season and the lady hugged me, that was pretty awesome. Today I blessed someone by just listening to them and giving them a little of my time. I was out taking pictures of a recent snow storm and he just happened to stop to talk. Sure my toes were frozen but I knew he needed to talk a bit and he shared his love of wildlife and photography. Now I may never see this person again in my life, but giving someone a little of your time can mean so much.
There are so many ways to bless others in this crazy, busy world. God makes it very clear that even if we just give a cup of cold water to someone, He sees it as blessing. That makes me excited and want to give. God has commanded us to love one another and what better way to show love then to bless? Even just complimenting someone is a blessing, it surely will make them smile and may change their attitude for the rest of the day. There are so many endless possibilities for the ways you can bless someone else. Take for instance, it is winter time and some areas get snow, brush someones car off or shovel some random driveway. Just do something from your heart with the intention of blessing them and making their day a little brighter.
I can assure you the more you bless the more blessed you will be. The Father is watching and He sees and surely smiles when joy bursts out because a blessing was just given and received with no further motives. I challenge us all in 2012 to increase our blessings to others. You don’t need tons of money or time. Choose the simple things and as you grow more accustom to blessing others, allow God to really begin to use you. Nothing is impossible for God and you are a carrier of His presence, therefore you can do all things through Christ who gives you strength. Be Blessed by going and blessing others around you.
And without question, the person who has the power to give a blessing is greater than the one who is blessed.
Okay, this was a lesson I began to learn back during revival back in October of 2010, to be blessed you must bless. Sounds kinda strange in our gimme, gimme world of today. So many times we want the pleasures of the world and loose focus on what God has in store for us already. He says if we bless someone, our blessing is even greater, hmmm, does not quite make sense, but sometimes we just cannot figure God out! If I give to someone else, I will receive a greater reward, I did not quite get this until just recently.
As I have begun to dig myself out from a financial mess, I feel as though I am just now to the point where I can bless others with things they need. I can freely help someone out at the cash register when they are short on cash, or give a little extra to a special guest at church. I try to get little gifts here or there to make someones day a little better. These are just some little things I do to make others a bit happier in their circumstances, nothing did I plan to gain in return, just going where God was leading me.
During my marriage, I let myself go physically. In the process, my teeth have suffered. I have bad teeth to begin with and coupled with not taking care of them has brought me to where I am now with broken front teeth and several missing ones on the top. I have gone through the repair of all the bottom ones, but now I am facing dentures. Well, like I said, just coming out of a financial mess, I have no money to get the dental work done. My former boss, who was like a dad to me, was helping me pay to get the dental work done and I was making arrangements with his dentist and things were going well. Sadly this man died of a massive heart attack in April and I have done nothing further to get my teeth repaired.
I was waiting to have $900 saved up to get a root canal on a bottom tooth and then $90 to get evaluated for top teeth removal for dentures. All of this just came to a halt until a few weeks ago when the church secretary asked me if I had an estimate for my teeth and I explained to her the rough estimate was $5,000. She giggled at me and I was bewildered until she began to explain to me that a couple from church who knew my story wanted to help out and this was the exact amount the Lord had laid upon their hearts to give. How awesome is our God? This came two weeks after I cried out to God because I did not know what to do. I feel God is pushing me towards public speaking as I am nearing the completion of my book, Addicted to An Addict and I explained to Him, not until my teeth are fixed will I get in front of people and talk.
So here is God showing up and yes I have had two opportunities already to talk in front of a crowd, broken teeth and all! I truly believe God has been seeing me as I try to give where I can. Matter of fact, He probably was surprised when someone stole the $600 bike I had bought for $35 and I did not get angry instead I just prayed the person who took it much happiness with their new bike. We need to get into the mindset that these things, even money, does not belong to us, it is Gods’. As we learn to just give what we get and stop muttering about it, it opens the door for God to bless us abundantly. The Bible even says we get blessed when someone does not receive when we bless them. God desires to bless us, but we have to be willing to give.
We need to be mindful that if we bless, we too will be blessed. It’s almost like God saying the more you take care of His people, the MORE He will take care of you. Living out the Christian life is not always simple. People just do not understand some of the things we do, but if they would just surrender some things to God themselves they would begin to see how God works. I will be eternally grateful to those who are blessing me with dentures and I will be excited to see what God has in store for them. What it all boils down to is listening to God and going where He leads. He know who needs what and He uses us to demonstrate His love. Who is God asking you to bless?
Philippians 4:6 Do not fret or have any anxiety about anything, but in every circumstance and in everything, by prayer and petition ( definite requests), with thanksgiving, continue to make your wants known to God.
How many times have we read that verse and then just shrugged it off feeling like God was talking to someone else? Why do we find ourselves in such deep sorrow that we cannot acknowledge that God really does love us and He wants to bless us? How is it possible we can believe Jesus died on the cross for us, yet we don’t ask for anything in faith that we really want because we feel undeserving of it? When I was in the middle of my marriage and we were fighting to keep our heads above water I was looking at the ground and seeing the disaster I was in when I should have been looking to heaven for help!
Put your hand in front of your face about an arms length away. What do you see? Your hand! If you want to see what is on the other side you have to move it away, but it is still there. If you want to look to either side you have to bend your body in uncomfortable positions to see around it. Now let us imagine for a moment that your hand is your battle. We cannot see through it. Without moving it out of the way we can not go around it. Because it is attached to you it goes before you where ever you travel. Why would we want to live like that, always focusing on the pain right in front of us? Constantly reminding us of what we have to face every day?
Okay, now if we take that hand away and join it with the other and offer them in surrender to God, our gave is lifted upwards and our focus is taken off from our hands, our battle. We now can focus on something else and begin to regain sight of what we really should be focused on, God’s provision. When our eyes are free to gaze upon our loving Father, things become clear. We suddenly can hear His voice. We can begin to trust Him for the things we need in our lives. God wants to step in and save us from our battle, but we have to be willing to give up the fight. We have to finally get so desperate we just throw our hands into the air in total surrender, claiming no more, the battle as our own.
In the past few months I have been trying to figure out why I am so happy, even though to the outside world I should be going slightly insane. People say I should divorce and start a new life with someone else. Financially things are still not in perfect order and some say I should file for bankruptcy. I am refusing to go down the worldly road when God has taken me by the hand and lead me a path of trust and blessing. Why would I not listen to God and move in a direction I know He does not desire for me? If we take things to God in prayer and make our requests known to Him, then and only then can He begin to move on our behalf!
I am choosing to stay near God and away from worldly desires and distractions. I am focusing on becoming the vessel God needs me to be. Sometimes He wants me to do crazy things, but I see the vision and press on for completion of the task and He just keeps blessing me! I told my friend this morning I was going to buy one of those necklaces that says “Spoiled Princess” because that’s how I feel some times. God loves me. God loves you. Anyone can receive the blessings they desire if they just lay down their lives and start renewing their RIGHT relationship with God. Not just a superficial love, but a deep, trusting love that nothing can break through! Start today to believe in that verse above, maybe reread the prayer of Jabez and start today working towards seeking God for all things in your life!