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From Drops to Floods

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But me he caught—reached all the way from sky to sea; he pulled me out Of that ocean of hate, that enemy chaos, the void in which I was drowning. They hit me when I was down, but God stuck by me. He stood me up on a wide-open field; I stood there saved—surprised to be loved!
Man, I missed the mark again.  That did not turn out like I wanted it to.  I can’t do anything right.  I failed again. Everyone is going to be mad at me now.
Nobody likes me.  Nobody wants me.  Nobody want to hang out with me.  Nobody wants to spend time with me because _________________________.  (fill in the blank)  Everybody hates me, what good am I?
I feel like we think  plagues were just a thing of the past in Old Testament times.

BUT, I feel the devil uses counterfeit plagues to keep us in fear and bondage in our minds.  So many of us struggle everyday with our minds.  We never think we measure up to the standards of God or man.  We feel like no matter how hard we try nothing seems to turn out right and we think people are mad at us INCLUDING God Himself.

Ugh!  Stupid devil.  I am so tired of people living in fear of failure.  It causes so much stress and anxiety to good people.  God does not intend for us to spend one minute or even one second thinking that He is mad at us.  He gave up His only Son to die on a cross which took care of all of that.  Now He only sees us through His Son.

We are good enough.  We are worthy of love.  We are loved by God.  

If we could only wrap our heads around this every waking moment of the day we could live in a river of peace so deep and wide nothing much else would matter.  If we messed up at work we would just forgive ourselves and float down the river on our inflatable mattress without a care in the world.  If we felt like we disappointed someone we would just ask for forgiveness and continue on down the river, eyes on Jesus because in the end He is all that matters.

When those drops of doubt start invading out minds, its really hard to stop them because the devil will just keep bringing up your past and pretty soon you find yourself in a flood of disaster barely holding your life together.  Everything seems dark (plague of darkness).  Everything seems to be too noisy (plague of frogs).  Things seem to be so irritating (plague of lice, boils & locusts).  We feel like we have lost everything (plague of livestock and firstborn).  And nothing we seem to do makes us feel any better almost as if we have poisoned ourselves (plague of water into blood).

Do you see how twisted the devil has made or minds?  What a mess we seem to be…YET..that’s not how God sees us.  Let me show you how God sees us:

We are Loved.

We are Valuable.

We are wanted.

We are NOT rejected.

We are Blameless.

We are the Righteousness of God.

We are Worthy.

We are Friends of God.

We are God’s living stones.

We are Children of God.

This is how we should be floating down that river of peace.  Knowing who we are in Christ!  Spend some time today and begin to believe who you are in Christ.  Below are  90 I am statements, read through them  and begin to BELIEVE in who you are to God.

I am blameless and free from accusation. (Colossians 1:22) Christ Himself is in me. (Colossians 1:27) I am firmly rooted in Christ and am now being built up in Him. (Col. 2:7) I have been made complete in Christ. (Colossians 2:10) I have been spiritually circumcised. My old unregenerate nature has been removed. (Colossians 2:11) I have been buried, raised, and made alive with Christ. (Colossians 2:12,13) I died with Christ and I have been raised up with Christ. My life is now hidden With Christ in God. Christ is now my life. (Colossians 1:1-4) I am an expression of the life of Christ because He is my life. (Colossians 3:4) I am chosen of God, holy and dearly loved. (Col. 3:12; 1 Thessalonians 1:4) I am a son of light and not of darkness. (1 Thessalonians 5:5) I have been given a spirit of power, love, and self-discipline. (2 Timothy 1:7) I have been saved and set apart according to God’s doing. (2 Timothy 1:9; Titus 3:5) Because I am sanctified and am one with the Sanctifier, He is not ashamed to call me brother. (Hebrews 2:11) I am a holy partaker of a heavenly calling. (Hebrews 3:1) I have the right to come boldly before the throne of God to find mercy and grace in a time of need. (Hebrews4:16) I have been born again. (1 Peter 1:23) I am one of God’s living stones, being built up in Christ as a spiritual house. (1 Peter 2:5) I am a member of a chosen race, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a People for God’s own possession. (1 Peter 2:9,10) I am an alien and stranger to this world in which I temporarily live. (1 Peter 2:11) I am an enemy of the devil. (1 Peter 2:11) I have been given exceedingly great and precious promises by God by Which I am a partaker of God’s divine nature. (2 Peter 1:4) I am forgiven on the account of Jesus’ name. (1 John 2:12) I am anointed by God. (1 John 2:27) I am a child of God and I will resemble Christ when He returns. (1 John 3:1,2) I am loved. (1 John 4:10) I am like Christ. (1 John 4:10) I have life. (1 John 5:12) I am born of God, and the evil one…the devil…cannot touch me. (1 John 5:`8) I have been redeemed. (Revelation 5:9) Over 90 Statements from Scripture Describing Who I Am In Christ My Nature In Christ I have been healed. (Isaiah 53:5) I am the salt of the earth. (Matthew 5:13) I am the light of the world. (Matthew 5:14) I am commissioned to make disciples. (Matthew 28:19,20) I am a child of God. (John 1:12) I have eternal life. (John 10:27) I have been given peace. (John 14:27) I am part of the true vine, a channel of Christ’s life. (John 15:1,5) I am clean. (John 15:3) I am Christ’s friend. (John 15:15) I am chosen and appointed by Christ to bear His fruit. (John 15:16) I have been given glory. (John 17:22) I have been justified…completely forgiven and made righteous. (Romans 5:1) I died with Christ and died to the power of sin’s rule over my life. (Romans 6:1-6) I am a slave of righteousness. (Romans 6:18) I am free from sin and enslaved to God. (Romans 6:22) I am free forever from condemnation. (Romans 8:1) I am a son of God; God is spiritually my Father. (Romans 8:14, 15 Galatians 3:26; 4:6) I am a joint heir with Christ, sharing His inheritance with Him (Romans 8:17) I am more than a conqueror through Christ, who loves me. (Romans 8:37) I have faith. (Romans 12:3) I have been sanctified and called to holiness. (1 Corinthians 1:2) I have been given grace in Christ Jesus. (1Corinthians 1:4) I have been placed into Christ, by God’s doing. (1 Corinthians 1:30) I have received the Spirit of God into my life that I might know the things feely given to me by God. (1 Corinthians 2:12) I have been given the mind of Christ. (1 Corinthians 2:16) I am a temple…a dwelling place…of God. His Spirit and His life dwell in me. (1 Corinthians 3:16; 6:19) I am united to the Lord and am one spirit with Him. (1 Corinthians 6:17) I am bought with a price; I am not my own; I belong to God. (1 Corinthians 6:19,20; 7:23) I am called. (1 Corinthians 7:17) I am a member of Christ’s Body. (1 Corinthians 12:27; Ephesians 5:30) I am victorious through Jesus Christ. (1 Corinthians 15:57) I have been established, anointed and sealed by God in Christ, and I have been given to the Holy Spirit as a pledge guaranteeing my inheritance to come. (2 Corinthians 1:21; Ephesians 1:13,14) I am led by God in triumphal procession. (2 Corinthians 2:14) I am to God the fragrance of Christ among those who are being saved and those who are perishing. (2 Corinthians 2:15) I am being changed into the likeness of Christ. (2 Corinthians 3:18 Since I have died, I no longer live for myself, but for Christ. (2 Corinthians 5:14,15) I am a new creation. (2 Corinthians 5:17) I am reconciled to God and am a minister of reconciliation. (2 Corinthians 5:18,19) I have been made righteous. (2 Corinthians 5:21) I am given strength in exchange for weakness. (2 Corinthians 12:10) I have been crucified with Christ and it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me. The life I am now living is Christ’s life. (Galatians 2:20) I am a son of God and one in Christ. (Galatians 3:26, 28) I am Abraham’s seed…an heir of the promise. (Galatians 3:29) I am an heir of God since I am a son of God. (Galatians 4:6,7) I am a saint. (Ephesians 1:1; ! Corinthians 1:2; Philippians 1:1; Colossians 1:2) I have been blessed with every spiritual blessing. (Ephesians 1:3) I was chosen in Christ before the foundation of the world to be holy and am without blame before Him. (Ephesians 1:4) I was predestined…determined by God…to be adopted as God’s son. (Ephesians 1:5) I have been sealed with the Holy Spirit. (Ephesians 1:13) I have been redeemed and forgiven, and I am a recipient of His lavish grace. I have been made alive together with Christ. (Ephesians 2:5) I have been raised up and seated with Christ in heaven. (Ephesians 2:6) I am God’s workmanship…His handiwork…born anew in Christ to do His work. (Ephesians 2:10) I have direct access to God through the Spirit. (Ephesians 2:18) I am a fellow citizen with the rest of God’s family. (Ephesians 2:19) I may approach God with boldness, freedom, and confidence. (Eph. 3:12) I am righteous and holy. (Ephesians 2:24) I am a citizen of heaven, seated in heaven right now. (Philippians 3:20 Ephesians 2:6) I am capable. (Philippians 4:13) I have been rescued from the domain of Satan’s rule and transferred to the kingdom of Christ. (Colossians 1:13) I have been redeemed and forgiven of all my sins. The debt against me has been cancelled. (Colossians 1:14)

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Darkness is a Way to Life

At noon the sky became extremely dark. The darkness lasted three hours. At three o’clock, Jesus groaned out of the depths, crying loudly, “Eloi, Eloi, lama sabachthani?” which means, “My God, my God, why have you abandoned me?”
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When Jesus died on a cross to save mankind, there was three hours of darkness.  Three hours may not have seemed like a large span of time but do you realize all of the transformation which took place in three short hours?  Sometimes the evidence of darkness is the very thing we need in our lives.  Why?  Because in those darkened times we begin to search for the Light.
Why do we not believe that we are worth anything sometimes?  Why are we bogged down with statements such as these:  I am not good enough.  I will never amount to anything.  I can’t do anything right.  I am such a failure at life.    These words haunt millions of people everyday and it’s time we shed some Light on the subject.
Like the caterpillar we spend the beginning of our lives eating up all of the worlds media and what it says about people.  Media segregates people and puts them into groups according to what they see on the outside: black, while, Indian, mothers, fathers, children, work-a-holics, homeless, over-achievers…the lists are endless.  But in reality we are all unique on the inside.  Our opinions matter not because of what race we are or what part of society we belong to, but because each of us have value.
Where did we get so off course with our own identities?  So many of us wander around never knowing who we are.  We just keep eating and eating all of what the world has to offer because we are afraid that if we change we won’t be accepted anymore.  When in reality, we should be willing to accept that like the caterpillar we need to go through a transformation process.  We need to accept that at some point we have to pull away from the world and discover who God thinks we are.  We need to go into our cocoon process to discover this.  We have to be wiling to surrender what we think is life to be held in darkness for a moment so that we may emerge as the person God designed us to be.
If we never go through with the cocoon process we will always believe what the world says about us.  We will no longer have a desire to be all that we can be.  In fact, we will just continue to go with the flow with no regard for ourselves.
………to be continued

A Tiny Key

Jesus said, “Today is salvation day in this home! Here he is: Zacchaeus, son of Abraham! For the Son of Man came to find and restore the lost.”
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I cannot pretend to understand the love between a father and son, as I am a mother, however I can comprehend love.  It would stand to reason that when a father sees his son for the first time it brings upon the man a flood of emotions.  Suddenly here is this child dependent upon him for love, attention and guidance as he grows up.  Maybe for some it seems like the most impossible task, only because of how they view who they are.  All I know is that a father’s love is not only needed but it is strong desire in each of as we learn and grow into the things of this world and its relationships.
Tragedy can strike any time.  Separations happen.  Divorce is ugly.  Love can be tainted.  Relationships can be torn.  Life can throw a multitude of failures at us.  Yet, we push through.  We survive the jungle of lies and traps as we grow closer into a relationship with God.  For those who have been raised without a father in their lives, no matter the circumstances, they may have a distorted picture of who God really is. Depending on the picture our fathers painted in our lives, we may see God as angry or distant or too busy or unloving or uncaring or just not there.  Some may feel abandoned or unwanted.  Others may feel rejected and misunderstood.  There is a multitude of different ways to see God, and many of the perceptions of the broken among us is wrong.
Today, right before my eyes I witnessed God in His most elaborate form, fatherly love.  My husband crossed a bridge to a whole new level of God in the matter of minutes.  Being reunited with his father after several years of absence and false emotions, I saw the love a father has for his son brimming in the eyes of a very broken man.  I do not have all the details of the past, but today was what was relevant.  In a moment of pure forgiveness, God melted the hearts of two men and has begun a restoration in them both.  For my husband it was seeing God in a whole new light as a loving, caring Father who has hopes and dreams for His beloved children.  For John’s dad, hope was restored,along with a good dose of acceptance.
Healing has begun.  In just one moment of time, forgiveness, a tiny key, opened a doorway to new love.  A doorway down a path of restoration and new revelation.  Our God is a God of restoration.  I do not have enough words to describe the restoration process in my life, let alone what He is doing in my husbands’ life.  I encourage you to spend some time with God and seek Him and His love.  Let Him reveal Himself to you as the loving Father that He is.  If you think God is mad at you for your failures, you are wrong.  If you think He can’t possible love you, you have a misconception about Him.  If you think you have to fix everything in your life before you can return to Him, the devil has you deceived.  Choose right now to see Him in a different light.  Let go of the hurt.  Forgive yourself.  See Him for the love He has for you.  It’s not too late.  He is waiting for you.

Treasurable Love

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Today my life is good.  The heart ache is gone and has been replaced with pure, treasurable love.  My life once again has purpose and meaning.  I finally feel like I have been placed on the right path which will propel me into my destiny.  Life has not always been easy and even now there are steps I still am hesitant to take.  I have come to this place where I trust God and I go where He says to go.  Like Jesus mirrored in His ministry, he only did what He saw the Father doing, anything else would have been man’s doing,

How did I get from point A to point B without losing myself?  I am not sure except there came this one day when my life was crashing all around me and I chose to stop running.  It’s hard to wrap my mind around some of the things God calls us to do, and often they make absolutely no sense to the human thought process, yet I know beyond the shadow of a doubt it’s the way of God working in my life.

What caused me to write today about treasure? My husband.  He left yesterday for a 2 day road trip.  For most married couples that is no big deal, in fact often welcomed.  Not me.  Within the hour of him leaving I felt a loss.  Not that I can’t be without him, I didn’t WANT to be without him.  My husband is not what I asked for at all.  I really had no choice when he dropped onto the radar of my life.  For you see, I had this in-depth conversation with God in which I clearly stated that I did not want another man in my life after my divorce.  Sometimes I am glad God does not listen to our pleas only because He has something so much better to offer us.

When John came in to my life I was broken.  My heart had been shattered into a bazillion pieces and I had no desire to put them back together or be loved again, BUT God softened my heart.  He renewed my thinking.  As He did this, John became a true treasure in my life.  The more I tried to say I did not deserve his love, the more God moved.  Now, I would not trade my husband for anything in the world because I know how much he means to me and I know beyond the shadow of a doubt this is God’s plan for my life.

So what is your treasure?  Is there something God has given to you that perhaps you did not understand?  I encourage you to seek God for what your treausrable love is.  Sometimes His ways do not make sense to us, but He is our loving Father and He desires to give us the best of everything.  My best gift was love.  The love of my children.  The love of my husband.  The love of dear friends.  And most importantly the love of God which He has poured into my life even in the moments where I felt less than deserving of anything.  Be still right now and KNOW that God is at work on your behalf and He will never leave you or forsake you.

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More Icing

“Believe me: I am in my Father and my Father is in me. If you can’t believe that, believe what you see—these works. The person who trusts me will not only do what I’m doing but even greater things, because I, on my way to the Father, am giving you the same work to do that I’ve been doing. You can count on it. From now on, whatever you request along the lines of who I am and what I am doing, I’ll do it. That’s how the Father will be seen for who he is in the Son. I mean it. Whatever you request in this way, I’ll do.
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Did you know that God’s agendas are never ours?  Do realize that when God has something planned it’s almost completely opposite than we expect?  If I have to say it a million times even to myself then I will, “God has it planned out already.  Believe in Jeremiah 29:11 and begin to ask God for the next step rather than trying so hard to figure out what to do next.”
So often we have ourselves so wrapped up in the “what do we do next” mode that we miss what God has for us already.  God has a perfect plan and purpose for our lives and if He just opened up the book and showed it to us we would run so fast in the other direction we would be a distant shadow of what God intended for us. If only we would stand still and listen to that still small voice directing us, we could stop trying so hard.
Just today I caught myself doing this.  Why am I trying so hard to make sense of my job or my dance group or what to do with my aging dad?  All I need to do is crawl into my prayer closet and curl up in Daddy’s lap.  What do I do instead?  Come up with grandeous ideas and things to do to get God to work in my life.  I sometimes just shake my head at myself.  It’s like  I can blog all these great things that God can do, yet I don’t apply it to my life.  It’s frustrating sometimes because I know that I know that I know that I KNOW it’s as easy as a simple prayer, “God…What’s next on the agenda?”
I think I shared that when I started this dance group I argued with God.  “When will I have time?  No one is going to show up.”  The Devil tried to get me to quit.  Next I injured my back and missed a practice.  THEN, I was healed on Sunday and my back is better than new.  So tonight when we were practicing the pastor came to us with a proposal and in that tiny moment of time I knew God had something so big in mind for our little group that it would be almost surreal.  The funny part in all of this is that it’s not about our group.  It’s not about our insecurities.  It’s not about performing.  It is all about advancing His Kingdom.
I am excited to see what God is up to.  We are about to step into something we never saw coming.  My spirit is excited to experience this next adventure with God.  I know that I will not be able to figure out the steps on my own and I will need to seek Him more strongly than ever before.  I will need to be quiet and stand still even when I want to run ahead.  It is His plan, not mine.  I challenge each of us this week to stop trying to frost our own cake and allow God to cover it with so much icing we can’t move!  Surrender is the word.  Not moving is the game.  Peace is the prize.

Is Your Receiver Broken?

Receive and experience the amazing grace of the Master, Jesus Christ, deep, deep within yourselves.
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Do you find it hard sometimes to accept love?  Maybe even its’ hard to take in a compliment.  Mainly this stems from our own low esteem or unbelief in ourselves.  I know myself I just have a really hard time receiving things.  Sometimes it comes from not believing in myself but often it comes from just not want to believe the statements are true.
My husband is a prime example of my broken ability to receive.  He will see me first thing in the morning with my hair in every direction, no make-up and probably not the best  breath and say to me, “You are so beautiful.”  I will just groan and roll over in the other direction. He will try again later and I just shrug it off.
When we first got together we both had a issue receiving love.  We were really good at giving love but when it came to receiving we were broke.  We both came from unrealistic relationships.  We had both been very hurt by love itself.  Neither one of us understood why God would put such broken people in the same relationship.
As time has gone by we have learned to receive each others love.  As we have begun to heal and grow together we have a reception ability to love.  I think for awhile we just did not trust this to be real.
Today I am working on accepting his compliments and he is working on receiving my love to a greater depth.  God will heal anyone’s broken receiver if we just allow Him into the brokenness.  Where we get stuck is that we think we have to fix ourselves but we don’t.  God will pour in His grace until all the broken pieces are mended.  He will continue to love us until we believe in love again.

Total Trust

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But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength.They will soar high on wings like eagles.They will run and not grow weary.They will walk and not faint.

TRUST

1.reliance on the integrity, strength, ability, surety, etc., of a person or thing; confidence.
2.confident expectation of something; hope.
3.confidence in the certainty of future payment for property or goods received; credit: to sell merchandise on trust.
4.a person on whom or thing on which one relies: God is my trust.
What does it really mean to trust in the Lord?  How do we know from day to day our needs will be met?  Do you struggle with making sense of storms in your life?  Can you truly say you trust God?  I know, tough questions, yet the answer is so simple: YES God is in control and asking about trust when it comes to God should be a no brainer, but the flesh in all of us sees the world and have our doubts.  A few years back I would have to honestly say, my trust in the Lord was weak, sure I trusted Him as in the first defintion…I relied on Him and then the second I had hope and I also knew I had a place in Heaven as the third one indicates.  However, that last one, well, I did more relying on me, not God for awhile. What are we afraid of?
I think I was afraid of letting go because I was the one who had gotten myself into the mess I was in and why would God want to just pull me out if I had not learned my lesson? Well, in reality the lesson was two-fold.  First, I needed to pinch myself and see that I was flesh and capable of making mistakes which meant I needed some forgiveness of myself.  Secondly I needed to learn just how much God really loved me and if He went back to get the one lost sheep, surely He was looking for me.  At the end of my 18 years of wandering around in the desert, I was becoming desperate and in that time of desperation, I needed to trust in God or things may have just stayed as they were.  Some are led to wonder why God would leave me in such a situation for so long but it was not God being unfaithful, it was me being unwilling to trust.
Having faith is the first step to trust.  If you have no faith in God to do the things in your life which need to be dealt with, how can there be trust?  Hope in God is the key.  Faith is Hope and Hope is believing in the unseen, God.  We some how have to get from point A, worldy principles, to point B, complete trust in God without any hesitation.  Take for instance my situation with my husband, God was there the entire time waiting for me to trust Him enough to take me out of the disaster I was in.  Nope, I refused to let Him take care of me for some odd reason and for 18 years I wandered in the desert holding on to life and not letting God be in control.  I did not trust God enough to let go, I thought I had all the answers.
In recent times I am taking less time to realize the need for trusting God in all situations.  As I am letting go and trusting in Him, God is moving faster than ever in my life.  I truly can say I trust God with all that I am now.  He moves in me.  He directs me daily.  He corrects me when needed.  I trust Him now for everything.  He is providing a way for me to have my teeth fixed when I saw no way, yet once I laid it down before Him, an answer arose.  I trust the Lord will do the same exact thing about finding me a new home to live in.  It states also in the Bible that God gives us the desires of our hearts and I am just waiting to see what God will do next.
I encourage you to examine the word trust and apply it wisely to your own lives.  He is waiting for that complete trust in Him so He can actively work in your life.  Trust and obey are the two simple things God asks of us.  Trust Him first in the little things if you are a bit nervous to let things go, but I promise you within a very short period of time, you will have total trust in God, your Provider.