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1 in 1,000 in Whose Ratings?

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Just recently I have been through some medical procedures such as a partial hysterectomy with the removal of a fibroid, an upper GI and two (yes 2) back to back colonoscopies.  I will start this blog with stating I am fine now.  God is healing my body so medical procedures is not the basis  of this blog.  The purpose of this blog is to show you the faithfulness of God and His continued pursuit of us.  I have been debating on where to start this story so I guess I will begin at the beginning.  I will apologize now that this may be a longer blog than most only because God did so many things in 96 hours I don’t want to leave out any details.

My medical issues started about 5 years ago and I have been to several doctors and tried several things to find solutions to the symptoms occurring in my body.  It has been an interesting journey to say the least but it led me to a miracle of a 4 day weekend which I will not soon forget.

In March it was decided I would see a gynecologist and a GI doctor to get to the bottom of my extremely low iron level which was discovered in February.  The result of these two appointments was a hysterectomy, an upper scope and a colonoscopy.

Now this is a key to my whole story.  As I sat in the GI office I said to God, I really do not wish to have a colonoscopy and I CLEARLY heard Him say in my spirit, “You will be having a colonoscopy.”  Was I happy with that plan? Nope.  Was I going to go through with it? Yup.  If I have learned anything in 48 years of living it is to listen to God the first time and be at peace because He knows every detail of my life.

Hysterectomy was a huge success which cleared up so many issues and the upper GI showed no signs of bleeding which would cause low iron. Only thing left on the list was the dreaded colonoscopy and this is where the story really begins. (yes there are some gory details but all medical I promise) And just for the record I tried getting out of having the colonoscopy done but the Lord quickly reminded me of our earlier conversation.

I will do this day by day so as not to miss anything.  Keep in mind as you read the rest of this blog:  It was never about me.  It was always about what God wanted to do through me and my obedience.

THURSDAY:

2:30 pm Arrive at the hospital after 2 days of liquid diet and prepping for the colonoscopy.  I was not nervous because I knew God was in it.  Happy I had lost 5 pounds in two weeks.  Laughter broke out among the nurses and doctor as I was being prepped with the IV and such, so I knew God was there.

3:45 pm Surgery was over.  Doctor removed 4 polyps and explained it was a good thing I came in now rather than at age 50 as they could have grown quite large in 2 years.  (At this moment I was thinking this was the reason I heard God say I was going to have the colonoscopy.)  Doctor said there may be some bleeding at first only because of the removal of the polyps but nothing to be concerned about.

4:30 pm I was home and resting.  Ate dinner at 8:30 pm.  First bowel movement and there was blood.  I dismissed it as I figured it was to be expected.  Went to bed!  Crossed colonoscopy off my not-bucket list and looked forward to returning to work in the morning.

FRIDAY:  

6:10 am  Went to the bathroom and it was mainly blood.  Still no panic.  Went back to bed only to need to go two more times with significant blood.  Read through my paperwork and it said if there is more than a tablespoon of bleeding call the doctor.  Woke my husband up and explained the situation.

7:00 am Emergency room visit.  45 minutes later it was decided I would be admitted to the hospital with another colonoscopy to be done on Saturday.  Nurse proceeded to add a second IV port in my hand just in case I needed a transfusion and I was informed I would have blood drawn every 6 hours to check my levels. (UGH  I had needles)  At this moment I am not sure what I was thinking, however, this peace came over me as I made the realization if God said I was going to have a colonoscopy then He KNEW this would happen and there is a reason for it.  Perhaps something was missed.

11 am to 6 pm  Continual trips to the bathroom.  Every time I tried to drink water or chicken broth or eat jello it would just go right through me.  I stopped eating at 1 pm trusting the nurse when she said I would be fine with just the IV.

Got to share with the nurse a bit about John and I’s testimony.  Shared my personal struggles with her to which she opened up and shared as well.  For a moment there I thought I was there for her but God had MUCH bigger plans than just one person.

So to set the scene where it stopped being about me, after all I am in the palm of God’s hand and I trust He knows what He is doing.  I am in a room with another lady.  Her curtain was pulled all the way around her bed.  She was coughing continuously.  I felt bad for her and this is where compassion had to become the path I would choose.

6:45 pm  Start drinking the stuff for the colonoscopy prep.  Starts working almost immediately and I can no longer handle the IV and get to the bathroom in time so I am reduced to using the commode and it’s pretty much where I sat for the next 3-4 hours.  I kept trying to move farther and farther away from the curtain so as to be a bit hidden.

7 pm  My roommate’s family comes to visit her for a little while.  I over hear the conversations and the final conversation she had with her husband before he left for the night was that she thought she was dying.  His response was “Please don’t say that, you are scaring me.”  He stayed a little while longer watching televison with her and then left.

8:30 pm  My husband comes up to say goodnight and felt strongly compelled to pray for my roommate.  Somehow he had met her parents on his way up to see me and he felt God was asking him to pray.  As he was praying with her I prayed too.  I thought I heard her say, “You are so kind”  but later I found out she said, “You are just in time.”

9:30 pm – 10:30 pm  I can’t really explain what happened next except there was an atmosphere shift.  Things just felt eerie.  As the cleaning out process was raging through my body I was unable to move so I began to text my husband.  We prayed for strongholds to be broken and for the comforter to come.  We prayed for ministering angels to come as well.  Things started to wind down and peace came.

10:30 pm  Lights out!  Okay this is the part of the story when I knew this whole ordeal was about compassion.  This was my chance to pass a test concerning bitterness and selfishness.  Now remember, I knew God was in this and medically I would be okay so obviously this was not about my health completely.  At 10:30 my roommate got up and asked the nurse in the hallway if there was a “Lights Out” time to which the nurse said no and then proceeded to ask me if I would mind turning my light off.

Ummmmm…WHAT?  Here is where the offense and bitterness could have really taken hold.  I am immobile at the moment, yes, however, you really want me to sit in the dark and continue this cleaning out process?  I felt that check in my spirit and told the nurse she could shut off the light.

In that very moment I knew that my suffering was temporary and that I was going to be okay, I did not know that for sure for her.  Compassion arose as I put myself in her shoes.  She had been sick since January and awaiting test results concerning her liver and kidneys…I knew my outcome would be favorable..she did not.

10:45 pm “Do you mind if I shut the door?,” she asks through the curtain.  Sigh!  At least I had the light from the hallway and now if she shut the door I was reduced to the light under the bed and a security light.  My reply, “Nope, I don’t mind at all.”

11:00 pm  Restlessness.  Snoring.  Tapping.  More and more coughing.  I texted my husband and prayed some more.  Felt like we were battling for her.  She used the restroom and then after what seemed a long time she returned to bed and took her last few breaths.

11:30 pm Dead silence and then a whirlwind of activity arose in the room.  Lights were flipped on.  Code blue was called.  They began CPR and were trying their best to bring her back.  As I sat there on the edge of the bed (my cleansing was just about over it seemed)  I overhear a nurse say that they needed to get me out of the room.

Here is yet another chance for offense.  My phone was almost dead.  My charger was in the wall and I cannot reach it.  I am still not sure I am done cleaning out.  AND now I have to leave my room, walk past my roommate without looking in that direction and go to a different room.

I chose compassion.  Even as they left me in another room with yet another roommate, with no commode and a phone which was almost dead I knew this was not about me.  It was probably at least 45 minutes before they checked in on me and all I could say when the nurse asked if I was okay was , “I am fine.  I want to know that you are okay.”

**side note..my husband asked me why God let her die to which I said we don’t get to decide Jesus does.  Perhaps (not knowing what her test results would have been) taking her home to heaven was Him healing her.  I remember hearing her say Jesus several times as she was struggling in that last hour.  If this medical issue had to happen so that my husband could pray the love of the Father over her then nothing was in vain.  Jesus left the 99 to come after her and what an honor that He chose my husband and I to be His co-labors.

My friends this is compassion.  Putting the needs of others before yours in any circumstance KNOWING God is in control and you are in the palm of His hand.

SATURDAY

8 am  Colonoscopy #2  Discovered I was bleeding around one of the clamps.  Doctor said I was 1 in 1,000 cases.  Boy did I feel special knowing that only 1 in 1,000 people have to do two colon cleanses back to back….

9:30 am  Back in my room still a bit groggy.  Since I had not slept at all Friday I thought this would be a great opportunity to get some much needed sleep.  I thought wrong.  My new roommate was this very sweet lady who was going to have her second stomach cancer surgery in the morning.  At first I thought we were just going to be roommates but my compassion kicked in again and we began sharing stories.  Then just as I was about to sleep she began to call everyone on her phone list to let them know when her surgery would be and where she was.

Here again a chance to be offended especially since now I am sleep deprived.  I still chose compassion.  She was facing cancer.  I was fixed back up.  So I put my headphones in and turned up some worship music.

10:30 am  Roommates entire family shows up…I have decided sleep is drastically overrated and just give up.  BUT then I have to use the restroom..ugh..there goes any shred of dignity I may have had left as I proceeded to parade to the bathroom in my beautiful hospital gown amongst all of her closest freinds and family.

So the rest of my day consisted of attempted sleep, clear liquid diet, chatting with my roommate and blood draws.  AND THEN the crushing news came that I would not be able to go home when my husband got out of work.  I cried.  Literally sat there and cried as the doctor left the room.  I was just devastated.  I just wanted to go home.  I just wanted sleep.  I just wanted all of this to be over.  I argued with God for a bit and I knew I was not going to win.  He had one more assignment for me.

12 pm blood draw

(clear liquids only)

6 pm blood draw

(liquid diet..lol  pretty much the same as clear liquid)

I was beginning to let fear arise in me every time it got close to a blood draw time.  They were having difficulty finding a place to draw.  I was also becoming fearful of eating anything because I was not absolutely positive the bleeding had stopped.  Now everyone who knows me knows I do not have panic attacks or allow fear to run rapid in my life.  I am sure part of it was being over tired and hungry but I am a feeler so I am sure I was picking up some of the fear which lingers in hospital settings.

9:30  My husband comes to tell me good night.  My roommate had taken a sleeping pill and was sleeping soundly.  I FINALLY feel like I can sleep.  I did!  Woke up feeling like I had won the lottery.  I thought I had slept for like 6 or 8 hours and I had missed the midnight blood draw only to discover is was 8 minutes to 12 and anxiety erupted as I heard her coming down the hall.

I drifted in and out of sleep counting down the time to my last blood draw and banking on the promise from the doctor that I would be her first stop and I would be able to go home.

7:20 am  Doctor says I can go home!  I have to order breakfast first and then I can get dressed and call my husband.  Man, I could not get to that phone fast enough to order breakfast!

7:30 am  Calling down for breakfast and start chatting with the lady about what I would like and one thing leads to another.  I discover her husband had a heart attack that Monday and they were facing a great deal of testing in the near future.  I was able to speak life into her situation and give her some encouragement.  My final assignment.  I could go home.

 

In conclusion God did so many amazing things while I was in the hospital.  I learned what true compassion was.  I learned to put myself last and others first.  I was able to pray for a dying woman, the nursing staff, the lady with stomach cancer and the kitchen staff all while I was dealing with my own emotions and health issues. I learned Jesus comes for the 1.  He will always come for the one.  I was not 1 in 1,000 I was 1 in 100 and He left me to go search out the others.  He knew I was okay right where I was and came seeking those who were lost.

One last thing which I call the icing to my cake….I was a bit worried because now I had lost two days of work.  Things were already a bit tight and I was not looking forward to seeing how low my paycheck was.  As I opened the envelope to discover the amount could not have been figured correctly…it was way more than I expected.  I flipped the check over to discover we had received a bonus. There was enough to cover my two missed days with some left over.  God is so faithful to those who follow after Him.

God is so good.  God is so kind.  His love is overwhelming.  He will leave the 99 to find the one every time!  I encourage you to listen to the song “Reckless” by Cory Asbury.  Tune out everything else and just listen to this song.  I believe God will speak to you through the lyrics.  

Reckless Love

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From Drops to Floods

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But me he caught—reached all the way from sky to sea; he pulled me out Of that ocean of hate, that enemy chaos, the void in which I was drowning. They hit me when I was down, but God stuck by me. He stood me up on a wide-open field; I stood there saved—surprised to be loved!
Man, I missed the mark again.  That did not turn out like I wanted it to.  I can’t do anything right.  I failed again. Everyone is going to be mad at me now.
Nobody likes me.  Nobody wants me.  Nobody want to hang out with me.  Nobody wants to spend time with me because _________________________.  (fill in the blank)  Everybody hates me, what good am I?
I feel like we think  plagues were just a thing of the past in Old Testament times.

BUT, I feel the devil uses counterfeit plagues to keep us in fear and bondage in our minds.  So many of us struggle everyday with our minds.  We never think we measure up to the standards of God or man.  We feel like no matter how hard we try nothing seems to turn out right and we think people are mad at us INCLUDING God Himself.

Ugh!  Stupid devil.  I am so tired of people living in fear of failure.  It causes so much stress and anxiety to good people.  God does not intend for us to spend one minute or even one second thinking that He is mad at us.  He gave up His only Son to die on a cross which took care of all of that.  Now He only sees us through His Son.

We are good enough.  We are worthy of love.  We are loved by God.  

If we could only wrap our heads around this every waking moment of the day we could live in a river of peace so deep and wide nothing much else would matter.  If we messed up at work we would just forgive ourselves and float down the river on our inflatable mattress without a care in the world.  If we felt like we disappointed someone we would just ask for forgiveness and continue on down the river, eyes on Jesus because in the end He is all that matters.

When those drops of doubt start invading out minds, its really hard to stop them because the devil will just keep bringing up your past and pretty soon you find yourself in a flood of disaster barely holding your life together.  Everything seems dark (plague of darkness).  Everything seems to be too noisy (plague of frogs).  Things seem to be so irritating (plague of lice, boils & locusts).  We feel like we have lost everything (plague of livestock and firstborn).  And nothing we seem to do makes us feel any better almost as if we have poisoned ourselves (plague of water into blood).

Do you see how twisted the devil has made or minds?  What a mess we seem to be…YET..that’s not how God sees us.  Let me show you how God sees us:

We are Loved.

We are Valuable.

We are wanted.

We are NOT rejected.

We are Blameless.

We are the Righteousness of God.

We are Worthy.

We are Friends of God.

We are God’s living stones.

We are Children of God.

This is how we should be floating down that river of peace.  Knowing who we are in Christ!  Spend some time today and begin to believe who you are in Christ.  Below are  90 I am statements, read through them  and begin to BELIEVE in who you are to God.

I am blameless and free from accusation. (Colossians 1:22) Christ Himself is in me. (Colossians 1:27) I am firmly rooted in Christ and am now being built up in Him. (Col. 2:7) I have been made complete in Christ. (Colossians 2:10) I have been spiritually circumcised. My old unregenerate nature has been removed. (Colossians 2:11) I have been buried, raised, and made alive with Christ. (Colossians 2:12,13) I died with Christ and I have been raised up with Christ. My life is now hidden With Christ in God. Christ is now my life. (Colossians 1:1-4) I am an expression of the life of Christ because He is my life. (Colossians 3:4) I am chosen of God, holy and dearly loved. (Col. 3:12; 1 Thessalonians 1:4) I am a son of light and not of darkness. (1 Thessalonians 5:5) I have been given a spirit of power, love, and self-discipline. (2 Timothy 1:7) I have been saved and set apart according to God’s doing. (2 Timothy 1:9; Titus 3:5) Because I am sanctified and am one with the Sanctifier, He is not ashamed to call me brother. (Hebrews 2:11) I am a holy partaker of a heavenly calling. (Hebrews 3:1) I have the right to come boldly before the throne of God to find mercy and grace in a time of need. (Hebrews4:16) I have been born again. (1 Peter 1:23) I am one of God’s living stones, being built up in Christ as a spiritual house. (1 Peter 2:5) I am a member of a chosen race, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a People for God’s own possession. (1 Peter 2:9,10) I am an alien and stranger to this world in which I temporarily live. (1 Peter 2:11) I am an enemy of the devil. (1 Peter 2:11) I have been given exceedingly great and precious promises by God by Which I am a partaker of God’s divine nature. (2 Peter 1:4) I am forgiven on the account of Jesus’ name. (1 John 2:12) I am anointed by God. (1 John 2:27) I am a child of God and I will resemble Christ when He returns. (1 John 3:1,2) I am loved. (1 John 4:10) I am like Christ. (1 John 4:10) I have life. (1 John 5:12) I am born of God, and the evil one…the devil…cannot touch me. (1 John 5:`8) I have been redeemed. (Revelation 5:9) Over 90 Statements from Scripture Describing Who I Am In Christ My Nature In Christ I have been healed. (Isaiah 53:5) I am the salt of the earth. (Matthew 5:13) I am the light of the world. (Matthew 5:14) I am commissioned to make disciples. (Matthew 28:19,20) I am a child of God. (John 1:12) I have eternal life. (John 10:27) I have been given peace. (John 14:27) I am part of the true vine, a channel of Christ’s life. (John 15:1,5) I am clean. (John 15:3) I am Christ’s friend. (John 15:15) I am chosen and appointed by Christ to bear His fruit. (John 15:16) I have been given glory. (John 17:22) I have been justified…completely forgiven and made righteous. (Romans 5:1) I died with Christ and died to the power of sin’s rule over my life. (Romans 6:1-6) I am a slave of righteousness. (Romans 6:18) I am free from sin and enslaved to God. (Romans 6:22) I am free forever from condemnation. (Romans 8:1) I am a son of God; God is spiritually my Father. (Romans 8:14, 15 Galatians 3:26; 4:6) I am a joint heir with Christ, sharing His inheritance with Him (Romans 8:17) I am more than a conqueror through Christ, who loves me. (Romans 8:37) I have faith. (Romans 12:3) I have been sanctified and called to holiness. (1 Corinthians 1:2) I have been given grace in Christ Jesus. (1Corinthians 1:4) I have been placed into Christ, by God’s doing. (1 Corinthians 1:30) I have received the Spirit of God into my life that I might know the things feely given to me by God. (1 Corinthians 2:12) I have been given the mind of Christ. (1 Corinthians 2:16) I am a temple…a dwelling place…of God. His Spirit and His life dwell in me. (1 Corinthians 3:16; 6:19) I am united to the Lord and am one spirit with Him. (1 Corinthians 6:17) I am bought with a price; I am not my own; I belong to God. (1 Corinthians 6:19,20; 7:23) I am called. (1 Corinthians 7:17) I am a member of Christ’s Body. (1 Corinthians 12:27; Ephesians 5:30) I am victorious through Jesus Christ. (1 Corinthians 15:57) I have been established, anointed and sealed by God in Christ, and I have been given to the Holy Spirit as a pledge guaranteeing my inheritance to come. (2 Corinthians 1:21; Ephesians 1:13,14) I am led by God in triumphal procession. (2 Corinthians 2:14) I am to God the fragrance of Christ among those who are being saved and those who are perishing. (2 Corinthians 2:15) I am being changed into the likeness of Christ. (2 Corinthians 3:18 Since I have died, I no longer live for myself, but for Christ. (2 Corinthians 5:14,15) I am a new creation. (2 Corinthians 5:17) I am reconciled to God and am a minister of reconciliation. (2 Corinthians 5:18,19) I have been made righteous. (2 Corinthians 5:21) I am given strength in exchange for weakness. (2 Corinthians 12:10) I have been crucified with Christ and it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me. The life I am now living is Christ’s life. (Galatians 2:20) I am a son of God and one in Christ. (Galatians 3:26, 28) I am Abraham’s seed…an heir of the promise. (Galatians 3:29) I am an heir of God since I am a son of God. (Galatians 4:6,7) I am a saint. (Ephesians 1:1; ! Corinthians 1:2; Philippians 1:1; Colossians 1:2) I have been blessed with every spiritual blessing. (Ephesians 1:3) I was chosen in Christ before the foundation of the world to be holy and am without blame before Him. (Ephesians 1:4) I was predestined…determined by God…to be adopted as God’s son. (Ephesians 1:5) I have been sealed with the Holy Spirit. (Ephesians 1:13) I have been redeemed and forgiven, and I am a recipient of His lavish grace. I have been made alive together with Christ. (Ephesians 2:5) I have been raised up and seated with Christ in heaven. (Ephesians 2:6) I am God’s workmanship…His handiwork…born anew in Christ to do His work. (Ephesians 2:10) I have direct access to God through the Spirit. (Ephesians 2:18) I am a fellow citizen with the rest of God’s family. (Ephesians 2:19) I may approach God with boldness, freedom, and confidence. (Eph. 3:12) I am righteous and holy. (Ephesians 2:24) I am a citizen of heaven, seated in heaven right now. (Philippians 3:20 Ephesians 2:6) I am capable. (Philippians 4:13) I have been rescued from the domain of Satan’s rule and transferred to the kingdom of Christ. (Colossians 1:13) I have been redeemed and forgiven of all my sins. The debt against me has been cancelled. (Colossians 1:14)

http://www.risenking.org/_literature_125219/Who_I_Am_In_Christ

Faith Zero

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[ Faith in What We Don’t See ] The fundamental fact of existence is that this trust in God, this faith, is the firm foundation under everything that makes life worth living. It’s our handle on what we can’t see. The act of faith is what distinguished our ancestors, set them above the crowd.
Ever been so lost at sea that you are being tossed to and fro and lose all sense of where you are?  Ever been driving in a storm and lightening is flashing and thunder is crashing all around you and your body is on high alert of danger?  Ever gone to a new school and as all the unfamiliar faces gawk at you in curiosity you feel unwanted and unliked?  Well, this is what life is without faith.  Without faith nothing is possible.  Faith is how we get closer to God and it is the very substance that brings us into the presence of God.
When my faith was at zero I could not make heads or tails of my life.  I was standing in a dirt storm chocking on everything that hit me.  My eyes hurt because of the debris.  My lungs were working over time to catch up with the fear racing through my body.  I could not see God.  I could not see anything good in my life.  I felt doomed to die right where I had chosen to be.  Now that might sound a bit dramatic but when you get to the point in your life where you feel that you must fix all of your mistakes before God can change your life, that’s how it feels.
Empty. Exhausted. Alone. Depressed. I begin to seek God.  I wanted out of my mess.  I wanted to feel what life felt like again.  I longed to smile.  I longed to be carefree.  I had this burning desire within me to move beyond my past, yet I could not make sense of the broken, shattered heart laying before me.  Where do I even begin to let God into my mess?
With one teeny tiny seed of faith.  One moment of surrender on my lips.  One whispered sentence into the surrounding darkness, “I’m sorry Lord, please forgive me.”
My life has been dramatically changed in five short years because I chose to believe God was bigger than any mess I could have ever gotten myself into.  God is bigger than addictions.  God is bigger than abuse.  God is bigger than neglect.  God is bigger than shame.  God is bigger than sin.  God is bigger than regret.  God is bigger than pain.  God is bigger than any bad decision I ever made.
Today I can hold my head up and be thankful for my word of the year: FAITH.  I look forward now to what God can and will do in my life.  My marriage, children, job and christian walk are all in His hands and I just need to rest in the knowledge of who He is.  Yes. Rest.
Dear God,  I thank You and praise You for bringing me to such sweet freedom in knowing who You are.  I pray that You will keep me on track.  I long to Linger in Your sweet Presence.  Lord, I pray for those who are reading this today that they will begin to believe that You are bigger than anything in their life right now.  I pray all will find rest in You today.  Thank You for being bigger than life to us.
In Jesus Name.  Amen.

Simple Enough

This is how we know we’re living steadily and deeply in him, and he in us: He’s given us life from his life, from his very own Spirit. Also, we’ve seen for ourselves and continue to state openly that the Father sent his Son as Savior of the world. Everyone who confesses that Jesus is God’s Son participates continuously in an intimate relationship with God. We know it so well, we’ve embraced it heart and soul, this love that comes from God.

1 John 4:16 MSG

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What is simple faith?  Even though it starts with the word “simple” it is in fact quite complicated at times yet only because we seem to make it that way.  In our busy lifestyles as life has us doing a million and one things at the same time, we find it hard sometimes to fit sharing Jesus into our over booked schedules.  Sure we go to church and we attend Sunday school class and maybe a Wednesday class to further our “education” of Christ, but do we take it anywhere else?

So often we leave Christ on that cross and we know that we are saved.  We know what He has done for us.  We know the impact His death made in our lives, yet we seem to want to keep Him all to ourselves sometimes.  There are so many hurting and dying people on this earth it would make any Christian’s head spin.  As a matter of fact it seems overwhelming many times.  So we try to give out our little tracts and leave nice notes for waitresses.  We give where there is a need.  We try to show Jesus to others through our gifts and actions.

My husband and I stepped out in faith in church along with several other people and we accepted the anointing of moving into that next step in our ministry.  I am not sure how anyone else felt, but I know I experienced an intense love form the Father.  I felt pulled closer to His side than ever before.  As my husband and I continue to seek God we are discovering that it is easier to share Jesus in the simple things.  Everywhere we go we just talk to people and take the time to maybe just say hi.

When it comes to sharing Jesus with others we just have to go at it with the insight that everyone deserves a chance to meet Jesus and if they say no, remember it is not you that they are rejecting but rather they are rejecting Jesus for their lives.  We have to keep pressing into God for wisdom and strength so that we can continue to move forward for His Kingdom.  We all have a plan and a purpose for our lives and God may have it that you bring one person to Christ or ten thousand.  You might be the one person who introduces Jesus to the next Billy Graham or you might speak in front of thousands of people yourself.

Witnessing for Jesus is a life long process.  We need to just live a simple lifestyle which displays Jesus to every walk of life.  If we preach it, we have to practice it.  If we share the Word of God, we have to believe it ourselves.  We have found that more and more people are just drawn to the Jesus in us and we really don’t have to do much, people just want that tangible presence of God that we carry within.  If you have accepted Jesus into your heart then you too carry the presence of God where ever you go.  Just be who you are in Christ and people will see Him, it’s as simple as that.