[ Faith in What We Don’t See ] The fundamental fact of existence is that this trust in God, this faith, is the firm foundation under everything that makes life worth living. It’s our handle on what we can’t see. The act of faith is what distinguished our ancestors, set them above the crowd.
Ever been so lost at sea that you are being tossed to and fro and lose all sense of where you are? Ever been driving in a storm and lightening is flashing and thunder is crashing all around you and your body is on high alert of danger? Ever gone to a new school and as all the unfamiliar faces gawk at you in curiosity you feel unwanted and unliked? Well, this is what life is without faith. Without faith nothing is possible. Faith is how we get closer to God and it is the very substance that brings us into the presence of God.
When my faith was at zero I could not make heads or tails of my life. I was standing in a dirt storm chocking on everything that hit me. My eyes hurt because of the debris. My lungs were working over time to catch up with the fear racing through my body. I could not see God. I could not see anything good in my life. I felt doomed to die right where I had chosen to be. Now that might sound a bit dramatic but when you get to the point in your life where you feel that you must fix all of your mistakes before God can change your life, that’s how it feels.
Empty. Exhausted. Alone. Depressed. I begin to seek God. I wanted out of my mess. I wanted to feel what life felt like again. I longed to smile. I longed to be carefree. I had this burning desire within me to move beyond my past, yet I could not make sense of the broken, shattered heart laying before me. Where do I even begin to let God into my mess?
With one teeny tiny seed of faith. One moment of surrender on my lips. One whispered sentence into the surrounding darkness, “I’m sorry Lord, please forgive me.”
My life has been dramatically changed in five short years because I chose to believe God was bigger than any mess I could have ever gotten myself into. God is bigger than addictions. God is bigger than abuse. God is bigger than neglect. God is bigger than shame. God is bigger than sin. God is bigger than regret. God is bigger than pain. God is bigger than any bad decision I ever made.
Today I can hold my head up and be thankful for my word of the year: FAITH. I look forward now to what God can and will do in my life. My marriage, children, job and christian walk are all in His hands and I just need to rest in the knowledge of who He is. Yes. Rest.
Dear God, I thank You and praise You for bringing me to such sweet freedom in knowing who You are. I pray that You will keep me on track. I long to Linger in Your sweet Presence. Lord, I pray for those who are reading this today that they will begin to believe that You are bigger than anything in their life right now. I pray all will find rest in You today. Thank You for being bigger than life to us.
In Jesus Name. Amen.