Ever get a word for God and it just makes you stop in your tracks? Do you wonder how you arrived at where you are only to discover what you had been holding on to was not God’s actual plan? Ever been so touched by God that you can only follow after what He opens for you? Well my husband John and I are at that place in our life right now. Short catch up for those who may not have been following for long.
I was married once to a drug and alcohol abuser, had two wonderful children who are 23 and almost 21 at the moment. One dark night following a suicide attempt with a 410 shotgun by my now ex-husband, God made a way for me to be restored in the fullness of life He had waiting for me. After declaring to the Lord that I did not desire to have another man in my life, John showed up. No interest at first but God began a work in both of us we could not ignore. So in 2012 I married a man 19 years younger than myself and we have been happier then two pigs in mud. Now, we decided that having children would not be an option. He did not have a desire to have children and I was okay with that, being in my 40s….well God has presented a different plan….
A few months ago John and I attended a conference at our church and as we were standing at the altar afterwards just basking in His glory, a man of God looked straight through me as he was putting his guitar away. I immediately knew God was up to something. He approached us and asked me if I was a mother. I said yes of two grown children. I got excited suddenly as if I was going to receive a great word of encouragement for one of my children..nope..not at all what I expected happened next…He says to me and my husband, “Well, the Lord says He will make a way for you to have another child, financially and all other things included, but you have to be in agreement.”
What happened next?? Tears and tears and tears and more sobbing tears. I did not know how to respond so I just stood there and cried knowing that my husband standing next to me was not going to receive the word of knowledge very well. To make a long story short, God spoke to John and melted his heart and he now desires to be a daddy. For you see, John being afraid of making mistakes as a father, had no desire to have a child of his own. We also had another issue..my tubes have been tied since 1994.
So what has happened in the last few weeks? Well, my husband got a new job with great potential, I got a raise at work, I just got around to adding disability to my health insurance and financially we are coming in line. Then today it was like the icing on the cake when I went to see an OBYGN, because my personal doctor feels I am high risk for pregnancy. So when I arrived at my appointment I was filled with doubt. I was prepared to just hear bad news and reasons why I should not even try to get pregnant.
Once again God blew me away with His wisdom. This doctor was amazing. She offered several options from operations to fertility doctors but it was like she sensed I was not going to choose any of those ways to get pregnant. The minute she said, “There is this one option. It’s a herb from the Health Hutt.” I knew that God had set me up! He knows the cry of my heart. He knows that I have complete faith in Him. This herb she told me as gotten two persons with completely tied tubes (medically proven) pregnant–she called them the miracle babies. She said it cannot be medically explained.
So what now? Well, we take prenatal vitamins and folic acid and this herb and we pray! I was just amazed this afternoon when I connected the dots of how everything has taken place in order. Then to top it off I thought about the doctor and her knowledge of this herb–she had found out about this through a patient. The fun part about that is, I did not get to choose who I was going to see..God did! So now, it’s all up to God because there is no other way!