Where Am I?

Jeremiah 29:11 (MSG)

10-11 This is God’s Word on the subject: “As soon as Babylon’s seventy years are up and not a day before, I’ll show up and take care of you as I promised and bring you back home. I know what I’m doing. I have it all planned out—plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for.

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Sure seems like decades since I last wrote a blog.  I could just blanket it with a response like “I have been busy” which is the truth, however, what am I really doing?

I have known since I was in kindergarten that I wanted to be a writer.  When I wrote my first poem at he age of 6 I fell in love with the freedom I had in writing.  As I grew up I found that I could tell others what was going in my life with words on paper which was easier than face to face communication.

Now here I am 38 years later with two published books and one at the editing process.  But what am I really doing?  I am still working full time as a restaurant manger and trying to fit my real passion into this whenever I can.  At the current moment let me be real with you as a reader and fellow human.

I feel worthless.  I feel like I have accomplished zip in my life thus far.  A week ago I was ready to just quit.  Why bother? The books are not selling.  I don’t have the time to blog or write the sequel to Addicted to An Addict.  Then the thoughts:  Am I really making an impact on people?  Do my words even make sense?  Am I actually helping anybody????

Then God stepped in.  In one Sunday night service.  In 8 minutes of my life, God spoke clearly.  We have a psalmist in our church who sings prophetic words over people and that Sunday night God used her to speak right to me.  God said not to fear writing the next book.  He said I would write things that I did not even now about and that it would cause controversy.  He told me not to give up.  To rejoice.  To write.

As I let these words simmer in my soul I kept hearing, “Make room for the anointing.”   These words always came up when I would argue with God about the time I had at hand.  Work. Photography. Writing. Blogging. Church.  Socializing.  The only thing I could hear in all of it was “Make room”.

So I am in the process of making room.  I believe in the Jeremiah 29:11 lifestyle that there is already a plan for my life and I just need to be obedient and listen for God before I move.  I have to come to this place where I just trust God completely and if He says “Make  Room for the Anointing” then that is what needs to happen in order for Jeremiah 29:11 to become a reality in my life.

Time for a schedule change and a  goal process to begin!!!

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One thought on “Where Am I?”

  1. I really like that you early on what part of your mission in life was to be. I look forward to reading more about your journey.

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