Just as you sent me into the world, I am sending them into the world.
Today I am listening to God more than I ever have. As I follow my heart and lean not on my own understanding, I fall deeper and deeper in love with Jesus. Sometimes He leads me to places where I have to have completely trust in Him. I need to step out in faith and totally let go of everything I had trusted in. Yes, being sold out to Jesus is a most awesome place to be, yet it can scary sometimes.
Tonight I left a church I have been at for 8 years. The church where I was healed from great brokenness. A place where I learned to trust people again. I body of people who accepted me just as I am, brokenness and all. I learned so many things from so many different people, things I will treasure forever. I made friends and even was an encourager to some. When God started tugging on my heartstrings to move, I was perplexed. I was a youth leader. I had made good friends. I felt grounded and comfortable. I did not understand why God was showing me to move into a different direction.
There is was, that word, comfortable. God will always lead us to places where we can grow so when we get comfy and feel like things are just the way we want them, He moves us. He stirs our hearts and begins to tug us into a new direction. As I have been attending revival meetings I am being drawn closer and closer to moving into the destiny God has already set out for me. I am sad to be moving on but I also know this is moving forward. Being asked to move into a ministry position in a revival setting is where my heart truly is.
As I am taking this leap of faith I am realizing just how much I need to lean on God in these circumstances. Some just won’t understand why and others will be supportive. I am not leaving for any other reason but God is pulling me closer to the destiny He has set out for me. I will miss the youth greatly and the wonderful friends I have made, yet I know that I will be rewarded for my obedience in moving when God says to move. He has such great things planned out for each of us, it is our moment to shine when we say, “Yes” to God and move.
Thank you for the love and the compassion over the years. I wish I could personally thank each person who has touched my life, but time does not allow it. I pray for each of you that you believe in Jeremiah 29:11 and begin to see that no matter what stage you are in your life, He still has your destiny in His hands. As I press into the things God has for me, surely I will find great joy and refuge in doing the work of the Lord.