Blessed is the one who perseveres under trial because, having stood the test, that person will receive the crown of life that the Lord has promised to those who love Him.
Under normal circumstances, I would NEVER have posted this photo of myself. But, today is not a normal day by any means. After a little bit of road rage on the way to the store, while driving my dad, then a few people “in my way” at the store, and a grumpy dad because of it, and then 3 hours of healthy food prep for the week only to have someone say to me (I am sure in love and concern):
“Have you lost any weight since you started making all this “heathy food” because it sure doesn’t look like it.”
Preface this with the night before my body acting out of whack and not getting much sleep and this makes for a very “fleshy” day. Under normal circumstances I usually don’t have road rage and I am not irritated by those also shopping for their weekly groceries but for some reason today was just one of those days. Then when I heard the words of defeat concerning my weight I was just done.
On a day like today I just need to take the advice of our pastor this morning and “Adjust my crown” and know who I am in Christ. On a day like today I need not worry about the mistakes I have made, I just need to adjust my crown and move forward. When one realizes they are the daughter or son of the Most High King the perspective of life should change. One should be able to stand up tall and put their shoulders back and accept who God says they are not what the world just threw at them.
I could walk around the rest of the day moping and sulking because nothing I seem to do changes my outward appearance. I have cut out soda (6 months), I have GREATLY reduced my sugar intake and gluten. I cook fresh veggies for lunch and eat salad…I could go on but I think we all know the routine. What will it take to lose the weight? More healthy eating? More exercise? More defeat to push me to try harder? I have been there and done that for months now with no results. I even was doing my Faith and Fitness videos and feeling really motivated until I saw no results so I just gave up. Defeated I stopped encouraging others all together. Why bother?
Well, it’s time for me to put on my “Big Girl Panties” and buck up to the plate and try harder. Do more to be active. Do more to be healthy. Concentrate all my time on measuring and monitoring my meals. Time for me to be very meticulous about what goes on health wise for my body….
WAIT…(INSERT SOUND OF A RECORD STOPPING ABRUPTLY)
I do not need to do any of those things if they are causing me to worry or be stressed. I must simply adjust my crown and move on. Move to prayer and resting at the feet of Jesus, for it is at His feet that I will received all of the answers I need. It is in my resting where God can do His most mighty miracles.
I am at the heaviest I have ever been pushing 210 pounds. No wonder I am tired. No wonder my body is out of whack, however, I can’t do anything about it if I am worried and stressed and over achieving. Pushing myself to get motivated. I am only going to achieve weight loss if I take Jesus with me. If I allow myself to be still long enough, He will show me what to do and give me the desire to complete it.
Well, now that I have decided to straighten my crown and not to accept what the world thinks about me, I can enjoy the rest of my evening with my beloved husband knowing that I am loved by the Most High King and He is happy to see me with my crown on straight and my heart in the right place.
Today I pray for all of those who are struggling with poor self image and weight issues. Help them to see themselves as You see them not like the world does. Help them to rest in You and to be still long enough to hear what the next move is. I pray Lord for hearts to be healed and lives changed. I pray for crowns to be straightened and for minds to be renewed. Thank You Lord for direction in all areas of our lives. Thank You that You accept us just as we are and You love us right where we are. In Jesus Name Amen.